Sadness Lays Heavy

Weeks of cloud and rain, the wet gloominess

reflecting my emotions and mimicking my tears…

the lack of sunshine such a reality in my life right now.

Sadness lays heavy on me, a dull ache in my chest.

What I once loved has become associated with rejection and pain.

It no longer brings excitement to my life, only dread.

I feel afraid and unable to go back to what I love,

unable to let my music flow. I don’t want to play anymore.

It reminds me too much of what I can’t have and of my

confusion about why I want it anyway.

I will sit with my pain and self-pity for awhile, being a victim.

Then, when I’ve had enough, I will let God’s love heal me.

Just as sunshine bursts forth after a period of rain,

I will find my joy and excitement again.

My music will ring out with love and laughter.

It won’t be kept down for long.

Maureen Voss