Christy kelly turns to jelly ha ha
Your namesake is out cold sweetie... she came out and didn't say a word, just crawled up on the couch and climbed into margo's lap and stuck her thumb in her mouth and now she's fast asleep. so here we sit.
you kind of answered my question but I guess I always assumed that there was a little bit of "i want to know what it's like to be with brian" going on with margo when you and i were dating, and when margo and i finally broke the sound barrier she told me yes more than anything THAT was why she picked your brain... she was fantasizing the whole time...loving me vicariously she called it.
just made me kinda wonder, if you guys still talk like that, what's the point behind it? I guess i get the whole "feeling better about my sexuality" answer...and yeah its fun...and no it doesn't really make me feel funny... and i'd be lying if i said i never thought of you in that way, because you were the first, you know? in a way writing what i wrote about our first time was revisiting it and it made me a little uneasy and scared that you'd think i feel that way now, or want that or want you like that now.... it's something that i feel so good about and happy about and it's a good feeling to still be close to someone i shared something so deep with, something so private with... and yeah i guess a part of me does feel funny about you and margo talking about it, because i DID and DO feel like that little cocoon as you put it 26 springs ago was OUR special place... I didn't mind telling margo that it was great, how it felt... i remember thinking as i drove home (before margo told me about getting raped at the party) thinking "God, margo has to TRY this." you know? So I wanted her to know how it was and how it felt and how great I felt... but the best thing about it was that it was you and me and I STILL feel really protective of that... and that was what made me feel funny thinking about.
like you said it was something special that we shared and even though we're both with our soulmates now it's always going to be something that we had that was OURS ALONE that NO ONE can touch or visit... and i don't want anyone to! and I know margo would understand if i said that...
It's a good feeling to see you now and have that sharedness with you, that feeling of our history...I love you in a way I love nobody else... you know that...margo knows that...just like way back then even you knew that I loved margo in a way i could never love you...and that has always been all right with all of us.
so that's my rebuttal to your answer woman... and i think that tonight what is going to happen is that I'm going to be sleeping with my two favorite girls in the world.... margo just kissed my forehead and said good night and she's carrying becca right into our bedroom, and i'm gonna join them. she says good night and so do i...
thank you for everything you are to me christy. i can't wait to see you guys next weekend!! have a good friday and like i said let me know how marty reacts when you give him the news... or if you make it to sunday dinner. i bet he figures it out way before then. now that you've decided that you're having the baby it's not gonna be a secret... you wanted to keep it from him before because you weren't sure yourself but now that you've made up your mind he'll be able to tell... believe me... i could tell the moment margo knew. it was two days of giggling from her before she broke down and told me officially.
good night christy... see you and marty next weekend. xo bri
OH ps.... the myron mail alert... i have a sound clip of myron cope yelling TERRIFIC! YOI! programmed into my aol... so everytime i get a new email, instead of it saying "you've got mail," I hear myron cope yelling TERRIFIC! YOI! Margo HATES it... "Bad enough I have to hear him quacking during the Steelers games but now you have to program it into our PC?" Hers just says "You've got mail..." I changed it around a couple times and she got SO pissed, hahaha xoxo bri
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