Life as a simple man...

I cannot take this life as it is. I cannot change it with the tactics I have learned. I am an outsider tryin to fit in though I will not change myself just so "they" will like me. Inside a world that I wished I didn't live. A time that doesn't have room for me. My morals and standards are basic ones to me yet this world singles me out for them. I stick out like a sore thumb. Why am I the only one?

Where is it written that What I believe in is wrong? Why does it never get me anywhere? I mean, I do as I was raised to do. Once Love sets in there is NO one else. Once the bond has cured there is no need for lies as if there ever is a need. Why do people lie so? Why does no one seem to be faithful with the one they claim to "Love"?

I have made mistakes just like anyone would. Choices that I knew better then to make, but I did anyway. Can no one really see what is wrong with life today? Married one day only to sleep around the next. Being Friendly is often mistaken for something that it is not and is alwyas used as an excuse as to why "you" were flirting with "him/her".

To be "Nice" is no more a lie then saying that you "love me true". There is no Love in distrust. Once trust is lost all that is left is tolerance. How much you can tolerate is always the limit as to how long the relationship will last. I cannot tolerate shit anymore. I must not allow myself to do this again. You bend me over or lie to me once that is it. No more chances no matter how lonely I am... and believe me I am very..

People say that my standards are too high.. Ok.. well lets list the small number. One, I do not want a woman that lies. Two, I would rather not get with a woman that has a child simply cause the child is a link between her and the "EX"; for me that has always made for disaster way before there is a chance of it however, if there is that "Trust" thing I can over look this one.. Three, I want a woman that is easy on the eyes so to speak and is very active, I love to hike, ride bikes, camp, ect... Lastly, Four, I want a woman that I can trust with anything and with anyone. So tell me.. are these HIGH standards?

Also People have said that what I expect from a relationship is too much to ask. Well lets go thru that too. Ok.. I Expect : The ability to talk about anything at anytime. The ability to have fun doing what ever when ever and where ever. I expect, well more like "would like it if" She never wanted to be apart from me for long periods of time. I expect to be treated with love and tenderness as I would treat her. I want so much to feel love from someone else. Basicly they call me High Maintainence.. laugh?

My life I have believed in something that has just as much room in this world as I do which isn't much... True Love, Soul Mates. I have molded my life around one person yet I have had to let in others because I don't know how to tell when I find her. After the fact I always hate myself for being so stupid. However, how would I know anyway unless I try?

Guys my age often say,"Well there's your problem! That's why you are so sad!!" refering to how I hate to just sleep around and don't do it. They say that if I get laid I will feel so much better. Shit.. I have often wanted to know what it really would feel like to make love with someone that loves me and no one else. Sex to me is more then just an activity that a guy and a girl, or I should say two people now a days cause of the gay shit going on, can do. To me it is creating a bond between you and your partner. A way to express true feelings for one another. If I finish first I do what ever I can to make sure that my "other" is staified before I take a rest. Ah? Dun Believe me? Well I insist! Dun just take my word for it ;) Let me prove it!! Mwhaa ha haa ha haaaa... Anywho..

Cheating in a relationship has become a trend it seems. Everyone I know right now is either cheating or being cheated on. What the sam hell is going on with this world? Alls I can say is.. "Remember the Romans?!" What happened to them when they were doing this same shit that we are doing now? Dun think that we are doing what they did.. wells.. do a bit of research and you will see.

In my opinion, we are fucked and there is nothing anyone.. not gunna say "can do" I am gunna say.. WILL do to change it. Simply because they do not honestly see the harm in what they do on a daily basis. Satan has his grip on this world and he is not letting go cause Humans are the easiest to control. Humans... Within the human heart is all the good things. Within the human mind is all the evil things. People don't seem to use their hearts anymore. All they seem to care about is their selves and anyone that gets in their way is expendible.

At any rate, I think I have gotten across my points good enough for this installment. Also if you dun like my misspelling of words.. alls I can say is.. SIT DOWN AND STFU!! naa.. really though, I didn't really believe that you would read this so why sould I care about it? Besides, it makes it more personalized with 'em in here don't it?

Anywho, thnkx for taking the time out of your busy life to read this rant of mine. Hope to hear from you and any input you have to add to this and any other rant I have made.

"Cheers!" *As I raise a ice cold can of Dr. Pepper* "Ahh.. that's the shizz!!"