It�s a fearful night
Where memories play the bogymen
I want to crawl into a coffin
Where it�s safe
Or throw away my heart
And save myself
I doubt that you love me
When I can�t come in
I think that you�ll hurt me
With later regrets
I fear I am the lesson again
Or that inevitable dead end street
Am I a passing through?
A secret?
A shame?
I fear to ask
For what I need
Because I fear
The rejection more
I knot and untie you
Over and over
Your threads are worn
As is your patience
I give without thinking
That maybe you don�t want
I open without asking
If you even want to see
I shuffle this wall between us
Close to me for protection
Then pushed on you for affection
My back is tired
Of groveling this wall
Back and forth
My self worth sits on a scale
Changing with each mistake
I know that this is fear
And can�t un-fear it
