No One

i'm so sorry
i didn't mean to cry again
i know it makes me seem just like
the pathetic fool i am

it's just that i woke up today
with this heavy feeling
sitting, standing on my chest
it's just that i can't stand this feeling...

the sun's out
for the first time in days
how can this be happening
with the sun shining hazy through the window?

i can't stand the winter
not for very long
after a while, the cold begins to hurt
the lack of color deadens my eyes

and, somehow, during this season
i feel less understood than ever
i make less sense
god, i want to make sense

...god, i miss you

but no one's bringing me home
still alone here