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Sep. 9 2001 (9:46pm) Today is the horrible, horrible aniversary of the 5 years of hell in this god ofrgoten country called by the devil's name of Canada!! Don't mind me I think I'm depressing with each passing day even more!! god, just send me by some miracle to the land that I came out of!! ROMANIA!! my friends from here must be like thanx!! But you understand.. I am not from here and I will never be and I will alwasy want to end up if not in Romania then at least Europe but no more of this North Amercaican shit!! I can't take it!! The only thing that keeps me going is hte thought of getting good marks to ge to Romania next summer! But I get e-mails from my friends there that tell me how much fun they're having!!! Kill Me NOW!! :'''(   << I am acually doing that!!! And this fucking country is so fucked up!! it's september and it's fucking 30 degreeses Celcius!!! What the hell?? Yeah I know!! LOL I want heat and when I get it I complain, but at least be consistent!!! Here a week you're freezing, the next you're melting.... but anyways... that's just my little sad pathetic life!!! If I don't write anything any more... it's probably cuz the blood has stoped it's flow in my veins.... ok, I'm probably freaking out some people by now!! But I have to get this out of me!! LOL plus at school I WANT Raffic even more now!! LOL He's totally ignoring me and it's killing me!! LOL He's probably doing it on purpuse!! Or maybe he has no idea I'm alive!! but either way it's a piss off!! :( so... ok that's it for now... I'll bitch some more tomorrow!!! Va pup, See ya..... Nana~

Sep. 10 2001 (6:05pm) So what's new?? I want to Die NOW!! God please just send me back, please please, please, please, please, please.... Right now I'm crying and I'm so fucking sad that I'm not in Romania!!! please, please, please!! I hate my life, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!! My friend from Romania just send me a letter about how much she misses and how I should run away from home to go there (she was just jocking though...obviouslly!) But I wish I could do it. I miss them so fucking much God I hate you so much, you and my mom who had the great idea of bringing me here for a "better" life, I wish I could fucking die right now!! I'm wipping my tears and the keyboard is all wet... I wonder who will read this... oh well, who ever it is, just send me to a mental hospital, maybe they can do a brainwash and erase all these fucking wonderfull memories out of my head cuz I can't fucking stand it anymore!!! You can probably see that the color of today is red, red like the love I have for my friends in romania, red for the blood that I want to stop from flowing in my veins, red like the hate I have for my mom for bringing me to this lost world of the americas!! I want to go back, I want to go back (rocking back and forth while saying this....) and now to make it better the fucking sadess song in the world is playing on my winamp!! Right here waiting for you by Richard Marks. I have to bring lots of water cuz lots of crying and lots of sweating from gym class make me "deshydrate" I wish  the subject for a compo I have to write this year, would be the meaning of friendship or how much your friends mean to you or stuff like that... I am going crazy, crazy, crazy...... and my birthday is coming up and my romanian friends will write to me and say how if I was there they would have a big party with lots of fucking people from anywhere... da aici pe pula mea o sa faca vrodata!! So in conclusion it is only september and if I see them again (my friends from romania) it will be in fucking june!! So basically I try to go through each day thinking of that sweet summer day when the plane will land on the soil of MY land and I will be welcomed by all of them and I will start to cry in their arms.!!! So see you soon, cuz that is the only objective I have in this cruel world that takes you away from the people you love most. Bye-Bye and enjoy your life cuz I'm not enjoying mine and I know how painfull it is! Nana~

Sep. 11 2001 (10:01pm) What the hell?? How can people be so stupid to fucking hijack a plane and fly it right into a fucking huge ass building?? Ca me depasse... I can't being to understand!! God.. think of all those people in the plane...they're flying for like 1 hour and they know they will die! and the people in the buildings who are trying to escape and that hear somenoise and they realize it's that fucking building crashing down on them!! 200 firemen and 78 policemen (and these numbers are probably going up just as I'm writing this...) It's so fucking weird, I'm going to school with nothing on my mind, I start class and at the same moment people are dying, planes crash, people jump out of skyscapers.... it's so fucking weird and we only care when it's close to home.. cuz we can begin to picture it!! I get shivers all over my body when  I seethat fucking plane going right for the world trade center towers!! and when I see all the people evacuating the Manhatan island.... God!! God...the reason for all of this!! It is a religious war....my ass it's fucking cowards that can't think of anything better to do then to kill people who have no idea what's going on in the world! Americans... the most retarded race on this planet!! LOL They have no idea where Afghanistan even is!! Cowards.....not really! They're fucking brave...fucked up in the head and suicidal bastards and maniacs, but not cowards!! The  US is like: Canada you take the planes that are still in the air now... Canada's like: No thanx! LOL it's your fucking problem , we don't want to be attacked!! I like how proud the Cubans stand!! They said they feel sorry fot thid and all like everybody else and then they say that if the US needs airport space they can land in Cuba! :) The US kind of really deserv this!! Everything they do to Iran, Iraq,...all the muslim nations..., Cuba, Yugoslavia..... They're getting a taste of their own medicine!! And they apperentlly don't like it! No really....! You thing that a fucking poor woman with like 50 children who doesn't have any power and who probably doesn't even know where the US, like having an embargo on her country.... It's always innocent people who pay for the crazyness of their leaders that they can't oppose for fear of their own life!! Anyways... so I'll stop bitching about my life and be happy that I'm fucking alive right now!! God... imagine all the people that are crying their eyes out right now cuz they have familly that died in the planes or in the official buildings?? And how many others are searching for their loved ones.... and the worst are those people who are alive right now in the fucking Pentagon and World trade center Towers!! Who are in pain from like broken bones and who are hungry, thristy, who need to go to the bathroom...and who are trying to stay alive as long as possible in the hope of being rescued....Anyways....I'm not making matters better, but god!! I'll put some pics uner to make you understand my disbeilif!!! Anyways... I'm out and remeber this day so that it never hopefully ever happens again!! this day will forever be in history!! September 11 2001! Good to be alive! Nana~

Sep. 12 2001 (8:16pm) So...what's been up??? Oh nothing much just thousands of people dead cuz of the the acts of some retarded fucked in the head people!! It's fucking unbeleivable!! So I'll shut up about my problems now!! I'm just a small ass part in one huge ass world!! But since this is my page.....!!! LOL Back to my sad and pathetic life!!...So what's up? It's going to be my friends B-Days...yes "s"! LOL Two birthdays! Tudor and Bogdan!! Happy B-Day to you guys!! :) Tudor is turning 22 yes you're very old!! LOL and Bogdan is turning 18 and he's really hot!! :) I wonder who will read this!!! LOL For their b-days I'll send cards but I have to send them late cuz the fucking airplanes aren't flying!! LOL So I'd rather wait and send them late then to send them now nad to stay at the postal office for like a week. And plus they're the internet!! Thanx God!! I swear what would we do with out it!! It's so cheap and fast to use and you can have direct contact with the people you want to talk to, with webcams...emails...chats... it's fucking amazing!! :)) I found really cute cards for their birthdays, and I'm really happy!! :) Today I have to do my exercices....take a shower....wash my hair....! and tomorrow I'm weating my new dress! :)) Yeah Andreea!! I got it!!! hahaha! LOL ok... so I'm a freak!! LOL....What else....I ahve to read HAMlet!! LOLOLOL (the people concerned will understand!! LOL) and Le Grand Meaulnes...which I accually kind of enjoy!! :) It makes me thing of those old prairies french movies.... I'd like to see the movie!! :) I wonder what my friends in Romania thing of what happened??!! If they support the US or the terrorits... (the fucking Taliban...burn in hell!) anyways.... I will not say everything I want cuz you have to be "politically correct"....whatever...! I'm sorry if I insult a country the people of that country will feel insulted....they therefor consider them selfs part of that country and they take it personally, so when a country does something stupid like this the people from that country are not responsable but they are part of it....I don't know...whatever that's just my little theory..... So what else....I'll go write the letters to my friends so that the cards are ready when things go back to normal if they ever will.... So now I'll go do my exercices and take me shower.... We'll talk soon enough when I'll have something "interesting" to say... And I'm out.... Nana~

Sep. 13 2001 (10:58) So...what's new??? Oh nothing much.... Exept that a friend that I thought was my friend betrayed me in the most disgusting way by telling the guy I like that I liked him and now I can't go to school anymore ....bla bla bla bla.... LOLOL hahhaha!! (I'm being mean!!) (Sorry!! LOL But it's funny!) Anyways....What the hell am I going to do about Raffic??? Do I like him or not?? Do I go out with him?? (If he's interested!! LOL) Will I dump him the next day??? I hope not cuz my rep will once again be revived!! :( Do I really like him???  I wonder....and how can I just become friends with him...??? And what do I say to ask him out....oh I don't know...plus este o religie that I hate with a true passion...then again he could be orthodox...the french part of Lebanese....anyways...stereo types...stereo types....yet they are so true in every case!!! I swear to god I live by them... cuz they have never failled me!!! Nu pot sa scriu in nicio limba ca ma intelege tot timpul cineva!! LOL (I can't talk in any language cuz I always get undestood by someone...) Well anyways... Astazi in clasa era cu un prieten cu care am o istorie cam "conprometante!! LOLOL" and on faisait des choses...mauvaises choses!! bad ... very bad things...!! LOLO Je voulais sauter sur lui...lui arracher ses habits and jump his brains out right there!! Mama daca continua ere sa ma duc la iel!! LOL Plus este ex-prietunul anui prietene!! Kill me!! C'est tellment compliquer!! Et aujourd'hui in the fucking street car tout le monde ecoutais notre convo!!! LOL They know my whole life!! LOL Well anyways.....God...so many people dead...so much pain and suffering....Does anyone mind if I bomb the fucking Mecca?? LOL It would be and interesting consept...but it's so old and nice and historical.... But they deserve it....who are "they"?? I prefer not to say!! Even if it's obvious!! LOL I just won't say the title of their fucked up religion...whatever... I'll be in hell with them and I'll make sure they suffer ! Fuckers God!! What the hell??? Anyways... I don't feel like talking about this cuz everyone already is and I don't feel like crying right now...god those poor souls!... This makes me think that I should take controle of the time I have and use it well... so maybe I should just ask him out tomorrow and see...if he says no oh well... (I'll just go die in a small hole!! LOL) and if he says yes good for me!! :) and I'll be so happy! :) So...whatever...I'll think about it now...ok...I'm out...Lots of Kisses and Love :) Nana~

Sep. 16 2001 (1:54 pm) Hi to all..... So what's new....my mom is fixing my psychopatic tendencices with ideas of peace and of how stupid the US are...so I think and some might agree that bombing the Mecca after all wasn't a very good idea... :( Damn!! LOL What else...Fleur...I read your webpage...I swear I'll shove peaches down your throat and up your bum!! The answer is YES!! you will try to taste as much as possible to know what you really like and to check if they are rotten and if so how much of it is... :) Mandie....stop leaving messages of the pillow!! LOLOL When did you leave?? It's almost 2 am and I'm not tired and not awake...I fell weird, plus I have the flu!! :( I know cuz i fell weird..and my throat hurts...oh..on friday night we went to C. street! :) It was fun and depressing! Damn those guys are HOT! :'( (Shade a tear... LOL) I wonder what I'll get for my B-day!! :)) I'll soon enough...and I hope I ahve my piercing til then!! Damn it's gonna hurt like hell!! ...oh well...tu dois sufrire pour etre belle! :) and the most annoying part is that some people critisise your piercing after so much pain and since you like it so much it becomes really annoying! ...what else....oh yeah...tests are coming up..I don't even want to thing aboutthem!! Bio and French...the book in french class is so good! :) Paul's like shut up!! it fucking sucks!! LOL That David video was.....uhumm....interesting!! to say the least!!!! LOLOL OH! and the best news ever...at least right now at this hour..!! LOL I got new knee pads!! Yayyy.. :) huge pading ones!!LOL. Spalding for 15$ at candian tire....and my mom got a stationary bike!! :) LOL so now I'll be on the bike non-stop! :) I'll get muscles and loose weight!! Join to the world! LOL  I have to send three letters in Romania! Damn... it will be like 5 bucks or a little more! :(....I hope won't pay... LOL and ...nothing important....at least I don't think so rightn ow... I'm getting tired...tired....my eyes are closing....anyways.... you probably guessed...I'm tired!! LOL So I'm going to sleep now :)) Sweet sleep and tomorrow homework! :( Hope I call Tudor ..but what time...and for how long...anyways....Bye-bye, Pa pa Va pup Nana~

Sep. 17 2001 (10:48 pm) Today.....so today was GOOD :) I have just met a new friend :) or pottential boyfriend depending on what he wants...we'll see : p. But mostly a friend for sure I hope :) he's so nice and cute and funny and has good taste in music!! LOL (you know what I mean lol...) and he has style :)...anyways...he's cool. Today.....I also talked to Cosmin on the chat from kappa.ro :) it's fucking amazing!! :) I'm so happy.... he was a friends from Romania and I'm like oh..kiss everyone for me and especially Timur :) God I miss him like hell!! It's not funny! :'''( I'm calling him tomorrow :) I don't care...it's been like two weeks...I can't fucking take it!! And I send him so much emails...I just want to talk to him!! Fleur wants a guy....Paul...aceiasi cheste!! Ma pis pe mine de ras!! Da...am un prieten care-i plac baietii!! LOL Melly...and her boyfriend are fine owowowo...LOL and last but hell not leat! :) Mandie...go back with him!! please :)....we'll take his house!!! LOLOLOL (inside joke!! LOL) Raffic....riiight! LOL He's now in my physics class...kill me!!! oh god!! Peut-etre que je devrais le choisir contre l'autre...si il y a un choix  faire :) LOL....I don't really care.... I'll see.... I was so fucking scared today untill about 8:30...the most afraid at like 8:29!!!!! LOL oh god! But it turned out really well I think... we just talked...it was fun :). And I got a letter from Tudor :) sweet lord...finally they start answering back!! LOL and I want to talk to Timur!!!!! I'll write to him now....Stuff...just crap about nothing...he'll be like no more.... LOL I can't take it anymore!! I don't care about your life!! LOLOL :( that would be mean!! LOL So yeah...I'll go now...and Lots of Kisses, Va Pup Mult Si Tare :) (Cosmin....super tare MERSI!!!) :)) Nana~

Sep. 18 2001 (11:00 pm) So....Today I realized that RACE is above anythig...behind blood but above anything else! By race I mean religion, country of origin, and above all nationality! So if let's say...Romania was to bomb oh...i don't know....let's say the US! I would fully support them because they would have their reasons and those reasons would be for the good of the country! (Do I sound fanatic or what !?!) And in other group related activities....TEAM SPIRIT!!....in the word team there is no fucking I !!! If you must go down to save the team, then you go down and you shut up. Tu assumes! In a team you listen to the coach and no one else...if he tells you to go get water....you go...if he tell you to shut up...you shut up....he he tells you to not play...you don't play.....if he tells you to play like there was no tomorrow...you give evrything you fucking have! This might come from the communist education I got, and I believe it's the way to go and I will apply those rules if I'm in a team and my  "co-equipiers" might hate me...but if it's for the good of the team I am willing to go down for it! In volleyball...you have a ball....the ball must not touch the floor....so you do EVRYTHING in your power to fucking stop it from touching the floor...simple! If this means get hurt a little then who cares..do it! It's once again...for the good of the team! You do NOT count in A TEAM!  ....god it's so simple!....anyways....now that that's said....Today I called Timur like I said I would!! God...I fucking couldn't say anything to him cuz I was gonna start to cry!! I'm so sick of this fucking individual world.....I know it's for my best...but I can't get in my head...only I will look out for myself, only I count for myself....I can't live by those standarts...here evryone seems to be so used to it... god this is so not my country! But I have to put that in my head if I want to survive until next summer, cuz right now I am so fucking vulnerable....I'm like a fish on the ground....that's what I feel like....any minute now I will suffocate or be eaten alive. And no one is here to watch my back....it's so fucking weird....Mandie told me once "sa fiu draguta cu maica-mea pentru ca dupa ce imi pleaca prietenii ia o sa fie ea totul timpul cu mine" (I'm not going to "devoiler " my secret LOL) I realized how true this was this year! So...I'm a soft leaf on the top of a clif....if I stay flat on the floor and protect myself, I'll survive..if not I'll be blown away.... If I live by the first rules (the team thing) you can imagine why it's so fucking incomprehensible for me to think about me and only me! Nu sunt un gidan, nu sunt un capitalist si nu sunt un englez.... and Timur is wondering what's wrong with me! Why oh why cruel world am I here?? Maybe I should not talk in Romania anymore....it depreses me everytime!! :( I so want to go without anyone knowing and knock on doors...it's like Hello!! LOL I'm back!! LOL That would be the funniest!! Lucklly we are not old...cuz it could give some heart attacks!! LOL I wrote so much today!! 3 long ass letters and I just can't shut up now can I??!! LOL My eyes are tired again from too much crying!! But it's theraputical... I think! :) So there's hope! The more I cry the better I feel....NOT! I fell empty and lonelly right now....I think this will be a first in my life!!!!! I am NOT looking for a boyfriend.... (my friends are like WHATEVER!! LOL) if it happens it happens.....so Raffic...if yes, then yes. If not, then not...but I think the whole Raffic think is over cuz if he wanted me he would have made his decision, so now I'll try to temp him and hope he falls for it and then I do (oops! there does my plan!! LOL) and if I don't than I 'll be like you dumdass...you should have known earlier!...God I'm mean!! No I won't do that that's evil...plus love hurts! :( God yes! Timur's voice today....so reconforting....he's like be strong...but I'm alone! he has everyone back home.... Ok...I'll shut up..cuz I'm gonna cry again! Lots Of Love To Myself!! LOL Pa pa Nana~

Sep. 19 2001 (8:18 pm) Iubesc la nebunie culoarea pielei mei....sunt latin, latin,latin...de cartier, cartier, cartier, Respect Rasa!....It's a Romanian song.... so anyways...today I was chocked! (LOL) to discover that I can't wirte how I feel in MY weblog!...hmmmm things that make you go hmmmm (can that be one?!?) And may I remind the person that said that  that just like you said that you're tired and you might be blowing things out of proportion, I was writing that after talking with Timur! My one and only love right now!! :) So I fucknig have the right to feel how I feel! I don't complain at school (too much!) so please give me the freedom to write what I want in my weblog! :) Thank you!  For some reason my background is not working so I put this new one....anyways.... so today I babysat...god I hate kids!!! LOL I should get a job where I don't have to see or talk to anyone! LOL cuz I'm so not sociable around people I don't know! LOL Eu nu dau din gura in prostie ca niste prietenii! LOL And now I will write in Romanian cuz I feel like it... Ma plictisesc de totii dobitoci as-tia de aici. Ma fut la cap si tot ce ii doare in cur este cum ma simpt io?? Nu ii derangeaza nimic de cat ca ii derangez pe ei! Mama ce concetratii pe ei sunt! Vreau a casa! In tara mea frumoasa! :) Sa fiu adracu daca nu o sa termin anul fara nici un prieten!! LOL Ca ai plictisesc cu problemele mele despre cum ma simt....o sa ramin singura! Wow...ce concept nou NOT!.....I can't fucking understand what I'm writing...LOL I don't make any sense!....Ohhh... guess what color I'll write in tomorrow!! LOL Mama ce ma plictisesc......imi bag piciorele in ce zic dobitocii d-aici!! Plus I'm so fucknig sick right now....nu asi putea sa ma intereseze mai putin..... oh whatever...life goes on and so do we malgre ce am vreau noi sa se intimple....Respect rasa..... am o febra de abea mai imi gandeste capul!  LOL mai scriu mai tirsiu.....Pa pa Nana~ (9:12 pm) Ok...so I've done my homework...whatever....Mandie my baby...I'm sorry but I don't have enough energy right now to care about what you wrote cuz I'm tired like hell....my head is burning up and I wish my nose would fall off!! LOL (see....stupid country got me sick!!! LOL)..so maybe someday Ill be like: What did you say bitch??!! " but not right now.... I have to take a shower, read and write the adresses on the letters and send them...cuz in Romania the adress has like 50 numbers!! LOL l'etaje...le secteur...l'appartement...l'escalier.... and lots more!! LOL anyways...so maybe by some miracle of god I'll go to sleep early today!! LOL :).... so we'll talk later dear fans of my daily (or close) weblog...LOL :)...bye :) Pa pa Va pup, Lots Of Kisses (with germes!!!) LOL Nana~.....I'm so sick..........aaaaaaaaaa....... (10:45 pm) So...I just read Melly's weblog....riiight....I didn't know so many people cared about what little old me writes...so I am here to say I'm sorry to the people I have ofended and I would like to ask permision to write what I fucking want to be wrting it in my fucking weblog...merci d'avance! I fucking love and respect all of you but right now I feel like bitching about how much I love Romania and I will do so in here..if you don't want to hear what's up in my head then don't read this, it's that simple...so please fuck off about my weblogs ...thanx....we'll talk at school....can't wait! Va pup (Vreau sa plec!! Doanme!!) Va las.... Pa pa Nana~

Sep. 20 2001 (9:07 pm) Fleur...what?? my romanian "shpeel"???? Hunh....? So...what's new today...nothing much ca de-obicei!! LOL School sux!! :( We're getting to much homework...well ok not really but still!! :( LOL I like to whine about school hihihi....Today I got the BEST compliment :))) it was from Tudor :) he said that I write much better in romanian now :) yayayaya...I try...I try....thanx!! :) Anyways....what else....? I watched Union Libre today and TITOFF is the HOTESS!!!! babe ever!!!! God I love him!!!! How can somebody be so casual and sexy and funny and smart and witty and....(oh there's so much to say i can't think of all the adjectives!! LOL) all in one??? He fucking rules!!! :) and his sweet ass accent from the south of France!! :) ohhhh God!!! :) He's amazing :)) and Luis sux!!! what the fuck!!!! :''''( I want Nikos back!!! and Maria!!! *crying* (not! LOL) anyways...this all has to do with the show... it's so funny..it's the best show ever! :) And today I did something that I'm really proud off!!! :) yayayaya...YES...I finally posted the letters for Romania!!! LOL :)) It only took me like a week later after their B-days! : p oops..sorry! :( I will now go study for my stupid ass english test!! What the fuck is wrong with that teacher?!!?!?!?! Hope he trips on an english book and he dies!! .....LOL...What the fuck am I saying??!!! LOL So I'll write somemore later and I'll correct my weblogs cuz I read them and it's full of mistakes!!! LOL anyways....Va pup Pa pa Nana~ (9:50 pm) Hope I studied enough forthe english crap ass quiz... : P So...today my beef is..... get ready....LOL :) how even though women do enjoy sex....men basiclly used them as sperm dumping bags....yeah sex is good for the both of the persons but no matter what the man always gets an orgasm nd it takes a while for the woman so it's not all wonderfull for us....god that's nasty and especially when you know  that you'r parents are doing ewwww! I'm tramatized!!! :( Many told af this one time he walked in on his mom and he still remembers what she looked like and he's like 40 now!! I swear this should count as child abuse!!! Ewwww How do we not become tramatized by our parents and their nasty ass sex life???? Thanx for havng made us but after we grow a bit please stop having sex!!! LOL Or at least don't be so fucking obvious!!! Sorry if I ahve taken some of the romantisism out of sex.....So anyways.... that's it for now... I want to move on!! ewww god! What the fuck!.....Hopefully if I clean around my bro's appar this week end i'll make 20$ + 10$ (from babysitting) + 10$ (for allowence) I would end up with 40$!!!! Which would mean that I would maybe be able to pierce my ear by next week or the week after that!!! WOW!!! :) Can't wait...so much pain and such beatifull ornementation for the reat of your life.....it's pretty worth it :) I'm starting ot get pretty good at the writing in romanian thing :) I wrote my english study notes in romanian :) and I read some good romanian authors so this is good :) and the fucking french book rules!!! :) It's geting so complicated....the brother of the half sister of the cousin that left the country for her husband...(it's like what?!! LOL)...LOL it's all realated...it's good :) So as you can see my beautifull weblog has the romanian colors yayaya :) I'm bored!! LOL Emode.com has nomore new tests...that sux :( Now I'm listening to no dface no name no number.....Georgiana's fav song :) it's good. Bogdan...I kind of put the wrong name next to your first name!! LOL Sorry I wasn't sure what your last name was! : P So now I'll go check other peoples' weblogs :) and hope I hear fun and nice things.... LOL not like yesterday!!! *show my tongue!!* Ohh... and Raffic...I want you!!!! Damn....I don't know if I like him or not!!!!!!!!!!!.....Why can't I just be friends with him to see what he's like!?!?! I would love M. Gagnon forever if he put me in a team with Raffic!!! :) or M. Berard in gym.... I want to talk to him...about anything but at least just talk!!! damn it!...oh well maybe it will work out by the end of the year...(I hope!!) So anyways...I'm off...Va pup Pa pa Nana~ PS: Fleur....the thing about the hmmmthing...it was about what Mndie said not you...now I get it..... anyways that's it  Lots Of Kisses Nana~

Sep. 22 2001 (1:31 am) So....what's up?? I'm chatting with Catalin right now and writing this too...WOW!!! LOL Nothing very new....exept that Andreea wrote me nad she talks about how much she misses me and I miss her too!!! :( And she makes me cry every time! what do I miss the most...? All the little things....how we walked to the Furmi to buy coke...how we walked to Cantemir to play ball....how we just sat around when there was nothing to do...how we play lapte gros (OF COURSE!! lol) the way we jocked around about just everyday stuff...the way I couldn't care less when they were talking about Diablo!!! LOLOLOL and Doom...and all these other games :) and how they imitated Dexter and the Power Puff Girls (and they're all in their 20s!! lol) the way I would look out my window and hope I would see someone pass...cuz I was so fuxking bored in my room.. lol....the way I talked with Timur like two nights in a row on the phone for like two hours :)...the way I ate "salata de vinete" in the morning....the way Tv was so good ( Atomic :), and EuroSport!) the way we all went downstairs at wround seven or eight and chill :)... the way I would take my shower for 30 minutes and my grandma would be like what are you doing in there! (None of your buisness!!!! LOL No I'm kiding!! LOL) Just all the everyday life things...the look of the street from Timur's balcony.... and the cool ass chat "retea" with all the other friends from the group...the way they talked in romanian and not in english on the radio!! :) and on Tv too!! it was cool :) The way I would go bother voichita or Tudor if I was really bored!! I would be like knoc.. knoc...anyone home? And make up some crapy excuse for going there!! LOL :) hihi (by the way...I was bored...do the colors look nice??? LOL)...the way I would go out of the house just to be out...well ok! that didn't happen!! LOL I don't like to be alone..so I'll rather not go if I'm alone and wait for someone to take a walk wiht me!! :) I'm A Social Animal!!!! the way we went to the market like adults when we were in Mangalia :)...the way we had to put on person in the "portbagage" LOL :) that was fun!! :)... I remember a time when I was in the "portbagage" and I thought that Timur left and I wanted to go with him or something and I smacked the door of the car and screamed TIMURRR!!! It was really loud! LOL and really funny! they were all laughing I was like you come here!! Anyways...I had misunderstood and he was staying anyways!! :).... the way I would see a hot guy and be like wow and my girlfriends would be like...what the fuck is wrong with you?!? LOL .....the way they would tell me romanian jockes and I would be like WHAT??!!?? LOL....and so on..I'll continue some more later! :)...I want to sleep now cuz I ahve the flu! (sunt racita!) :'''( It's cold in Canada!! :( It's true!! (Stupid Country!! lol) my nose is running... :( my head feels hot! :( go check my "Now" part of my website! :) I put new pics (2! LOL) oh....I remeber some stuff.... the way me and Andreea would spent money and Timur and Tudor were like what the fuck??!! LOL...the way I tried to put cream (polysporin) on Timur and he wouldn't let me cuz his "systeme imunotaire" is So good...! : P ! ...and we would put all these creams on and Timur would complain that girls have creams for everything....Did I mention Timur???....oh only like 50 times!! LOL  Ok..so I'm off to bed!!! I wish with somebody...LOL hihihi ok I'll shut up!! :) So anyways.... Va pup mult si tare! :) Pa pa Nana~

Sep. 23 2001 (8:38 pm) So....what's new?? I just saw a show on life in Afghanistan under the Taliban regime...god I hope they all fucking die in awfull pain and suffering and go burn in hell....(the Talibans of cours!) How retarted can you be?? I just don't get it...but it shows that the notion of what's right and what's wrong is "aquis" and not "inee" but still...how can you kill somebody and acually think that it's for their good and the good of everyone else??? I just don't get it... but this applies to people that have done nothing wrong..depending on rules made up by modern societies... So I've been thinking...I really really want to get my piercing done as soon as possible!! So I thought why...? And I came up with this.....I'm feeling like hell right now cuz I really really want to go back in Romania cuz I miss everyone there so fucking much so instead of concentrating on this emotional pain that will not go away untill I go back which is in 10 months!! so I realized that I would much rather comcentrate on physical pain that can be treated and that would make me forget Romania a little bit and only a little bit cuz I will never forget this summer! But anyways...I like the piercing and it comes in handy...so I'll get it as soon as possible and I'll keep you up dated. I wish I had the dicipline of just working and doing otihng else and getting wasted on the weekends and at least get good marks! :) I finished the french book....don't read this if you didn't......She dies!!! :'''( Mlle de Galais dies!!! but her baby lives and Meaulnes comes back! :) With  Frantz and his wife.. yayaya good book :) I will now start HAMlet! :) I love the way Shakespeare talks... let's away at once...LOL My mom tired to do my homework with me but now I'm moving on to more experienced teachers....tudum .....tudum...my bro Matei! the devil reincarnated ! LOL He knows all ! math...physics...chemistry...nothing gets passed him!! LOL I'm scared!!! LOLOLOL :(  I got an email from Andreea...she makes me cry everytime!! :''( She talks about how much she misses and me and she wishes I was there...and I"m likeME TOO!!!! :'''((( So I WANT that piercing!!!! LOL I put the new pics from France on the site...it reminded me of my life there and that made me sad too...I have to stop!!! LOL Anyways....I don't know what else to write and I have to take a shower now and read and correct some homework....so anyways...Va las si va pup mutl!!! :) Bafta!  Pa pa Nana~

Sep. 25 2001 (12:09 am) Dear readers of my crap ass weblogs...(I like them! lol) :) Today I got tutored (am avut meditati) with my knows-all brother..it was ok but long holly shit I hate "fonctions"!! lol You can change so much stuff all the time anyways...I'm not feeling very inspired for the last three days if you've been reading my weblogs...They're short and crapy the big long depretion ones were better!! (Mandie's like: NO!!) LOL So I promess that I'll try to write a lot tomorrow...It's already 12 am and I have to sleep so that's why I don't write to much either...Today....I had lots of science classes...can I take it for the whole year??? I'm gonna go insane in the membrane!!! LOL In gym class today I ran like a fucking maniac!! My stomach really!!! for once it really really hurt and I kept on running..my breathing sounded so weird but at least I made it...I know why I felt the way I felt but I'm not going to explain in any language cuz it's embarrasing..anyways...lol oh Raffic was hurt today..it would have been a really good conversation starter!! but I didn't have the balls (no really!! LOL) to go up to him and be like hey what's wrong....God he's hot!! lol I love his body...humummm....ideas...ideas....lol I have a dirty mind! : P I want to put on the school's radio the song Unii Sug Pula (when Mandie sees this she'll be like ok sure!!!) anyways...the title says it all about the song..it means Some Suck Dick!!! LOL hummm.....other comments come to head but I won't say them either!! LOL...Oh and by the way...James I think you did that horibal act of vandalism to my guestbook...!!! You're dead tomorrow!! If you sign it again and it's not nice you die! You won't be able to enjoyy the pleasures of sex anymore! You are so dead! I loved my guestbook and now it sux! :( Die! I'm ok....Mircea wrote to me today :) yaya but he said that Razvan got hurt too on his fingers (like Timur)...makes you wonder where do those boys put their fingers!?!!?? LOLOL Ok..I have bad bad bad thoughts tonight!! Maybe cuz it's been....anyways....Can't wait for my b-day! and when I get my piercing! lol money money money....just come to me!!! LOL :) and well this is about it I think....Well ok I'm off to bed ..with noone!! LOL :( LOL I'll shut up! : P...Ok va pup and Sign My GuestBook...(exept James! (die!))! :) Pa pa Nana~

Sep. 25 2001 (11:02 pm) Im taking a shower and I'll start writing I promess!!!! LOL (11:51 pm) Buna :)....so am luat (took) my shower yayaya...am fugit (run) so much today..holly shit!! lol I was so tired and so sweaty it was nasty! but healthy! : P yaya..(Paul's like I hear ya girlfriend!! LOL) Anyways..I don't know if I'm going to go to the jewsh thinky with Paul tomorrow...It would just be me looking and examing everyone and then having Tomer speak in hebrew and insult in front of everyone and I'll be like WHA..?? So this will be my excuse to Paul tomorrow...plus I forgot to ask my mom anyways.lol..It's funny today noone is writing in their weblog cuz tomorrow we have a Big test in bio so everyone is (la toceala! LOL) studying their "groupements fonctionels" and their "oxydoredustion" and their "liaisons..1) Ionique, 2) Covalente Polaire, 3) Covalente Non-Polair, and 4) Hydrogenes...." LOL I'm revising by doing this!! LOL Yeah so...I don't know if I'll have the money by next week for my piercing.... :( I'll try to get money from my mom or something...? Watch me the phone bill!! LOLOL and then she'll take the small amount of money I have!! LOLOL :'''(  That would suck!...Yeah so we ran today and now my muscles are KIILING me! I can't go up stairs without being in so much pain!! LOL Right now I'm eating tuna....yumm yumm!! LOL I get so hungry now! I think it's cuz of gym class and all he energy I spend there! Paul and I get out of that class soaking wet in sweat! It's nasty but by the end of the year we'll be like "musclor!" LOL..the bio book is so fucking heavy!! :( Oh...today Paul and I were walking through the U of T campus and everybody was looking at us like what are those little kids doing here!! :( It was so scary!! LOL The guys there are so fucking hot!!! LOL God!!! Can I fucking get the balls to just ask him out and know onces and for all!!! I have to do it cuz then I'll know for sure! If I send a friend I'll be like why didn't you say this....so it's my problem I have to deal with it! I want him, I want him!!! *whining!!* LOL Now I'm gonna make a page with all my fav. quotes! :) It's stupid...there will be like 5 ! not even!! LOL If I don't get my expensive piercing I'll pierce my lobes the third time in a row! :) I don't even want him este URIT!! LOLOLOL :( What the hell!! I just want to know that I can have him!! God I'm mean! :(...I so want to play lapte gros!!!! Maybe we will this weekend!! :) If Mandie...Paul...and Melanie agree to it! :) I can be with Mandie  or Paul and Melanie with Mandie or Paul and Fleur can be the pillow! It would be so perfect!!! LOLOL And so much fun! :) anyways...I'll go do the new page...go check it out!! :) I've been freezing my ass these last three days!!! God..winter is here!! I swear! :'''''( NOOOOO! It hate being cold!! I used to think that it was better cuz it's easy to just put clothes on...but NO! :( it was a lie I was telling myself! LOL It's more fun to just take a shower if you're hot and just dress with like a bikini on! :) Who wants to get naked to take a shower in winter??? Not me that's for sure!!! Anyways...ok I'm off...Va pup, Pa pa Nana~

Sep. 27 2001 (11:43 pm) Hello...yes it's late again and I'm still not sleeping...but I have a spare tomorrow first thing so I can sleep an extra hour!! Joy To The World....Anyways...you (everybody) are going to be so proud of me when I will tell you the whole story...Anyways...so this is what happend..je vais ecrir en francais pour que le mec concerne ne comprene pas...! L'ami de notre seul BON ami garcon a l'ecole....mon ancient petit copin... anyways...donc..il m'a icq-ais et je lui dit salut comment ca va avec les filles, les copins, l'ecole...? et il est comme bien et je suis avec une fille que j'aime vraiment pas comme s'etait avec toi...je suis comme okay! ca va la! pourquoi est ce que tu me dis la meme chose a chaque fois? Il est comme je sais pas... donc je lui dit qu'il va peut-etre me voir la semaine prochaine a leurs rendez-vous chaque mercredi...et il dit ok ca ne me gene pas j'ai change depuis l'ete passe...alors je lui ok..je vais venir.et je lui souhaite longue relation avec sa copine et je lui dit que je suis heureuse pour lui car il a trouvait qu'il voulait et il s'est compris plus que comme il etait avant...et je lui dit que je dois prendre une douche... :) on a parle pendant environt 5 minutes..meme pas... donc maintenant l'explication...Je suis super gentile avec lui donc il va se sentir mal pour etre un tel merdeux avec moi...je le connais bien et il est entrain de parler avec son frere de combien il se sens mal...LOL Et ensuite comme 2 minutes plus tard il m'envoit deux messages...il dit: a mercredi prochain et j'ai hate de te voir! hahaha mais j'ai pas repondu parce que je prenais ma douche! :) D'habitude c'est lui qui termine les convos mais aujourd'hui ca etait moi!! Haha! :) I'm so good :) Mandie your link to the coffee thingy doesn't work... and YES!!! It was ME!!! :P LOL all the signing in your little quizzy thingy!! hahaha I'm bad! Fleur...I'll join the club!! :( Can I be vice president cuz I've had some really bad experiences! .. :'''( Oh...I have it all planed out...tomorrow in gym I shall for the first time ever! talk to Rafiki boy! yayaya ! LOL I'll like you know me, I know you..I'm sorry for stalking you and I'll leave you alone! :) I can do it, really! and I'll have a Delato tomorrow!!! Sweet, sweet Delato!!! I'll take 10 bucks from my piercing account and pay back Mandie and spent the rest on a 4$ Delato! I don't care!! I've been fantasizing about one for like 5 days now!! LOL *mouth wattering....*And tomorrow Mandie is sleeping over yaya! Fuck! LOL I'll have to clean my room! can you say mission imposible?!?!?! :( and then we'll sleep...go to the market CRAP! :( LOL and then do home work and then I'll go home and I hope to clean my house for some money! LOL God I want piercings!! If not the Tragus then I'm getting my lobes! Either way I'll get both but I don't know which will come first!...So this is about it for today....yayaya can't wait till tomorrow! :) And I'm wearing my new hat! :) It's a statement...I like it....therefore...I will wear it! (: )  <----it's a person with a hat!! LOL Ok va las si ma culc....pardon pentru aia care citesc asta...da nu pot sa scriu in engleza ca o sa inteleag ala despre care vorbesc...este d-aici....Anyways....Va Pup , Pa pa Nana~

Sep. 30 2001 (11:41 pm) Buna...so how was this weekend??Super good :) On friday we went to Eaton to hang out and we met a VERY hot guy and "I" got him! And he's supposed to call on monday! yayaya and then we went to Melly's house and we hang out there for like 3 hours! :) and he had pizza yaya yumm yumm... and thenMandie slept over at my house and it was lots of fun. Then we went to st' lawrence in the afternoon, got cheese, meat, bagels  and coke and then Paul, Melly and Fleur came over and we went to hang out on "our" street and we played Lapte Gros!! yayaya LOL :) And then we left and Paul stayed behind and he didn't ccall his mom and his mom called my mom, Fleur's mom and Mandie's house 7 times!! Okay surrrre!!! and then all the girls slept over at Mandie's and it was lots of super fun :)... And I will admit my 2 adictions....Coke and Nasal Spray!! Coke...it's like coffee for me...I have to dring some in the morning and it's so good and it's also my secret diet ingredient....the bubbles from the drink fill you up and you don't feel hungry anymore... :) and Nasal Spray went I get a flu I use it...but you're supposed to use it for like 3 days....I empty a bottle per flu! I'll have like no nasal cavities by the time I'm 30...but breathing without any trouble is priceless!! :o) My hopes and dreams have been crushed... :( LOL I thought that I could get a phone card that lets me talk for 55 min in Romania for only 5$!!! I was like SWEET LORD!!! LOL But then Nicu told me that there are connection fees and that he tried cards like that and he talked for like 20 min.! :'''( How sad I am! :( I'm getting bored aagin....I haven't talked to Timur for like 2 weeks! Ha! That's so long! I want to call him....I'm gonna buy a phone card anyways... and hope it works if not I'll come hear and bitch to hell about the cards! LOL  This weekend went by so fast and I hope that the week goes by even faster! and that this weekend I get to talk to Timur boy :) and now on to Rafiki boy! Okay!.... you're not that hot to begin with so fuck you for rejecting me like 50 times now!!!! I found out from reliable sources that he has no girlfriend....so that means that he told some girl at school that he did to get me off his back....Well fuck him!! LOL (I wish!) LOL God his muscles!!!! yummm yummm what the hell?? He has the fucking nicess biceps in the world....okay I'm  pushing it but he has a nice ass body! : P In other new I still have the flu.. :( on my page "Now" I put a count down to "the big day" That day is summer and an estimation of when I want to go to Romania...so untill then I have like 272 days!!! :(  I'm okay...I can do it! Ok so I guess this is it for now....I'm going to sleep cuz we're in October now!!! LOL Va pup , Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 01 2001 (6:23 pm) Hello...I'm wrtiting this early so that Mandie can read it today :)....I'm sorry I thought that you invited big Hippo to the table...I didn't know you tried to tell her we barelly had place...Sorry :)...anyways...I'll write some more later...I'll go do my homework and then I'll work on the thing Mandie said.... "I want guys" LOL I'll go talk to Catalin boy...what's with me and calling boy all the guys I know...anyways....Fleur...The strong Jews are armed with the Torah that weighes like 50 Kg. but the Musulmans have their trusty daggers...who will win??!! LOLOL Ok...I'm off to work (homework)...Pa pa and va pup :) Nana~ (11:03 pm) Me again...To up date my evening and my mind... First and most IMPORTANT OF ALL!!! EVER EVER...I'm buying a phone card for Romania tomorrow whish will give me 55 minutes of talking with my sweet love Timur!!!!!!!!!! YAyayayayyayya...I'm ok! I my lord..can't wait! LOLOL :))) Anyways... So I did my homework in Bio with nice ass graphics!! LOL Was I bored or what? When Mandie will see them she's be like you bitch! LOL Sweet volleyball practice is on wednesday...the same day as BBYO :) yaya can't wait! Je veux le voir! Je vai eclater de rire quand je vais le voir dans ses habits de gansta-gay!! Oh My Lord! LOL And on friday I'm going to meet a guy...Catalin :) he's pretty hot and funny and nice hope it works out... and that he will lead me and my friends to more guys! Follow the leader leader!! LOL plus Thanks giving is comming up...lucky Mandie is "stuck" in her cottage with some hot ass guy! Damn let's all be sad for her!! LOL And damn her vacation for new year's will just have to be good enough with only crapy Cuba! Oh My Lord!  Vatever Mandie! : P Yes I am very sad for voting on Madie's page for my own site!! :''( LOL But there was like one person that went on it! :( I had to do something! LOL I ahve to find a fucking book for english...Fuck that and we have a test tomorrow sure mister good teacher ...makes us learn to copy of the board...cuz that's all we're doing! Fuck head! Did anyone talk to Paul today since school? Maybe his mom killed him or something! LOL --> NOT! What a bitch she is...but that's just my opinion...Vat else....oh I saw Lazio and Parma on sunday match nul but sweet Stankovic...God they're all fucking HOT! Damn! anyways... (time passes...).....Anyways now that I have taken my shower I will go to sleep sleep... : ) Sweet :)...I drew a snake on my hand today at school and it's still there...But I did wash it...really! I hope Rafiki boy wears his small shirt tomorrow...so I can see his biceps....LOL : P And now I'll go check my mail...for nice pictures....sti tu Catalin... LOL Ok va las Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 02 2001 (8:37 pm) JOY TO THE WORLD!!!! LOL :))) I got the phone card...but today was too late to call and tomorrow I'm busy at BBYO!!!!! CAN'T FUCKING WAIT!!! :))) and I did like no homewokr yet...I have nothing!! LOL Mandie...we're buying those bras tomorrow~ I got money!! :) I'm so fucking hyper!~!!!! And I'm pissed  like HELL!!! I got this thingy saying that someone has a crush on me and to find out you have to put all these emails in and sign up for all the JUNK MAIL in the world!! Fuck that!! I'm so pissed!!!! And in the bus today Gods! All gods!! holly shit they were hot like fire! LOL : P And Mandie, Fleur and I ahve Volley ball tomorrow MORNING!! :( at lest we won't be late!! LOL Oh my god i'm so pissed cuz of that crap! I'm OK! Today in maths!!....SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You whore, bitch, mother fucking whore!!......Die and burn in hell with Sebastian's dick up your ass!!! HAAAAAAAAAA! *head tilting on the side!*...I'm ok now....and the I go on ICQ and talk to this guy that keeps on sugjesting that I lie to him about everything...I'm like shut the fuck up you asswhole....so anyways...I have to punch something!!!!!!!!!! I need a smoke!~!! I kinda like smoking a little too much! : P...Sweet nicotine! lol no just kiding... I can't wait till tomorrow lunch!!!! I'm gonna dance so much!! yaya LOL Nana~

Oct. 03 2001 (11:48 pm) So...my mom and I had a big fight last noght...God I hope she suffers in her life...not dies...but suffers...Anyways...so me and Paul go all happy to fucking BBYO...and guess what mister funny boy Tomer...played a joke on us...mostly me..cuzh he thought I would go alone...but anyways....it's some crap ass stupid jewish holiday again!!! So it was closed, fuck him! He's so smart...I hate him ...but I ahve to admit it's pretty fucking funny! LOL Paul and I were like that ass!!! So then we called Connie, we walked for like 40 min. and then we stayed at her house and then we ate at burger king and left in the subway we were looking at people and everything we usually do...anyways it was fun :) But I'm gonna kill Tomer!! He's like h..I can't wait...Stupid ass he knew it was a holiday!! LOL So...back to my mom ... she's like oh i'm gonna send you to Romania! LOL I'm like oh no please...how horrible of you...LOL (sarcastic!) And tomorrow is bra buying day :) Yaya Joy to the world! LOL and If I come soon enough home I can call Timur!! Even more joy to the world and then on friday I'm meeting Catalin...more joy :) exept that...I have this really bad flu nad I'm starting to loose my voice! Riiight...the convos will be funny! I can't fucking talk! It's like everybody's dream come true and my nightmare! LOL ok....ma duc sa ma culc..(I'm going to bed...) Va pup (I kiss you), Noapte Buna (Good night) Pa, pa......Georgi...thanx for writing.... Nana~

Oct. 4 2001 (8:37 pm) Hey...Ok...Fleur...we told you guys we were going and Mandie had to study for some test and I had to do my labo...and it's certainly doesn't take us 20 min to get!! It's an hour for me and like 45 min for Mandie....we told you guys we were leaving! Plus you guys were looking at the commertial thingy and then you guys came in La Senza and started talking so loud...it's not like you were staying with us in the first place plus we told you guys why were going there....Anyways...whatever...I'm sorry if we weren't clear adn that we didn't make sure you guys knew we were leaving.... in other news...I am going to do THE GROSSES thing in the world!!! And all of it for a guy I ahve never met!!!! I swear Catalin...you own big time!! You can't imagine how much I hate it....Yes,, yes it is....Buckly's!!!!!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWW mother fucking cold!!! God....I'll die from the nastyess medicine in the world, not from the cold!! And I'm so getting my flu shot this year! When ever I get sick, I stay sick for like a month!!....maybe because I don't change my routine...which gave me the flu in the first place!!! LOL I wash my hair and go to sleep with it wet....and I don't wear super hot clothes...so that's maybe why....anyways...I'll go downstairs....put some food or drink right next to me to get that nasty ass taste out of my mouth!! EWWwwwwwwwwwww! :'''( I don't want to do it!!!....Ok....I'm going.....Bye sweet taste buds!! LOL....Pa pa Nana~ (8:48 pm) Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww MOTHER FUCKING HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!! I hope who ever made Buckly's DIES!!!!!!!!!!!! NASTYYYYY I'm going to throw up!!!!!!!!!! :''''( And I'm trying not to make myself suffer for nothing so I haven't drank anything good yet!!!! Nana~ (9:11 pm) Ok....maybe it's not that bad...but when you put it in your mought it like speards out, you feel it in your nose!! LOL Today Mandie and I got new bras!! yayaya LOL From La Senza...mine is pink and Mandie's green they're so fucking nice and cheap too : P hihi perfect...! :) Tomorrow if I get home early...which will not happen....I'll call Timur saturday during the day! Sweet at least 20 if not 55 minutes of talking to him!! He'll tell me that he read the sad ass letters I sent him! And then I'll ask him why he's in a fight with Tudor...and How's life....and then he'll be like you have a good life be happy...and then I'm gonna cry.... :(.. God I miss him....he was so nice andresponsable and wise.....I can't wait....and then maybe I'll find my friends on the kappa chat....yayayaya Can't wait for the weekend! SLEEP!!! Sweet!  =) zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz And tomorrow in gym class we're running for 12 minutes strait and we had to have a certain number of tours to get a good mark!! It's fucking hard! :( LOL.... I did my bio lab..it's so nicelly done! I'm so proud! LOL...now I'll go check my friends pages and then my email  and then I'll go watch a little bit of Charmed and I'll eat!! I haven't eaten since I got home....Anyways....'Night...Va pup, Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 6 2001 (1:17 am) Hi, hey, hello to all my felow readers... :) I'm feeling hyper tonight....maybe cuz it's freaking one am....and tomorrow I can sleep all I fucking want!!!!! SWEET SLEEP!!!! And today as in saturday I am going to call the cutess boy in the world :) yes...yes indeed...TIMUR!! Sweet Love of mine! :) Can't wait to hear your voice so you can contradict me on everything and so you can give me some wise advice as you do everytime I call you :) ! LOL....So today I feel like structuring everything so... 1) I realized that it took me 3 years of hard work to unfluence my girl friends into becoming pretty much like me...not totally cuz that would be scary...but they are more horny and desperate bitches than before :) LOL I'm so proud! My obssetion is MEN and no so is theirs....being fat is nasty shit...and now they think so too! :)  We are all becoming like one another...Mandie has taught me to study and that I need to work hard from time to time! :) ...Fleur has taught me respect for others...Pakies...East Indians...what's the difference?!?! LOL Paul has taught me to look out for myself and only myself from time to time and Melly has taught me that being with a guy isn't has long and horrible as I used to think...(I can't put it down in words right now! LOL).... 2) I am dependant!!! On sweet Nasal Spray!!! God it's good to breath! LOL and on Solitair!! LOL that's sad! :(....If I start a game I have to finish it...and I won't leave without winning one....and many other things but I don't feel like making a long list now... 3) Mandie thanx for the little message for a good thanx giving, it was so sweet :).... 4) Guess who fucking wrote after like a fucking year!!!! PAUL!!! from the UK....the one Eyal (Paul from here) and I met on our vacation to Cuba!!! :) I'm so happy! :) I'm gonna call him some time soon and he'll send some pics...he was fucking hot!! : P.... 5) Speaking of phone calls...I've been talking on icq to this romanian dude...Stefan...he's really nice exept he lives so far! :(...Vancouver! But we'll talk on the phone some time and maybe next year in summer I'll see him in Romania....cuz he's from Bucarest too :).... 6) Melly....go to sleep baby!! :( I'm so sorry for the week you've been having!...but it's pretty funny!! you have to admit! : P..... 7) Fleur it was him! the guy from Street Cents...cuz he was waiting at the street car stop and Mandie and I saw him at like 5 meters from us...he's pretty cute :)...Enjoy your turkey and cranberry sauce...and pumkin pie....I'll go throw up now! LOL..... 8) I ran in gym class for 12 minutes strait today!!! I'm ok...at least I can say I'm in shape...I did 42 turns...which means 83% !!! Sweet! :) I'm so proud...Now we're starting basketball in gym class...sure!! just kill me now! :(...Maybe I'll get Rafic to bump in me and then maybe we'll talk !!! LOL :(.... 9) In english class today Mandie did all these drawings on my hands, neck and ear...it was funny and I drew on Eyal's ear and hand....anyways....the point is...Mandie took the pen and out of the blue decided to write a number on my hand....it was 47...I'm like what is that for...and she says nothing, she just wrote it....I go to gym class and guess how many tours Rafic did in 12 minutes....yeah! fucking 47!! Isn't that weird.... I got half of Moulin Rouge from the net today...sweet movie! It's so good and cute :)....I fucking love to death the Tango part!!!!!!!!!!!! :)   I'm getting all this romanian music non-stop right now...I'll be so sick of it soon! :(....Today...(the 5) was Tomer B-Day....he now is 18 Joy oh joy.....Oh....I saw a show about the hotess guy ever! Prince William!! : P....And I came to the conclusion....that he is Fucking HOT....LOL Damn...too bad I'm not English....I have absolutly no chance of marrying him! LOL And becoming the next Queen of England...that souds really funny to me!! LOLOLOLOL....Unless he renounces the thron for me...but I love too much to let him do that....LOL What am I talking about....anyways....! LOL And this is about it for now....I'll go write to Tudor, Andreea, Bogdan, Eddy, Paul.....in other words lots of writing to do! :)....Ok.. va pup, Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 6 2001 (2:08 pm) Hello hello!!! :) Very happy again...lots of reasons...no school, talking to Timur soon and cooless of all LOL not...but good too, Italy and Hungaria :) Sweet Ass italians players....Hope they win. So anyways...This going to be weird so be aware.....I had a really cool dream which made me re-think my whole concept of "donner une pipe..." (and that's it's not that nasty when you're in control and nobody pushes...ANYWAYS......) I'm not going to traslate that...just ask me what it means or ask someone who knows their stuff in french....it starts with a M in romanian and a B in english anyways...enough info....yeah so I was with this guy that was taller than me...dark spiked up hair, dark skin (like tanned only..) basically Tomer in skinyer and taller...can you say I'm obsest!?! LOL Anyways...I was with him and we were walking around and there were other people and we didn't stand next to each other or stuff like that and then we got in this house with everybody else and he comes to me and he's like ok why have you been not talking to me this whole time and then I hug him, kiss him and I'm like cuz there was everybody around...so we stumble into this room were je lui donne une pipe...et il "termine" comme en deux seconde..!! LOL you people are like WTF?!?! LOL...Anyways...he's like wow c'etais super! LOL and then we're like freshing up in the bathroom and I kiss him there too and hug him...Anyways the point is that I came to the conclusion that the best think about a boyfriend is just to be in his arms...which makes me feel very lonelly so now I'm sad! :(...And I seem to want to fix things really quiklly with a kiss and a hug...but I unfortunatlly know it's not that easy...But I sometimes get this feeling..when somebody is telling me about their problems and there's nothing you can do..I just have this urge of just holding them...but most times I don't act on it...cuz it just seems stupid...all you can do is too hold them...I know that I would like that...which makes me remember the times I had with Timur...anyways...too much info already...It's almost time for Italy-Hungaria FORZA ITALIA!!! :)... I didn't meet Catalin yet!! LOL Will we ever meet?!?!? LOL He was busy with a friends and I was busy with the flu :(...oh well...some other time! : P ...I'm gonna go write some emails now....cuz I didn't last night.. :) Sweet sleep!!!! :))) Ok I'm off... Va pup, Pa pa.... Nana~

Oct. 7 2001 (1:56 am) Wow...I have been betraied by the only thing that matters to me right now...I feel like a cheap whore you just use and throw away Again! Why does this keep on hapening to me?...Maybe it's just the way my life is gonna be until the end...? Yes let's stay friends...whatever! I don't feel like hearing his voice ever again! God I want my piercing...I confuse Love for Lust way too much...acually no...I know what I'm feeling...I have no idea what the other person is feeling...I confuse their Lust for their Love...Why is love so hard to find? If we just told each other how we felt with out any fears of rejection...of commitment...of anything...everything would be so much easier....than again I should talk..I'm not telling him how I feel right now...But what can I say?!?! If he says let's stay friends...what am I gonna say...? Let's stay togeher...he obiouslly doesn't want to...And I'm so sick of being with guys that love another....I just want to find someone who will be happy to have me in his arms and not think of anyone else.....I feel like crap right now...plus I'm watching Moulin Rouge...A story and truth, beauty, freedom and above all Love!...He said this summer was really fun but now let's just stay friends....Ok....I really feel like going back now! He has no idea what he means to me...and how I fell about him...and there's no point in telling him...--The greatest thing you'll ever know is to love and be loved in return-- One day we will all understand how true this statement is...I think I already do....And there's no point in going after Rafiki boy...cuz it will probably end up like this if it ever starts in the first place....It's funny how you can switch your feeling from one point to the next in let's say....oh about 55 minutes! I don't how to feel...he's right though it's not like we can be anything cuz we're too far apart...and he's not insulting me or anything... I just don't know anything... I'm not kissing anyone today...Pa pa Nana~ PS: My counter was at 999...Maybe it's a good sigh (for who know me you know what I mean)....

Oct. 8 2001 (9 :17 pm) Hey hey to all :) I was gonna take my shower but I'll take it later!! :) I ahven't taken a shower sice Friday!!! LOL Ewwww All I did this weekend is sleep, eat, internet and a little little bit of homwwork! LOL I'm bad! But  not as bad as Paul!!! I'm laughing my head off!!! He's so totally bad!!! :) Anyways....I shall not say more cuz it's really bad!! LOL : P So ....what's new?? Timur go suck a dick or something..!! :( I hate you! Anyways....everyone is sad exept Mister Paul!! Please so fuck off at school! LOL Mandie is probably pissed cuz I don't think she got to much internet access this weekend! :) Fleur wants money....Melly wants a boyfriend and I want LOVE!! :''(  Is it really that much to ask??!! :(... Today was the best day ever!! LOL well not really...but I'm happy so...anyways....Noone can begin to understand how dirty my room was!!!! Really! It was nasty shit! So today I cleaned it!!! For 2 hours might I ad...I fucking vacumed everything...my CDs...my computer...my floor! lol ....everything...my bed...I changed the sheets...EVERYTHING ! :) It's fucking spot less now! Joy oh joy! :) I did 30 minutes of physics....and no chemistry, no english, no french, no bio, no nothing else that I had to do!! :( Oh well ! LOL I woke up at 2 pm today!! :) I'm painting the frame of my mirror now :) And it will be a Moulin Rouge them! :) lol...I will write on it...truth, beauty, freedom and love! :) It's such a sad and cute movie! :) Sweet Bogdan H. finallly answer! :) And so did Andreea and Ruxy....please do ignore me Tudor! :( LOL You're probably busy like hell and I'm bitchying about you...lol I hope everyone enjoyed their nasty ass ThanxGiving meals!! Ewwwww LOL Mandie how was that guy??? Anyways...this is about it...maybe I'll write some more later...if not hasta la vista... For those who want to check this out ...please do...I suggest Cosmina Pasarin...LOL :) ...here it is... www.geocities.com/terokon/playboy.html , it's the romanian edition...anyways.. Va las...Pa pa Nana~ (11:50 pm) Yes again!! lol I'm going to sleep late! :) oops! : P ...Anyways...I was in the shower and I was wondering...what could have Timur said to make me happy?...Well basically nothing!! LOL...If he said that he liked...that would have made me even more sad than I am now!..Cuz I would ahve wanted to see him so much...So what he said was pretty true and correct on his part...we did have a lot of fun...and we are really good friends now..so...I don't know...Anyways...it was a really long shower so I thought about how great romanian friends are...LOL and I came up with this... The guide to the Romanian friend... 1. They are called Tovarasi...it's a communist word meaning camarades... 2. They are always there for you 24/7 no matter what time of the day...no matter what season of the year...they're there... 3. They are really nice to your parents! Weirdlly nice...(or so I think...) they have discutions with your familly, mom, dad, bro, sis, grand parents... 4. On their birthday...they take you out...to give "cinste"...to celebrate you...it's their treat kind of thing... 5. They tell when you're wrong and you argue with them and you have bets...but you always end up going back together... It's all I can think off...  I just want to precise that I'm not comparing just describing...(for my group of 5...) :) Oh my lord....I'm gonna smash my computer in fucking millions and millions to shit ass small pieces!!!! I'm ok!!! It fucking erased what I was writing..so now I'll write it again!!! FUCK YOU SHIT ASS COMPUTER!!!!...anyways...what was I saying?....yes...Melly I listened to there you go by pink...It's so YOUR song!! It's funny how the song was so made fo you!! LOL...Mandie I love your little boyfriends...and you're right...we can't live without them!! Them and thier stong arms to hold us...their hair to grad in our hands and we are making out for hours...LOL anyways....Too bad hot guy wasn't there! But Allan and the pumkins were pretty good substitues..LOL God...thank you for sending some special guy just for me as soon as possible :) A little advice for guys...have fun trying to guess what we want! LOL No matter what you do...it's most likelly tht you'll get it wrong! LOL...And ladies...Melly, Fleur and Mandie...GET ME A GUY!!! LOL And I'll work on yours...Anyways...I'm off to bed...Va pup Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 9 2001 (5:34 pm ) Hello.....Guess what came to my house today in the mail?!?!?!?! The bill for the phone!!! OK.... I AM SOOOOOOOO DEAD!!! So I just wanted to let you know that you won't hear from me anymore...cuz I will be killed by my mom who will be under the unfluece of an unstopable rage!!! So just pray for me!!! :(.....I leave all my belongins to my frinds!! :(...Good bye cruel world...this is when I make my exit....Adieu.............. Nana~ (9:41 pm) It's now night time...and I'm still alive...LOL my mom din't open the letter yet!! I'm saved untill tomorrow..unless she gets bored and wants to do her acounting... :(...So...I ahve been studying for Chemistry...do you know what quanta, photons, Pauli, Avogadro, Rutherford, Plank...did and are?? Well if you don't I'm not going to explain cuz I don't know either!! LOL No I'm kiding...I got it pretty well in my brain...but I have to get good cuz it's my OAC....so if I get 70%..(which I predict...) it will be not enough to show to my little friends...University! I went to get some incense...and I lighted it...in my room with the door closed....my eyes got all watery...so I'm guessing it's because of the smoke...LOL I'm still  like.."entrain de frotter mes yeux..." LOL  Oh...I got MSN!! :) So now I'm on msn and ICQ...I talked to my friend from Romania today on msn..it was so much fun... I've been studying for chemistry for about 2 and half hours! and I have to revise some more before going to sleep! Sure! My head is like NO more!!! LOL...Ok.. I'm off to chat and check webpages...did anyone go on the playboy site...? What did you think? Ok va las...Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 11 2001 (10:13 pm) Hello to all...sorry it's been a while since I have wrtiten....well like 2 days...LOL :) So anyways...what's new? I had two fucking big tests in one day...but that's OK!.... and then I have one more on monday...Tomorrow at 7 am I have volleyball practice!...I'm ok...I'll sleep on the weekend...WAIT! NO!....cuz we have to go to some crap ass discovery walk shit....LOL I'm ok! I just need like 20 hours of sleep...and I have homework....Yeah ummm...I.S.P. Maybe! but that's ok.....I'm ok!....I got MSN...It's the best...and apperentlly Tudor loved it :) so he's getting it too :) sweet and now I talk to Ruxy like everyday :) she's so nice :) can't wait for the weekend cuz I'll talk to Andreea too :)...Today I went to the doc...who gave what I needed...and then we got an appointment there... :) Long story....Private too! :)....Speaking of private....Fleur....Can I Kill you?!?!?!?....The fucking secret I got a detention for...which means that if I'm late one more time...I get suspended for a day...but that's ok....The secret is that Andreane is coming to the fucking discovery shit..?!?!?!?!?!?!? I'm ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If it's not the whole thing...it better be good! ...OK...breathing...LOL I'm not as mad as I sound...but Fuck! You have something to say?? ...Say it LOUD enough for everyone to hear!....So now I'm off to sleep....well I'll play some solitair before cuz it makes me sleepy :) lol...and maybe I'll go chat on kappa.ro :)....I'm becoming a chating adict!!! :) LOL But it's fun...LOL...Ruxy ...don't forget to kiss Mircea for me :)...I miss him he's nice...and when Timur told me that he heard I was talking with Mircea a lot...I was so happy :)..Cuz it means that Mircea talks about it.. :) maybe cuz it somewhat means something to him :) how cute! :) lol....OH MY LORD.....LOL Can I just talk to Mr. Rafiki boy?!?!?! Please....the whole student card thing got so complicated...what the fuck was that???!!! LOL He's not supposed to get it....so he gives it back to Amir...who gives it to me...and I give it to Paul...and Rafikic is like who had it?!... LOL..Anyways...LOL :)...LOL Mircea...I move on fast...LOL I like people who like me! LOL :) Ok...I'm off to bed...cuz tomorrow it's 6am and I'm going to get up...sure....  Great...some guy that can't shut up just logged on...Nooooooooo! :(....He messaged me.....I want to sleep! :(...What do I tell him?!?!?! LOL...Ok I'll manage! LOL....But he's nice :)... Va pup :) Pa pa Nana~

Oct 12 2001 (12 :43 am) To that special blond bitch in my life... :) I don't get this....Why are you the one mad at me? When I was mad at you!?!? LOL... Fuck...I wasn't even that mad...fuck my last weblog...I was bored...Anyways...and it won't kill you to accept some critisism it's not like you're the queen of queens.. Why do I write this in my weblogs and I don't tell you face to face? Just like Mandie is really good at organizing her ideas in a debate...I prefer writing...so that's why you see it here! Why do you make up rules that only apply to us and not you?!?! I love it how you tell me to tell it to your face...Since you don't even do that!!! Critisis us on stuff that doesn't apply to you too! And I would say it to your face, if I would think of it right away...but I ponder on it...And as if you would ever tell it to my face...as if you have the "balls" to do that! You just shut up and go home...like on friday! Why do you always bring up old fights when we fight?!!?! You: " But Paul...remember when I supported you instead of Ioana...." What...Fuck it's about your opinions not the side of who's with who!! If I agree with you I'll tell Paul and vice versa! and if you stay on his side for only the sake of being on his side...You're being the kind of person we ALL HATE with passion! I fucking Hypocrit!!!  Why the fuck do you OVER REACT about fucking EVERYTHING!!!! 1. ...this... I told you I was bored.. and that my weblog meant nothing! I should know! I fucking wrote it! Now you're not talking to me!.... 2.Paul has fun...WAIT!! STDs!...fuck he knows what he's doing!! Why do you think he didn't want to tell you....and about the Tomer think last year?...Cuz you make us feel so bad about it! And then you go get fingered! (Once again...your rules work only for us!).... 3. The make up think at Paul's house ...when I put make up on your face!...what did you want to do?!?! Wipe it on my pants!!...All you have to do is wash your face with water and soap! what I have to do?! wash my pants...with detergent...(30minutes!) dry then...with electricity...(30 minutes!)...and hope they don't get "tacher" OH OK!! it's totally the same isn't it?!?! And the most of all !!... 4. The Mike Gatt crap! holly shit! Yes your life ended right there and then!! What did you do?!?! Went to tell Rafik that I like him...since he already knew cuz I did ask him out! Not like you! Fuck! And did you even try to fix me up with him?!?!?!?! NOOOO You fucking ran away cuz you were just TOO embarrest!! yeah thanx a lot! LOL That help! Did I freak out! No! My lord I don't care...what did you do?!?! ...to quote you..."I've honestly lost Ioana as a friend. I can't relate to her anymore. (You (Paul) not so much ...but I hate Ioana!)" that's from a letter you send to Paul... Why the fuck are we still friends?!?! Please explain!?! You're a gemini and I'm a sagitarious...we are so fucking different... I hate all you do and you hate all I do....I don't care about this letter....but I had to write it...Now you're gonna get mad at me forever!...Fuck WHATEVER!!! If friendship can't go through a little rough time. Then it's not strong enough..but you don't even consider me as a friend anymore, like you said in your letter.....Plus to proove you over react...how fast did we make up after going back to school?!?!? and you wanted to kill me like 2 weeks before! or are you being the biggest fucking hypocrit in the world!??!? If you don't ever talk to me again...I SERIOULLY don't give a flying CRAP!! cuz if you can't be yourself with out any hold backs their is no point!! in being "friends!". You know how we all say that you're fucking pretty like hell...well it's true...but personality has lots to do with looks! Right now...like latelly... you've been making yourself so fucking ugly!...Some people can just see right through you...like Tudor, Timur, Aaron, Andreea....when they look at you...they just know who you are ....so whatch out....you don't want to end up alone...Anyways....I guess we'll talk about this at school....or if not....Have a nice life....Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 14 2001 (8:20 pm) Hey ! I was awating an answer ...and yet I don't get one.....Oh well.....That just prooves EVERYTHING I said was totally true !!! :)....It feels good to be right! :) It's also good to know who your friends are!!!!  My really close friends are now down to 3 ! M. A. and P. Ya! It's funny to see how right mosat of my arguments are so true and correct! God I love this! Fighting is an art and I'm pretty good at it! Joy! LOLOLOLOL This is craking me up! LOL I sound like someone!!! So like I said at the begin of the year!....(I said it in romanian...so...you must not remeber...) Me , myself and I are my best friends! While I was busy looking out for others....Noone was watching my back....god...why do I give a crap?!?! Oh well...guess I've learned my lesson...I and only I shall now be my number one! all other 3 people in my life will be preceded by my interest!...For you people it must sound natural...but I intent to look out for the group and not myslef first....this will now change! So I will now fit in with everybody else! :) Yayaya! Vive le capitalisme! I, I and I ! ... So what did I do this weekend?!?! :) I finally met Tomer after about 2 months....Joy oh joy!!! LOL Putain... il est devennu tellemnt moche!!!! Son visage a les traces du temps...et il a 18 ans...c'est bizarre...and tout ce que j'ai fait a chaque fois qu'il ouvrait la bouche c'etais de l'insulter! :) LOL Maintenant il me deteste! LOL and on sunday I went to see Burn The Floor!!! :) cool ass show with people dancing the whole time! :)...and now I have to study for bio...so my interest first... :) Now that I can concentrate I will go back! :) Urasc cu toata inima mea sa picheze toata lumea sa picheze! :) Me, Myself and I .... LOL It's FUN to put it in practice....as in right now...on the phone....LOLOLOLOL Could I care less about other people rught now!?!?!?!? Nope! :) hahaha Am prietenii mei care imi lipsesc foarte mult and stiu ca eie o sa fie tot timpul aici pentru mine! :) And some people wonder dece vreau sa plec din tara asta!!! hahahah...ok i'm off... to watch out for my futur! My futur...the only one that counts! :)....sory you have waisted your time reading this....oh wait! LOL I don't care!!! hahahahaha...ok...Va las...Pa pa Nana~ :)

Oct. 15 2001 (10:50 pm) Ohh...How it amuses me to see how well I can read some people!! :) They're an open book! :) LOLOL Well...maybe I can predict her life too!....Nu o sa aiba nici un prieten....nu o se reguleze pana cand nu ajunge la vro doazi si noa de anii! LOL....anyways....That's funny!....Ummm....music....what a funny concept....LOL By oh boy am I bored! Ooohhh....I got a jawbreaker today! yaya! :) yumm yumm Sweet! and more smoking for me and my partner in crime!! We were so heavy...lol we felt so weird today! LOL One cigarette! and we are falling on hte floor!!! how funny! : P....Timur...I'll write to you soon enough....when I give your problem some more thought...cuz I'm on a roll...when it comes to figuring people out ! right now... :) hihihi...who needs classes in ...I know what I mean...LOL Nu am nevoie de clase ca cineva ca sunt deja super buna in a intelege capul...easy to understand of some people! :) Cuz it's somewhat VERY...empty! maybe!!.....LOLOLOL ohhh..well :) How easy it is to have fun at the expense of others....and no punishment comes from it! Joy oh joy! :) Debo..I still to write to you! it's coming....soon...some day... :)....and that's about it!....I'm tired of everthing...especially of life...in the northen hemisphere....LOL....I know what I mean....Cuz I can't write what comes trhought my head right now...cuz I'll quoted on it! :)....Maybe she thinks she's being the greatter person out of this battle...?? Or maybe she is just a coward (just like I predicted..thank you very much!) and amybe she is afraid to question herself...cuz she might seem how bad it is inside....or maybe it's just empty....an empty field.....LOL.....anyways....sleep for me now! :) tomorrow...radio etudiante in the morning sweet...:) yaya to cool dances from different coutries! :) ok va las si va pup pe totii in afara pe aia de aici! ....Pa pa Nana~ (11:07 pm) Ok....what I just did is VERY imature! but fucking funny!!!! LOL....If you don't know what I'm talking about go to friends in the canda part!!! LOL...I counld't help myself! LOLOLOLOLOL oh well....o sa faca ceve si mai rau...but do I care? Don't think so.....so pupicurii la totii :) ..Pa pa Nana~

Oct. 16 2001 (11:59 pm) YES!! YES!!! I know !! Fuck I hate this!!! damn! fuck shit! I'm not sleeping yet!!! I know it's fucking bad!! Anyways...today has been maybe the begining of something that will affet my whole life! And most of all for the rest of 2 years! God I HOPE!! Do I have it in me? To face up to one of the gretest chanleges of my life...? I think I do...I hope I do...I have the support too...If others can...so can I ...I'm willing to trade some luxury for some hapiness!!! That's a sure trade!!! Plus I would be closer to where I want to end up...I don't know...I HOPE with all of my heart!!! I really really do..I'll think about it some more...but I still think I would in a SECOND!! No hesitation...! I'm pretty sure I would!...God help me on this one!! I swear I'll believe in you if you just give me this one thing!!! It's written down...so I won't forget... Do I really realize what I'm asking for?? I think I do..The "empleur" of this is endless!!..Wow...2 years and then my whole life...weird but true....but still...how weird !!... I just hope I have it in me! and That  I will get what I want....!! Anyways....bye to all and lots of kisses to everyone! I wish you to get everything you want...so then maybe I will! : P Ok va las...Pa pa Nana~

Oct 18 2001 (6:12 pm) So so....what's new?? Yesterday I didn't have internet or TV..so I decided to go to sleep!!! Sweet sleep! I slept like 10 hours!!! How happy I am! :) At school....can I please just die?? I get bad ass marks in phisics and chemistry and then in bio I do super good! All I want is over 75 in all three! But anyways... In other news....(if only I had a dick ..it would make sense...) PLEASE HIPPOS!!!! Go Suck My Dick!!! If only we went to school and they all droped dead for some mysterious reason!!! There would be joy everywhere! Awww.....it's soooo cute ...Mandie and Paul are finally together!!! :) I'm so happy! They had been so close for so long! It's so fucking cute :)....Doamne ce dobitoc este ala care ma crede! : P .... Oh..! Fuck I can't wait for saturday!!! Sweet Sweet! Party! My mom gone!...booze....boys...girls...music....Sweet sweet! I hope the neighbours won't complain! Este distractiv sa te uiti la cat mint..dar nu se vede...oh well...Oh yeah!...Stefan called me! :) He's so cute! And he sounds pretty good on the phone...umm : P anyways....lol..Today survivor..how sweet :) ..everything is sweet today! :) lol....maybe cuz I got my SPC card and that I got the calling card for Tudor and Andreea tomorrow...well saturday morning acually!!! :) How Sweet!!!!! I will maybe go to Romania to finish my high school education...!! How fucking SWEET would that be?!?!?!?! Very fucking sweet!!! Fuck..! I would push people out of my way to get on the airplane faster!!!! to fucking leave this damned land!!! This is my hell! Anyways... I'm going to wait for my mom to bring the food to the house today and then I shall eat!!! :) I'm so hungry!! :) maybe it's the winter....Why are we being so cliky?!?!?!?!?!?!? UMMMM!!! I don't KNOW!! Fuck ..! are they brain dead!!!?!?!? They insult us all day long and their's like 30 of them and we are 5 !!!! UMMMM!!!!! That was hard to figure out!! Anyways..!!! fuck all of them ! I serioully hope ca ceva foarte rau sa se lor intimple!!!! Sa moare dracu in pizda masilor!!!! Anyways....lol Cei care vorbesc romana o sa se uite la asta..si o sa credetii ca sunt nebuna!...Dar nu este in situatiia mea!!! So don't say anything! Ma duc sa chatuiesc...lol..Ok va las..  si va pup... Pa pa Nana~

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