10:04 AM I�ve been feeling the need, lately, to both purify and simplify my life�I�m not sure the two are exactly the same, but they seem to go hand-in-hand�I want to be healthy, to feel healthy, on all levels�physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally�I don�t want to be weighed down by things�by my �stuff��I want to slowly weed out the things that I don�t need�I want to turn off the TV and get a library card�I want to wake up in the mornings with energy, and a purpose�I want to clean up and organize and tie up all the loose ends�I want to have a routine, but not be afraid to break it�I want to eat until I�m full, not any less, and not any more�I want to balance everything-my checkbook, my meals, my tasks at work and at home�I want to hike and bike and run and pick up a tennis racket again�I want to be outside, even when it�s 110�I want to have more than two hours awake at home every day�I want my cats to feel loved and well fed�I want to find access to a darkroom so that I can start working where I left off�I want to take my camera with me everywhere and document what�s going on around me�I want to read non-fiction books and learn about desert animals, and �smart growth,� and sustainability�I want to plan to go back to school�I want to buy a house�I want to buy a bike�I want to live somewhere where I can walk almost everywhere�I want to be able to do all of this, to have all of this, too much too soon�I need to learn patience�I�m not sure where this is all coming from, but I do know that I feel like I�ve got this time now (not a lot of it, really, but some) to get stuff in order, REALLY in order�I�ve been in Tucson for two months, and though that doesn�t seem like a great deal of time, I need to get myself past the �I�m just moving in� phase�my boxes are all unpacked, but I don�t have everything set up the way I want it, and I can�t seem to make myself put away my clean laundry after I wash it, so I�ve got clothes covering all of the furniture in my room�I�m getting less and less anal these days, and I think that might be a good thing�no one is ever at my apartment besides me, anyway�and while I like it clean and organized, I�m not too concerned with piles of clean clothes not being put away�I�m looking forward to this weekend�I�ve got nothing going on�at all�since I�ve been running around the past couple of weekends, it�ll be a welcome change�I�ve got to get back to work!�ugh�