8:22 AM I�ve got so much to write about I�m not even sure where to start�so I�ll probably end up jumping around a lot in this one�I don�t really feel like talking about my trip to Vermont, so I�m going to skip it and perhaps come back to it later�there are too many emotions involved, and I�ve not got it sorted out at this point, so I just won�t mention any more about it�here�s a tangent-I�ve been thinking about the whole butch/femme thing lately, and how exactly it is that people play in to it so much�of course, I�m of the mind that we all fall somewhere on the butch/femme continuum (as well as the masculine/feminine and the homosexual/heterosexual continuum-Adrienne Rich�s �Lesbian continuum�), but I�ve never really felt like I was on one side or the other�so, like the procrastinator that I am, I decided to take this quiz that I found on the net (after finishing one project, before starting another)�and, as it turns out, I�m an �androgyne��how surprising�I fall between 48-52 on a butch-femme scale of 1-100�talk about middle of the road�agh-but I�m repeating the results�here they are:
ANDROGYNE
Your score placed you in the category of Androgyne. This is the true middle of the road, neither butch nor femme. You may also wish to review Soft Androgyne and Hard Androgyne, the two categories surrounding you. In a ranking across the femme/butch gamut, if 1 is femme and 100 is butch, you fall between 48 and 52 on the scale. For a review of where you fall in the overall population in numbers, refer to this chart. Your group encompasses folks of all types, genders, and orientations, though is not as large a part of the population as the hard and soft androgynes surrounding you. You are the best of both worlds, and have absolutely no feeling of being either femme or butch. You see yourself as "you" and that's all that matters. You dislike labels, surprised yourself by even taking this test, and are now laughing as you identify with this definition! You switch roles fluidly without thinking from nurturing/subordinate to providing/leading as the situation demands. You are often a jack or jill of all trades and master of a few, but not all. In clothing you go for the practical, not always bothering with the concept of neatness if that interferes with comfort or the time it takes to get dressed. Wrinkles don't drive you crazy, though you do prefer to keep reasonably up to date in your style, without going to any extreme in it. You are shy in many ways, being intimidated by overt aggression as well as complete silence in a conversation. You tend to babble to fill silent space and clam up when confronted. Odds are good astrologically that you are a Libra, Pisces, Gemini, or Aquarius. You're willing to try anything once as long as it does not pose a risk to you. You're also good at doing just about any job, as long as you find a way to get trained for it. Physically, you're average in fitness, not being overly concerned about being either "curvy" or "chisled". If you are female and have some endowments, you wear a bra in public but not at home. For partners you are comfortable with all types, for you are a peacemaker and changeling at heart, changing yourself to fit the situation and avoid hostility. You aren't a doormat, though, and do express your opinions.
so, that�s that�I don�t put too much stock in that sort of thing, but I find it entertaining�and somewhat accurate�I don�t really feel like I �belong� to one side or the other, nor do I find myself attracted to really butch women, or to really feminine women�if I had a type at all, it�d be a much more neutral, fluid, changing with the situation kind of person�but, mostly, I�m not too hard to please�I like brown-hairs and orange-hairs and blonde-hairs; I like blue-eyeds and green-eyeds and big, brown-eyeds; I like curves and lines and soft spots and muscles and freckles and leg hair and glasses and braids and shaved heads and nose rings and toe rings and thumb rings and no rings; I like carnivores and veggies and vegans and fruitarians; I like smokers and drinkers and hyper-health-consciousness; I like to treat or be treated, help or be helped�I�m all over the place, really�and the only thing I have a hard time dealing with is someone who is at one extreme or the other�someone with no contradictions in their personality�someone who is all something, and no something else�because, really, I don�t think that�s real�I have a really hard time believing that there are really people who are ALL butch or ALL femme, all masculine or all feminine, all gay or all straight�and while I do realize that most people fall toward one side or the other, to be at one polar end of does not seem natural to me�
on another note, I�ve stopped wearing a bra�I never wore one at home, but I used to always wear them out, especially to work�but I just can�t bring myself to put one on in the mornings anymore�I don�t know how appropriate or inappropriate it is, and I really don�t care, because I like the world much better when my girls are unbridled�they�re not big enough to cause a ruckus, but not small enough to go unnoticed, so I�m not sure what the rules are�but, for now, it�s staying off�I also stopped eating meat�I�m not really sure why or how it all happened, but I�ve been trying to eat really healthy lately, and I have been cooking all of my meals at home�I never buy meat at the store anyway, and I�ve realized how many things I can cook without it...so, for now, that�s the way it�s going to be�