2:45 pm I am ecological design�I am not rich enough to always eat organic�I am the subtle contradictions and hypocrisy which underlie being environmentally conscious�I am doing what I can and hoping that that keeps being more�I am inspired by 21 year olds�I am wishing I were still in college�I am a year and two months out, but still feeling like a student�I am tequila shots and fat tire and swimming in my clothes until four�I am acting like a big sister and wanting to protect each one of them�I am wanting it all to work out for everyone and hoping that they will be strong enough to work through adversity�I am wanting a new library card�I am a book list that is predominately non-fiction�I am needing the energy to live well, to be healthy and to bring my overall lifestyle up to my standards�I am detox�I am day one all over again�I am a 24 hour fast and needing to really connect with the things that will take me forward�I am a clear mind and a very conscious disposition�I am an observer�I am concerned and considerate and willing to sacrifice in order to make things work�I am good with names�I am good with faces�I am sporadic memory and a knack for the things left unsaid�I am leading by example�I am not the center of attention�I am not the spotlight�I am accepting my role�I am not bitter�I am, for the most part, ready to take this thing up a level�I am always looking for ways to improve, to make more positive, to move forward�I am hoping I have the energy to always seek more answers, to always be critical, but accepting, to make informed choices�I am hoping that I�ll stop saying �tomorrow� and �yesterday� and begin to use the present tense�