| MY JOURNAL |
| Hmm� first entry, what to say, what to say�? You know, I really want to make this a special thing, being as my site just opened last week, I�ve finished one story and are currently working on another one, but I just can�t seem to make it all that important. I feel so bad right now, but I can�t say as to why. I just got back from what was an awesome morning at work, considering. But that feeling of guilt is lurking in my stomach. Like I have done something wrong, yet my mind doesn�t know, therefor I don�t. Maybe it�s just nerves from everything that has been going on, then again; maybe it�s not. If anyone figures it out, then please let me know. You don�t know me, so how can you know what is going on with me? The thing is, you do know me. And I know you. Maybe not in person, but in spirit, we are the same. Why else would you come looking for this site. And if you just �surfed on� how do you think you got here? By coincidence? I think not. It never is. Thanks for listening to my babble. Always, Calie Jones P.S. I am so happy that I finished Plain Old Mindy last night. I started on Plain Old Andy, and it's coming along nicely, I would say. =) But you have to blame it on the fact that my internet went out last night, so I was kind of bored waiting for it to come back on. But anyways, I want your thoughts on my site, so email me at: [email protected] |
| 10/28/01 |
| Isn�t it funny? Today has to have been a wonderful day for me. Everything just felt right. Except for the whether. It was raining all day, and as I was coming home, lightning struck not to far away. How is it possible that I am having such an awesome day, and the whether doesn�t reflect that? But then I got to thinking. Somewhere in this very town, somebody must have died today. Maybe someone is thanking the whether for being the way it is. Maybe they get comfort in knowing that something�s still happen the way they are supposed to. |
| 11/26/01 |
| 11/14/01 He doesn�t love me anymore. That was the thought that entered my mind when he said the words �Things just wont be the same�� It hurts me, knowing that this man that I have given my heart and soul to, has decided that I am not worth his time anymore. I made one mistake and he doesn�t want me. What�s up with that? Did he even love me in the first place? I think not. I loved him with my entire being� I guess that just doesn�t matter though, does it? Anywho, JESS is going to lend her wonderful talents to this site! I am so excited. Ms. Jess has been a friend of mine for a while now, and I knew she was a good writer from the moment I first read one of her stories, so it was with much enthusiasm that I asked her to be a part of this bland site. I thought she would want to be elsewhere, but she�s too nice of a person to turn down one of her friends. Thanky Jess. It�s awesome that you are doing this for me. As soon as I get ANY part of her stories, I will put them up here� oh, I am so excited! Maybe I�ll even let her help with the construction of the site� that would be awesome. Oh, and by the way, although she is brilliant, and loves to read, she is only now getting to the Lord Of the Rings Trilogy, and she didn�t even read The Hobbit first� that urkes me a little bit, but hey, everyone has flaws, right?? Joking Jess, I�m only joking. Always, Calie |
| 12/6/02 Yuck! God I am so sick and I hate the feeling. The wonderful Katie called me tonight to see how I was doing. It�s nice to know that someone cares. I have updated a bit since the last time I wrote. I got All of K.T.�s stuff up and running, and after much frustration, got it to a level of where she was satisfied. It�s not perfect by any means, but it�s not awful either. Jenny has told me that she will be getting me some of her writings. I�m not sure of what yet, but I am hoping for some poems. She knows how to write poems, and I really think you would get something out of it. But it�s up to her. I only wonder what color�s she will want her part of the site to be like. Now that I think about it, this site is completely run by females. I�m gonna have to get some male action up and in here sometime soon, don�t you think? I�ll ask Katie to ask Jon for me. I would call him myself but I don�t know the number. Maybe Charlie would be willing to scan some of his art, and I could possibly start putting up my photos, but hey, I don�t know yet. Jess�s �The Rest of My Life� has been updated, and I she sent me a new story. I still have one chapter of that one lying around here somewhere, but I feel too much like shit to put it up right now. I think I am going to go write some babble now, but if it�s not up, don�t yell at me. I�ve been writing a lot more of that lately, it�s kind of strange. I�ll try to write you a story soon, but for now, my babble and my new �anything� story will have to hold you over. Always, Calie |
| 8/3/02 I have had one of the worst summers of my life, so far. Nothing has gone the way I wanted it to, but then, what ever does? School doesn't start for another month, exactly, so I dont know what to do with the rest of my summer. Maybe nothing, it seems to be working for me. Always, Calie |