Let it run…free

I remember my psychology professor once asked us “Is it emotionally healthy for a person to let go of his/her emotions?”  It was a very stupid question as I may say.  I had never paid attention to this discussion, and besides, I hate psychology.  That’s why I took this class twice.  Anyway, I have embraced this question through out the years knowing the answer was an obvious “yes.”  Knowing myself, I have been very vocal and expressive towards someone.  Sometimes my friends call me taklesa, which I care less.  I have gotten into the nerves of my officemates plenty of times, but because I know how to deal with it, I have redeemed myself over and over again.

As for now, I’m not really sure of why I’m writing this, but something inside me must be unleashed this very moment.  I don’t know if this is right or wrong, but this is a test of what that question is all about.  For the first time, it is not just a question with a yes or no answer.  It is now, generally speaking, an uncertainty with a state of contentment or maybe sadness on the line towards the consequence.  As for my part tonight while I’m doing this, it’s a fruitless condition that I care about.  I know.

So, is it emotionally healthy for a person to let go of his/her emotions towards someone?  Several may answer, “of course;” some may reply, “no;” and a few may say, “It depends on what the conclusion will be.”  For my share, it is always a yes.

For the past years, I have been extracting my feelings towards someone explicitly.  Giving her flowers, buying expensive gifts, driving her home, treating her to a fancy restaurant, and all that.  Without the essence of the hidden sensitivity beyond the question I mentioned, for all I know, during those times, everything will work out perfectly fine, which it did.  Just a touch of some cheesy craps I learned from all kinds of teen zines and flicks – then that’s it.

At present, it is entirely different.  Why? That chapter of my book has been closed, and a new scene has begun.  The flower has been picked up and placed inside the vase for security.  Though before it was a beastly thrill for pleasure, but now it is just an average basic flat of squeezing out my feelings.

I want you to look at these questions:  Have you ever felt the exhilaration inside you after you say hi to your crush?  Is it electrifying to see that person’s smile?  Do you know the feeling on how good it is to sit beside her buming for cigs then she would suddenly jumps up because a roach passes by, then you take her hand and say, “it’s alright?”  You would exactly love to see the reaction in her face.  What about waiting for him/her before you leave the office so you could take a glimpse of how good the person looks as you say, “You look good tonight!”? How about lending your CD to that person for he/she likes the music in it?  Don’t you ever love the sound of his/her laughter especially when that person buys your jokes?  Don’t you just love to hear him/her sings yet that person is off the tune? Don’t you feel sorry too for that person when he/she had a bad hair day and you just want to be there to comfort him/her?  When you get yourself a food, don’t you just think of that person and buy one for him/her too?  How does it feel to care about that person – your special someone? Complete? Happy? Well, without a shadow of a doubt, you are! 

You see; it doesn’t really have to be some bonggasious expression to let that person know you like him/her.  If your style is to run your hole and brag about your feelings while going into some big time courtship, then do it!  That’s your style.  But what if you like to express yourself, but you cant because you cant put it point blank?  What will you do?  Will you just sit on one corner and stare at the stars, or waiting for some fairy godmother to fulfill your wish?  This is like forcing yourself to sleep while angels can’t even rub your eyes, you’ll get frustrated.  So you need to do something, right?

In showing your feelings, you don’t have to be obvious about it, unless you want to be noticed.  There are several uncomplicated alternatives to display your position for him/her, and it’s FREE.   

A simple ‘hi’ will do – “oh hi, how’s it going?”

A goodbye remarks will do if he/she is leaving – “I’ll see you tomorrow, you take care”. 

A word of concern like “you should be sleeping now so you’ll get enough energy for your work” is a good one for he/she might answer you back with the same reply. 

I’m sure you’ll agree with this, our eyes are the windows of our souls, so try to stare at that person intently as if you’re telling something very pleasing. 

If you’re more of a Shakespeare, you could write a decent poem for him/her, and if you can compose a song, much better.  Music is the best way to express your self. 

When that person talks, listen.  Try to show him/her that you are interested in every word he/she is saying as you appreciate his/her sweet tune.

Your laughter expresses it too.  This is a direction to display to that person that you enjoy his/her company. 

Small tokens.  It’s not the quantity; it’s the thought that counts.

Try to show appreciation to that person.  “Hey, I like your dress. It looks good on you,”  “wow, you look beautiful today, as always!”  Compliments can always make a person feel pleasant. 

Try to be openhanded in giving that person pats, hugs, or simple kisses on the chic (don’t give these things a malice).

Make that person a favor.  Don’t wait for the person to ask you to do something for him/her.  It’s very well to volunteer and do that person an act of kindness at all times.

Part of showing your emotion to your significant someone is to make him/her feel special.  Though you don’t literally have to tell him/her that you like the person, the wee attention you give to that person may just satisfy your emotion appetite, and you’ll notice the bliss inside your room when you go to sleep.  You’ll get excited the next morning to see that person again, and who knows, those little things you showed might pay off agreeably.

If you don’t have the guts to tell your crush or your special someone that you like or maybe love him/her, be happy by just showing your own small but special appreciation of God’s beautiful creation in his/her being.  Do this before the last page of the chapter of your book ended.  Do this before the flower might be placed in a vase for you will regret the moment you don’t let your feelings to run free towards someone. 

In your own little way, you have shared your singing, laughter and happiness towards that person.  No offerings such as gold nor silver, but the only thing you can offer to that person and to yourself is your peace of mind, which is being pleased whatever the results will be.  Someday, when all is done and if nothing happens, it’s not a failure, but at least you have expressed your thoughts and feelings enough to make yourself good about the situation.