Shhh..Don't speak it

Quaint lil ole town of mine where I do not know where it is anymore.  Stunned and disillusioned, strange and unreal to me does it all now seem, that every day brings forth the yearnings which I  know I could have pursued, but didn’t for the fear of being rejected.  But for the state in which I  now live that it would almost seem dreamlike and easily forgotten when I awake.  Yesterday, today, tomorrow have no meaning to me because for when I awake it is now not later or before so what to do.  So I lie and wait, for something to come and take me away from all the madness I feel within the world around me.  And when the chance comes to dream a delightful dream a ray of light beams into my thoughts and a profound glory seems to emanate from the thoughts of a special someone.  Now the worry though enters my mind that to speak of such an incredible thing would only make it seem that much further away and out of reach.  So not having mentioned of what I speak and only holding the image inside my mind can I be certain that it will stay unblemished and untouched through the passage of time.