it amazes me how i miss you so much when i'm not near you, and yet when i actually see you , i'm so happy i can barely speak. i want to say thank you, and i want to say i'm sorry, and i want to say i forgive you and i want to say i miss you.
thank you for being you. i look at you and i see jesus. i see someone i know i can trust and someone i know will be there for me to listen and give me a hug if i need it.
i wouldn't be where i am without you, physically as well as mentally. i wouldn't be nearly in tears every night, but those hours are easily worth the few seconds i've actually seen you since last year.i'm sorry for all the times i've called when you wanted to be left alone.i'm sorry for cutting conversations short and dropping plans or blowing you off. i'm sorry for not understanding, or ignoring, your schedule.
i forgive you for the times when we couldn't find a time to get together. i forgive you for all the times you had to get off the phone in the middle of a sentence or were forced to back out of plans.
i miss you so much everyday, and this week is worse. i keep expecting you to lean over and comment on something during program or sneak up behind me after work or tell a heart-warming story about how you saw god. i feel like a part of me is gone every time i don't feel you by my side or hear your voice on the phone.
tomorrow night is four corners, and i'm going to miss you even more. i hope you're praying for me.right now i'm more confused than ever because most of my friends have issues (involving me) to resolve and jesus is calling me...my faith is growing daily...and now i'm in tears over some guy i spent a week with and haven't (really) seen for a year.this has never happened to me... can you help me? will you?...
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