I Should But I Won't

i should cry because i'm all alone
but i won't
i should hate you because of the way you treated me
but i don't
i should get angry and tell you how i feel
but i won't
i should feel grief for this overwhelming loss
but i don't

i don't care
i won't care that you shattered me
i don't care
i won't care that you turned everyone against me
and i don't care
i won't care that you're such a stupid girl
i just don't care

i should move on, find others who don't suck
but i won't
i should want a friend, a love to hold my hand
but i don't
i should try to make you see the truth is in my eyes
but i won't
i should stop trusting because i know better now
but i don't...i just don't know

but time is time
and life is long
sometimes it just don't pay
to be strong
and sun is sun
and rain is rain
i wish i could just fly away
away from all this pain