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| Disclaimer: I don�t own any Gundam stuff in any way, shape or form. A love letter. Trowa, I was thinking about the past today. I know it�s rather pointless, but sometimes a mood will hit me and I can�t help thinking about what came before. It seems like it�s been forever since we�ve seen each other. I know you�re very busy with the circus and Quatre, but if you get the chance, would you write me back? You were always my best friend. Everything seems somehow colder without you around. You never did say much, but then, I didn�t either. I was always too busy worrying about things I really couldn�t change.. and you always just wanted release.. a way out of the nightmare you found yourself in. I�m glad Quatre was able to give that to you. Did you ever wonder why I never told you that you were my best friend? I know I thought it a thousand times.. but I don�t think I�ve ever said it before. I am a coward to tell you on a piece of paper, but it�s the only way I can. I also never told you I loved you. At least not in a way you could understand. I always felt like I gave myself away every time I looked at you. I don�t know how everyone didn�t see it. I guess I was a better actor than I thought. Do you remember the time we all went out to that nightclub? When you and Quatre stole the show? I wished it was me up there, pressed against you.. I would have given anything to tell you how I really felt, but my pride wouldn�t let me. I also couldn�t ever hurt Quatre. You two belong together, there�s no doubt about that. Everything I�ve heard from you has shown me how much he�s helped you grow.. taught you to be happy, You�ve managed to forget your nightmares, while I still live in mine. Am I supposed to be happy? The war is over. I never thought I�d be able to say that.. I used to hope it would never be over. I used the war as a way to prove myself�to try and make myself worthy. I don�t know exactly what I was really trying to be worthy of, but I think it was you. I�m sorry, I know you probably don�t want to hear this, but I need to tell you. I�ve spent too much time hiding behind my honor, and I need to be honest with you. Your friendship is all I have left.. it�s all that keeps me going day to day. I can�t tell you why, since you�re not even here, but I have to let you know. You are too important to me to let you go on believing a lie. I�m not as strong as you think I am, and. I won�t hide it again. Wufei |
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