Big Empty
drivin' faster in my car
falling farther from just what we are
smoke a cigarette and lie some more
these conversations kill
falling faster in my car
-Why do I even bother trying?- Quatre thought to himself as he sped down the highway. It wasn�t like he was really trying to find someone to marry, he was just keeping up appearances�. After all, no one could know that the heir to the Winner estate had fallen in love with a man� especially since that man had walked right out of his life like he�d never been in it. Coughing from the smoke that blew into his face, he stole a quick glance at the woman beside him. Noin knocked the ashes off the side of the window, sinking farther into the soft leather seat.
�You know something Quatre? I have more fun out driving with you than I do when we reach our destinations. There�s something just so romantic about being alone on a deserted highway.� Looking out at the evening scenery, she refused to meet Quatre�s eyes, and the absolute disbelief written there. �I�m still surprised when you invite me out� I am older than you, you know?�
It was all Quatre could do to keep from sighing� She damn well knew why he invited her out more often than anyone else. -She�s as dead inside as I am. She loved Zechs, and she still does. I�ll never have to worry about her really trying to �catch� me.- Rolling his eyes, he half-listened to her as she kept on speaking to him, knowing he wasn�t really paying attention..
time to take her home
her dizzy head is conscience laden
time to take a ride
it leaves today no conversation
time to take her home
her dizzy head is conscience laden
time to wait too long
to wait too long
these conversations kill
Noin lay half-asleep in the seat next to him, apologizing in as many ways as she could.. �You will forgive me won�t you? We can still go out and be friends?� Quatre gritted his teeth and drove faster. After having more alcohol than she could handle, she had crossed the line between �safe� and �danger.� It had been a half-hearted attempt at best, but she still had made a pass at him. -I can�t take this anymore- Clutching the wheel tighter, he finally pulled into the parking lot and helped her up to her apartment. -I won�t do this anymore.. they�ll just have to find a new heir for Winner- Returning home and grabbing his jacket, Quatre headed out to the nearest transport station. �I�ll take a ticket to anywhere.. just make it fast.�
to much walkin', shoes worn thin
too much trippin' and my soul's worn thin
time to catch a ride
it leaves today, her name is what it means
to much walkin', shoe's worn thin
Quatre sat alone in a deserted alley.. his hands shaking as he pulled another pill out from his dirty jacket. -You�d think that after travelling across five colonies I could forget him� forget everything� the only thing that helps are these.. gods, I wish it was more than a few hours escape�- Burying his hands in his golden hair, he sobbed silently� ignoring everything around him except the warm feeling that slowly flowed into him, separating him from himself.. from the pain that followed him like a pet.. Everything suddenly seemed hazed over with light.. and a figure suddenly appeared against the blinding radiance. �Nooooooo!� Quatre screamed as he ran from the figure before him. �You can�t be here.. you can�t� I can�t run any farther!� Shuddering, he fell against the bricks, leaving a smear of blood that gleamed wetly in the sudden darkness. Looking up into the face of the shadow, Quatre fainted.. crumpled on the ground.
Trowa carefully picked up the unconscious boy and headed towards the nearest hospital. He�d waited too long, and his angel had left him.. gone to roam space� but he wouldn�t get away from him again..