| Disclaimer: I don�t own any gundam stuff in any way, shape or form. I also don�t own the song November Rain. That belongs to Guns and Roses, a band that will always be able to make me cry. I�m not getting paid for this, and I�m poor anyway, so please don�t sue. Warnings: 3+4 4+3, angst, sap //signifies thought // time passes in between each verse, but it is in chronological order. November Rain When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin' when I hold you Don't you know I feel the same �Quatre? Please be careful out there.� Trowa slowly drew away from the tight embrace they had allowed themselves. Brushing pale hair away from the smaller boy�s face, he stepped away, glad that his hair hid the tears in his eyes. Another mission where they would be separated. Another month where he wouldn�t know if the one he loved was alive or dead. Looking into those dark eyes was too much for him to stand anymore. The love written there pierced his heart. There was no way for him to even think about telling the beautiful one how he felt when they were forced apart fighting a war. Sometimes he thought he would go mad, trying to keep everything inside where it was supposed to be. Even if he had possessed the words to bare the feelings in his soul, he wouldn�t burden his love, it would only hurt him more. 'Cause nothin' lasts forever And we both know hearts can change And it's hard to hold a candle In the cold November rain Why did he have to meet Quatre during a war? If there had peace, he could have taken Quatre out, sat and watched the stars with him, instead of watching the stars from his lonely machine of death. // It�s so cold in space. It feels like nothing is real unless I�m fighting.// Lowering his head, he closed his eyes to block out the cold stars. //Why does it feel like I lose everything out here� all my emotions get drained, and I feel so empty.// When he got back, would Quatre be waiting for him? Would he get tired of waiting for him? // Everyone changes.. look how much I have changed. I didn�t think I�d ever have a reason to keep living. I didn�t think I�d fall in love.// Shivering he concentrated on those words, holding them closer inside. //I love Quatre.// We've been through this such a long long time Just tryin' to kill the pain But lovers always come and lovers always go An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today Walking away �I�m so glad to see you, Trowa.� Smiling slightly, he ran his hand through Quatre�s hair silently. Their time together would be so short, like every time they saw each other. Walking closely besides him, Trowa watched Quatre with starving eyes, trying to memorize every detail he could to take with him on the next mission. They both worked so hard to find time to be together between missions, fighting to keep together when there wasn�t even anything spoken between them. Not even words to tie them together. Neither could even know if the other one would come back.. would still want to come back. �It�s good to see you too.� If we could take the time to lay it on the line I could rest my head Just knowin' that you were mine All mine So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain Or I'll just end up walkin' In the cold November rain �Quatre� the war�s over.. and we still never have time to talk about things together.� Trowa forced the words past the lump in his throat. � I can�t go on like this, not really knowing how things are. If you weren�t the only one who could do your job, I�d risk everything and ask you to marry me.� Putting his hand up to his shirt, Trowa carefully felt the heavy gold that had been laying against his heart for so long. �I can�t risk that though.� He said to the empty room. �But I can�t keep going like this anymore.. I need to know if you love me.� Dashing the tears from his eyes, he left the building to catch a ride downtown.. to the building marked with the Winner logo. Walking into the plush office was one of the hardest things he�d ever done. Self-destructing would have been easier. Quatre quickly put down his paperwork, looking up at Trowa with confused eyes. �I love you. I need to know weather you love me.� Trowa leaned against a nearby wall to hide how badly he was shaking. �I�ve been living in your world for months now, and nothing keeps me here except for you. If you don�t want to love me, I�d rather leave now, and get on with my life.� Trowa�s heart nearly broke at the regretful look in Quatre�s eyes. Do you need some time...on your own Do you need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time... on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone It had been a year. A year without sunshine. A year of cold rain. He was supposed to see Quatre today.. to see if the time alone his love had needed had been enough. Through his constant pain, he almost felt resentful of the time that had past. //No one should have to wait like that.// Forcing back the tears once again, he walked slowly down the cracked sidewalks. The rain that fell upon his unprotected head did not bother him, it was almost soothing in a way.. the cold numbing him, leaving him ready to face the blond-haired angel that reigned in his heart. Looking at his watch, he sighed as he counted down the minutes, although he had another two hours to wait. I know it's hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn't time be out to charm you �Oh Trowa�� The words faded in and out as he tried to focus on the warm body that held him. Shivering, he suddenly felt his chest constrict painfully. �Why did you wait out in this weather?� The pained voice seemed to come from everywhere all at once as he felt himself being lifted and moved. Racked by horrible coughs, he could barely breathe.. it felt like he was floating away. Maybe this was an angel come to carry him away. �I�m not ever going to leave you alone again.� Floated out of somewhere to wrap around his heart, leaving a small ache, instead of the near-fatal wound that had been eating him alive. �Is he going to be ok?� Another familiar voice said from somewhere. �He�ll be fine, he�s lived through worse than this hasn�t he?� The protective sounding words seemed like a dream. �You shouldn�t have left him like that. Look at him. He has nothing left. It looks like he hasn�t eaten in weeks! I can�t believe you would let him do this to himself, just because you needed the time to come to terms with the war. The war was over, and you just were afraid.� �Duo, I made a mistake, and I won�t make another one. I�m never leaving him again. He means more to me than anything else. It took me a year to figure that out.� Sometimes I need some time... on my own Sometimes I need some time... all alone Everybody needs some time... on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone �I told you, he needs to rest, and he obviously hasn�t been with you two arguing over his bedside!� Sally�s voice finally penetrated the fog around his mind. Carefully opening his eyes, he saw Duo and Quatre standing on either side of the bed, one looking angry and the other looking determined. �Out, Now.� Sally ordered them, shoving them neatly out the door. Tenderly brushing his bangs away from his eyes, she checked his temperature, and set a cool cloth on his forehead. �I know that Quatre loves you, and I know he truly regrets making you leave.� Giving him a quick shot, she smiled down at him. �But I�m not going to let him back in to see you until you�re stable, and not until you�ve had time to sort out your own feelings.� She left him alone to sleep, recover, and figure out what he wanted. �Quatre..� he whispered as he drifted off. And when your fears subside And shadows still remain I know that you can love me When there's no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way 'Cause nothin' lasts forever Even cold November rain Quatre looked stunning in the blindingly white suit he had chosen for the special day. Trowa looked down at his matching one and smiled softly, a hint of movement against his usually stoic face. The day wasn�t perfect, but then nothing ever really is. Staring out at the dark clouds that were slowly lifting, he wondered if he was doing the right thing. //As long as we have each other, everything will eventually work out.// he thought to himself as he caught the eyes of the one he loved. Placing the ring on his beloved�s finger, he suddenly felt the weight that had been holding him down dissipating.. forced away by the loving kiss that burned through him. Quatre whispered gently into his ear. �I love you, my Trowa.� Don't ya think that you need somebody Don't ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You're not the only one You're not the only one |