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my reflection in the mirror
let this be a lesson to you
you know who i am
color me with your lies
tastless memories i can't hardly see
you're not them
tastless vigor
could i be your paperdoll
a walk in the valley
drone
is it me? is it who i never wanted to be?
is my loss of innocence clear in my face?
do my own tears seem out of place?
my eyes, the windows to my soul
serve only the purpose to see
my reflection and let pity take its weary toll
even my legs and arms feel not my own
i cover my ears with trembling hands
in one last painful effort to drone
out the sound of them collapsing
6.20.00
done it
don't be afraid to show it
it's okay to feel the hate
even god is homophobic
don't attempt to hide your color
its you and you know it
this anger was born inside of you
where pent up anger will grow it
come on and hate all the women
you know its yours, you own it
stick it in her face
and tell her, bitch to blow it
this anger is yours alone
it's a burden and you tow it
so come on now and pull the trigger
and know that, yes, you've done it
12.13.00
pawn
what i feel
when did you discover me
when did i reveal
you feel you need to help
that you should be there
but what do you have to offer someone
other than a prayer
you know you can't really help
you know you don't even want to
i'm just a person
in your game
what have you drawn
in your book of prayers for me
are you using me
my pain
my unhappiness
to drain
yourself from guilt
will i get you in the gates
will you smile on your good fate
while i'm trapped
in the flames of my mind
do you grin on me from up above
and laugh at the pawn you left behind?
11.28.00
color me
blind the light from my eyes
and scream and immortalize
the virgin in me that you despise
shrugg it off with a sigh
break myself and let it cry
take me now so i can fly
into your arms that which i dive
i need it now i can't deny
and let my innoncence symbolize
the virgin in me that you despise
12.14.00
bleed
faceless visions i cannot be
how many times
have i wanted to bleed
for a simple chance to breathe
how many times have i watched it leave
my simple hope of sanity
how many times have you cried with greed
to please give you the key
how long will it take you to see
that the only way i can be freed
is to cut and simply bleed
12.12.00
silence
you can't be their friend
don't let them see you
cry again
pull up the flowers
and silence the powers
of the angry mourners
then run and hide
until you find
silent sanctuary in your corner
cry until your tears are sour
your broken pieces you can't defend
and while the cry of silence gets louder
you pray the darkness will cease it again
12.12.00
wings
beat and kick her
in the dim light
you can see her
the angst, the pain
the mortal laughter
distant heaven must soon learn
that it is a human turn
come and beat her
because her wings don't glitter
they faded when
she let god get to her
when the dirty
wings fall down
to the lonely, dirty ground
attach them to your back with a saftey pin
fly off and know the hell is at end
and the skys are human again
12.14.00
paperdoll
cut out my clothes and paste them on
punch me out and let the fun begin
i was made for you
to give you something to do
i was made to be your paper friend
i'm your paperdoll
watch me shine
stand me up
cause now it's my time
i don't mind you have others
i don't mind i'm the one you smother
i don't mind you loose interest easily
i don't mind you hate me freely
can't i be your paperdoll
i'm so eager to please
stand me up now
and flatten out my creases
i'm as good as new
i'm made for you
i'm your paperdoll
don't let me fall
i promise i don't mind at all
fire hurts
it makes me burn
don't kill me yet
it's not my turn
1.01.01
untitled
of the shadow of death
captures me and steals my breath
is this
i ask
the darkness of death
am i captured in the space
filled with the rest
is there a way out
a way of escape
a way out of this place
that i say i hate
this is the bad
the worst, the end
the place where
illness and insanity reap
a place where no one
dares to speak
a place where you've gone
when you've lost your soul
where your heart once remained
is an empty bleeding hole
but there is no way back
back to familiar places
back to home
filled with familiar faces
i lay down and close my eyes
i let it all slip before me
i try but i'm not sucessful
in setting myself free
1.22.00
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