6:00 pm sometimes I sometimes think I should introduce myself as �stupid��because, really, when I meet new people, I just turn dumb�I�m not sure what it is�I can�t talk normally, I can�t look anyone in the eye�I mumble and stumble and usually end up just sitting with a stupid grin pasted across my face�when some people do that-get shy, tongue-tied, easily embarrassed-it�s endearing�it�s cute, sweet�but me, no�I�m just plain goofy�especially when I�m trying to talk to someone new who I also happen to think is quite cute�then it�s ten times worse�I develop a stutter and my tongue gets too big for my mouth�and, again, I can�t seem to wipe the dopey smile off of my face�I�ve been having far too many gomer fife moments lately�and I wonder if anyone notices�deep deep deep down, I think it�s quite comical�and I don�t really care how much of a dork I present myself to be�because it is funny-the way I blush so easily or lose the ability to say anything besides �yeah, I agree��the way I clam up when I really want to be asking questions-so many questions to these people who I find so intriguing�the way I laugh at everything anyone says�though it shouldn�t really matter to me how I�m being �seen� by all of these new folks I�m meeting, I can�t completely not care�but, as much of a geek I�ve been lately, I�m still quite glad that I am trying to put myself out there�I�ve met quite a few super cool people, and that, for now, makes me quite inspired and content�