Oh it�s a hard night
When insomnia is late
And echoes of the past
Scream the loudest scream
And the one of me
That has split into the two of me
Argues with myself again
My fear pulls me into yesterdays
While I can�t even see today in front of me
And mistakes run and sit on my lap
My ever present cat of ruin
Scratching that kind young man
Just because he loves me
And I see it and I cannot stop
Because fear is here to rule me
Doubts start forming conspiracies
With my memory of facts
And facts turn dark and loud
Even as I try to deny their validity
Jumbles and accidents
Traffic jams of reason
And somehow I find myself
On a flat earth full of fear
Swimming to over the horizon
Drowning in the chaotic muck
When all I want is for myself
To love itself and stop being two
And come to one who just
Shuts the hell up and
Goes to sleep
