Uncharted Waters

By Emelie

 

 

 

Part one

Something new - yet so old

Joey walked into the darkened apartment covered head to toe in water. The rain out side had been pounding like a hammer against a nail for hours on end but when she had left for work it was as sunny as it could ever be. She only wished that she would of listened to Pacey when he had said that it was bound to rain today, but when she had glanced out side she had only said that the chances of that happening were slim to none.

She couldn’t believe how fast those chances had increased. She closed the door behind herself as she removed her wet shoes. As soon as they were off of her feet she turned on the light. A bright flash began to flow through the room in a second that was followed by darkness.

“Well, isn’t this just my luck?” She said as she used her feet to push her shoes to the other side of the door and walk into the kitchen in darkness. As soon as her hand found the counter she placed her black purse on it and fumbled for the other light. She turned the switch and light filled the room.

“That’s better now.” She said as she removed her wet coat and placed it on the chair next to the table.

“Pacey are you home?” She yelled as she stood for a minute or two. No noise came which made her safe to believe he was out.

“Maybe for the rest of the night for all I cared.” She said under her breath as she began to unbutton her blouse. As soon as it was fully undone she slipped it off of her skin with ease. Cold air hit her skin faster then the flash of light she saw come from the window at the other end of the room. A few seconds later Thunder followed.

“Pacey only said it was going to rain, not become a storm.” She said as she undid the clasp to her bra and removed it. The silky material fell to the floor next to her damp blouse. Her nipples became erect as the cold air of the apartment hit it. She undid her skirt and let it fall to the ground along with her underwear. She was standing in her and Pacey’s apartment fully naked and the first thing that came to her mind was Pacey.

“I bet he would be wishing to be here right now if he only knew.” She said as she bent over and picked up her damp clothing. She walked to her room and through them to the ground and walked to the bathroom, not even bothering to close the door. She walked over to the bath tub and turned both the hot and cold taps as water began to shoot into the tub. She placed her hand under the warming water until she was comfortable with the temperature of it.

She stood up and walked over to the CD system that was always kept in there and flipped the ‘On’ switch and then pressed play. “Where you are” Sung by Jessica Simpson began to fill the room as Joey walked back to the bath tub that was filled with hot water. She took one foot off of the ground and placed it in the tub, which was followed by the other foot. Joey relaxed herself in the tub as she hummed along with the music. She closed her eyes and let her surrounding take over and before she knew it an hour had gone by. She looked around the bathroom and took in every object, every texture and every sound. ‘It sure feels nice around her when Pacey’s not here... I wonder where he is?’ Joey thought as she began to apply liquid soap to a sponge.


Pacey walked into the darkened apartment soaked. The power had gone out five minutes ago while he was making his way up the stairs. ‘Boy am I glad I took the stairs...’ Pacey thought as he removed his shoes. That was the only good thing about that day Pacey realized. He was late for work this morning when he had over slept, He had gotten a parking ticket over lunch when he had run into a restaurant to grab a bite to eat, His umbrella had gotten stolen (Who steals umbrella’s?) and had gotten a flat tire on the way home.

The only good thing so far that had happen today was his decision to take the stairs instead of the elevator. Pacey removed his coat and walked further into the room. As he walked blindly into the darken apartment and tiny glow appeared in the corner of his eye. He began to slowly approach the light when he realized Joey was in the bathroom, taking a bath with candles lit around the room.

He watched her while she bathed herself in the warm water compared to his cold and damp clothing. He was memorized by her darken beauty as the lights around the room danced with themselves. It was then that ever since he could remember that he had loved - and always will love Joey Potter. He took a step closer as he watched her every move. He tried to imagine that he was the one placing the wet, soap covered sponge upon her smooth, soft skin. The thought of him being so close caused his heart to skip a beat, his breath to become caught in his throat and his male member to make it self present.

It pressed up against the zipper of his work pants and caused him to feel a light touch of pain and pleasure. ‘Why does this always happen? Why can’t I just not having feelings for her... It’s been six years and I still can’t go on with my life! I haven’t even told her yet...’ Pacey thought as he stared at Joey in the burning lights of the vanilla scented room. He was memorized by every small detail of her arms, legs, neck, face, eyes, lips... Sometimes he’d wish her eyes would look at him the same way they once looked at Dawson, But he already knew wishes don’t come true... Or do they?


Joey was splashing some water on her arms when she felt his presence. For the last six years she had been dreaming of him, holding her in his arms, kissing her lips. But When would she every get the chance of that every happening to her - of all people? I mean she knew from the start that when he had moved in with her that she would never be able to hold back her feelings for him, but some how she had managed.

She looked up to the door and saw him standing there with a memorize look on his face. His eyes taking every piece of her in to his.

“I’m - I mean - I think I’ll go-”

“No Don’t!” Before she realized it she had just told him to stay. He turned around and met her gaze. The look on his face made her heart skip a couple of beats. Was that a look of desire in his eyes - for her?

“What did you just say Jo?” He asked almost as if he hadn’t believed her own words. Joey looked into his eyes and tried to read what they were saying. Did he have deep, unspoken feeling for her? Or was that a look of lust in his eyes?

“I... Um... I said don’t leave.” She managed to get out. She had totally forgotten that she was in a bath tub, filled with warm, soothing water, naked and for his eyes only to see. She didn’t know what to think any more as she fell into a trance while staring into his eyes. He didn’t speak, just stared into her eyes that were filled with love towards him. ‘But does he feel the same way I feel for him?’ Joey thought as she sat there waiting for him to speak.


Pacey stood there not believing his own ears. ‘Did She ask me to stay?’ He thought as he stared into her eyes. He couldn’t read her face but he had a feeling She was waiting for him to speak. The only problem was, was that he didn’t quite know what to say. His breath was still caught in his throat, his heart still hadn’t started again. He was either shocked or surprised by what he had just heard. ‘Should I run up to her and kiss her or should I tell her how I feel first?’ Pacey thought as he swallowed hard. He decided to take a step forward and see what she would do.

As soon as he had taken his step she still hadn’t done a thing. ‘Is that my Que.?’ He thought as he tried to read her eyes. He had finally let go of his breath that he had been holding when she licked her lips. ‘Maybe I should speak first, then kiss her...’ He thought as he opened his mouth to speak.

“Joey, I-”

“Pacey, I know we’ve been friends for a while but hear my out before you speak.” She said as she kept he eyes locked to his.

“What is there to tell me Jo?” He said as he left her gaze and turned to one of the candles that was by his side.

“There’s a lot I have to tell you.” She said as she got up from the bath tub and took a step towards him. His eyes went from hers to the whole length of her body as he took in every shape, every texture, every piece of her body. That must of been when Joey realized she was missing something of importance, Pacey realized as her cheeks turned red and she quickly ran for a near by towel but found a robe instead.

“Really?” Pacey said as his gaze turned to the candle as she wrapped herself in a white colored robe. Mean while his male member was harder then a rock from what he had just witnessed.

“Really. Pacey for the six years that we had finally started acting like friends again I’ve been hiding something from you.” Pacey stood there watching the candle’s flame dance in the darkness. For some completely stupid reason he felt like he was about to get his heart ripped out of his chest and stomped on by the women he loved - Would always love.

“What have you been hiding Joey?” Pacey said in a whisper, almost afraid to hear those words. He had a feeling that he was asking for it when he asked the question.

“How I feel about you Pace.” She said. ‘This is it. This is where I lose her for good...’ Pacey thought as he hesitantly met her eyes with his.

“And how do you feel about me Jo?” He asked as he felt the beginning of tears build up in his eyes. If there was ever going to be a moment where she was about to truly know how he felt it would be this moment, no matter what she said, Pacey knew that as soon as her eyes held his she’d know.

“I feel like you are the only one that keeps my life in order and if I ever lost you there would never be any meaning to my life for as long as I lived. You make me see things for what they are, not for what they will look like in the future and you make me feel things I’ve never felt before - Even when I was with Dawson I never felt these things. You inspire me to do good in my life and never analyze things for what they should be. You are the meaning to my life Pacey Witter. And for that I will always care for you.” The words ‘care for you’ made him swallow back his tears. ‘How did I ever make my self believe that she would love me?’ Pacey thought as he started to turn around and make his way out of this room, and this place.

But another set of words he didn’t expect to ever hear from her entered the silence of the room and made his love the loudest sound of them all.


Joey stood their motionless as she waited for him to meet her gaze. Now she had just told him - Pacey Witter how she really felt for him. Now this was the moment of truth, Did he feel the same for her as she felt for him?

“What did you just say?” He said as she bit on her lower lip. He turned around and met her gaze and at that complete moment, she saw life and love pass through his eyes and enter hers.

“I said-”

“But do you really mean that?” He said before she could say those words again. Before this moment she never had the courage to say them into the open but now, after she had said them she felt like she could say them over and over again. She felt like she could run to the highest roof top and tell the word for all she cared.

“Yes, Pacey. I mean them with all my heart. I’ll always mean them forever. You are the only reason I wake up every day and live my life. You are the reason why I smile every second I’m here or there. You are the person that brings sparkles to my eyes and make them stay there. You are the reason why I paint, why I breath every day, why my heart beats every second. Pacey I love you with all my heart, I’ll always love you.” She said as a tear fell down her cheek. She, Joey Potter had finally said the words that she would always mean to him.

Joey searched Pacey’s eyes for the same thing she felt, but for some reason her blurred vision prevented so. She always disliked crying in front of people, but at this moment it didn’t matter. She was happy, but not as happy as she wanted to feel. The only thing holding that happiness back was Pacey. He knew how she felt, now it was his turn to tell her how he felt. How did he feel about her? He still hadn’t said anything and every second that went by was every second of torture. After several, long seconds Joey knew how he felt. It wasn’t the same way she felt for him.

She whipped away the remaining tears and dashed out of the room. But before she Could leave the Bathroom he grabbed her hand.

“Where do you think you’re going Potter?” He said as a smile appeared on his face that she hadn’t seen before until now.

“I was leaving. I had finally said how I felt and I was standing there like a fool as you remained Silent. What else was I supposed to do?” She said as another tear fell down her cheek. His hand left hers and went to the tear on her face. He whipped it away and then left his hand there.

“Jo, When will you learn that after saying something like that, that you have to kiss the guy you are saying those words to?” He said as he leaned in towards her. He stopped an inch from her lips, as if waiting for her to do the rest. It was then that she knew how he felt. His silence said everything that her heart had just said minutes before. She moved in more and brushed her lips against his.

“Like this?” She said before she kissed him the way she had always dreamed of kissing him. It was passionate, meaningful, loving.


He couldn’t believe it. He was kissing Joey, the one he loved yet couldn’t have for six years. He pulled away from the kiss long enough to ask her one question.

“What took you so long Potter?” He asked as his eyes found hers. She gave him this look that made his knees go week.

“What took me so long? What about you, What took you so long?” She asked him as her fingers brushed the tiny hairs on the back of his neck. He kissed her again and then pulled away.

“Fear, lack of courage - You take your pick.” He said as he kissed her again. She pulled away from him and mumbled something under her breath. Then kissed him again. That was when it was his turn to pull away from her.

“What did you say Jo?” He asked.

“I said fear. Fear was what has been holding me back for these six years. I was afraid you didn’t love me like-”

“Like you love me? Of course I Love you Jo. I love you more then words could ever express.” He said as looked deep into her eyes. He saw more tears fall from her eyes and whipped them away. He had finally told her how he felt with not as many words as she had said earlier. There were no words for him that would ever tell her how much he cared for her. He came in for another passionate kiss that was full of love and fulfillment.

His hands roamed her lower back as her hands went from his neck to his shoulders. For some reason she pulled away again. Before he could ask why she went to untie her robe. He swallowed hard. The only difference between seeing her naked before and now was that both their feelings were now out in the open.

“Joey you don’t -”

“I want to,” She said before he could finish his sentence. Within seconds her robe that was once on her body was now on the floor below her. She was standing infront of him as if waiting for him to make the next move. He walked up to her and before he could take her in his arms she grabbed at the bottom of his still damp shirt. “I think this should go to,” She said as she went to remove it. His arms came up above of his head as his shirt followed. It fell to the floor with out a single care. “And this.” She said as she went to remove his pants.

As soon as her hands came to the zipper his erection became more harder and made it self more noticeable. Before he could tell her to stop his pants fell to the ground, along with his boxers. As fast as his pants had fallen her lips were on his once again. He knew that if they went to far he wouldn’t be able to stop if she wanted him to. He pulled away long enough to tell her that if they got to a point where she suddenly felt uncomfortable to tell him to stop. She just nodded her head and went back to kissing him. A soft moan came from his lips as her lips left his and went to his neck. His hands went from her lower back to the part of her he had never touched before.

He heard her moan against his neck as he tighten his grip on her ass. That sound from her lips made him harder. He knew he was already to far gone to ever stop. Her mouth came to his lips again as his hands moved to the moist area between her legs. She was already wet from his touches, his kisses that he knew she wanted him just as much as he wanted her at that very moment. Maybe he wouldn’t have to stop later. His fingers messaged her clit as his other hand held her up. Her breathing had become sharp and fast against his cheek as he whispered into her ear.

“Do you want to go your bed room?” He asked. She just nodded her head.

“Yes!” She said either as a moan or a word. He couldn’t tell any more. He lifted her up into his arms and walked into the living room. A bright flash filled the room as he made his way to her room. He had caught a better glimpse of her body as it had brightened up the room.

“Joey you are so beautiful that I find it hard to remember to breath and have my heart beat every second,” He said as his eyes had found his in the dark. He was sure she had began to blush as her eyes left his to her bedroom door. She never once tensed up as he walked into her room and laid her on her bed. That was when he knew he needed something from his room, but the simple thought of leaving her now already made him miss her. “Joey, I don’t want to go, but I need to get some-” Before he could finish his sentence she reached over to her night stand and pulled out a condom.

“Jen always made me keep one here. ‘Just in case’ Was her excuse. I guess she was right.” She said as she open the package up for him. As soon as it was open she handed it
to him.

“Thanks,” He said as he pulled it out of the package and placed it on his male member. His heart had began to pump fast then it did a couple of minutes earlier. This was it, this was when he would be able to show her exactly how he felt about her. He went and laid on top of her, but didn’t use all of his wait on her. “Joey, I love more than life it self.” He said as he went to kiss her.

“I love you too Pace.” She said right before he kissed her. In all of their six years he would never trade this moment in. Never.


She couldn’t believe it. This was the moment she had been waiting for, for six years. It was finally happening. She felt him Open her legs wider and then stop for a second. Before she could speak she felt him. She felt him enter her with ease. He sat their for several seconds as she took all of this in.

“I want this to last forever Pace.” She said as he suddenly seemed more a live then before.

“So do I, Jo. So do I.” He said as he moved slowly in and out of her. Their hands found each others and then their fingers. His pace began to speed up more as both of their breathing became more labored. Sweat washed over both of their bodies as well as electricity. She was so in love with him, that she knew she would never get enough of him. Moans and groans filled their ears as both became one. Orgasm after orgasm washed over them as the hours of the night flew passed them and the storm pounded against the walls and windows. It was this night that they had finally found each other and would never let go. Love was the loudest sound of the night as they fell asleep in each others arms, still as one as they had just passed uncharted waters...

Part Two

The fun part of love

Pacey was opening the door to his and Joey’s apartment late one evening.. He still couldn’t believe his luck that he had, had the day before. Him and Joey had finally told each other and shown each other how they felt about one another. All day long at work every one had noticed his smile and the sparkle in his eyes. He knew he couldn’t and wouldn’t hide the way he felt. He felt like the luckiest man alive. Joey Potter was in love with him, He was in love with her. Life was great.

As soon as he had opened the door he saw Joey standing with her back turned towards him, looking out the main window in the living room. He quietly closed the door, removed his shoes and crept up behind her. Then as soon as he was close enough he wrapped her in his arms. She didn’t jump or scream.

“Hey.” She said with a smile on her face. That simple word caused him to tighten his grip around her.

“Hey, I’ve been missing you all day.” He said as his lips brushed against her neck. She titled her neck which only meant one thing to him - She’s feeling the same way he felt at that same moment.

“So have I,” She said as she titled her neck even more. He felt her body move closer to his as he kissed her neck. His male member suddenly heading towards north. “I want to make up for lost time today Pacey.” She said as she was about to turn around. He only loosened his grip to allow her to face him.

“Oh really?” He said as his eyebrows went up including something else.

“You know the more you talk the less time we have.” She said as her hands went to his waist and then moved slowly towards his ass. Finally they met their destination and squeezed. A soft moan came from his lips as his eye lids suddenly became heavy with desire.

“Maybe we should limit the talking to moans and groans then.” Pacey said as his hands left her waist and came to unbutton her shirt.

“Agreed.” She said as her hands went to the hem of his shirt. As soon as he had finished unbuttoning her shirt he lifted his arms so she could remove his shirt. He watched her take his shirt off and let it fall to the ground and then she backed away from him. Before he could ask her what she was up to she took the opening of her shirt in her hands and slowly, but seductively she began to ease it off of her self.

Pacey’s gaze went from her eyes to her hands as she removed her shirt that displayed her soft, smooth, tanned skin underneath, along with her white lace bra that captured her full chest. His breath caught in his throat as she let her shirt fall to the floor and then reached behind her to undo her bra. Before she could though Pacey walked up to her.

“Allow me.” He said as his hands went to her shoulders. He took a deep breath and inhaled her sent. His hands came around her and reached the clasp of her bra. He unhooked her bra and then had his hands go back to her shoulders slowly. As soon as both of his hands laid on each bra strap he used his palm to guide the straps down along the length of her arms, his fingers wrapping them selves along her arms. Then he let the bra fall as his eyes took each part of her in as if seeing her for the first time. Her hands went to the zipper of his jeans and slowly pulled it down. Just knowing that her hands were so close to his member made his erection even more hard.

Finally the zipper was down and now her hands went to the button that was keeping his jeans up. She carefully unhooked the button and then pulled down on his jeans. They fell to his ankles as he looked at her hard nipples. He hadn’t even touched her to make them stick out like they were. He removed his jeans along with his socks then his hands found their was upon her jeans. He slowly unbuttoned her jeans and slid the zipper down. With one tug her jeans fell to her feet. He lowered himself on the floor and removed her jeans for her and then his hands slowly slid up her long, slender legs as he took in each touch. His hands came upon her soft, tight ass and squeezed it like she had done to him.

He heard her moan as he tighten his grip and raised his head so he could see the look on her face. Purely Pleasure and love crossed her face as his hands left her ass and came to the waste band of her white lace underwear. He slowly began to pull it down as he kept his eyes on her face. Then as soon as her underwear was by her feet he lifted one leg at a time to remove it. Then his eyes fell upon the part of her he craved to have his lips on. Instead of placing his lips on that part of her he wanted to kiss he kissed one of her thighs as he made his way up. His fingers touched her clit and found how hot and wet she had already become.

He messaged her for a while until he knew she was close to losing it. That was when he stopped. His lips came to her belly button and then the valley between her breasts shortly after. Both of his hands came to each breast as he cupped them. His lips moved to on of her breast and then kissed the harden nipple and then nibbling on it for a little while. He then Gave the other breast the same attention as she moaned again and again. Moments later his lips were on her neck as he sucked on her soft skin. She moaned again as his fingers played with her hardened nipples until Finally their lips came to form a passionate, ice melting kiss.

His heart had been beating so fast He was sure she could feel it. His male member was as hard as a rock as her pressed himself on her stomach. They both moaned as his hands Came around her waist and pulled her closer. Her hands moved to the waist band of his boxers as he moved against her. She pulled away from the kiss as she lowered herself to the floor. Both of their breathing was short and fast as she removed his boxers. Seconds later his boxers were with the rest of their clothing on the floor. He could feel her hot breath on his dick as she breathed on it. She lingered there for several seconds as if teasing him until her lips came around the tip of it.

He let a moan escape his lips as she let her tongue circle it over and over. She slowly let him in her mouth as she continued her action. Her mouth moved up and down his swollen, pulsing shaft as he knew he was close to falling over the edge.

“Joey, please stop.” He said as he felt her remove him from her mouth.

“Why?” She asked as she got to her feet. she had a confused expression on her face.

“Because if you think I was going to cum in your mouth think again.” He said as his hands came around her waist.

“What are you talking about?” She asked him as she pushed him away.

“I’m saying that I’d rather cum when I’m inside of you.” He said as he took her in his arms.

“Well, when you put it that-” Before she could Finnish her sentence he kissed her with all the love and passion in his heart. Then he pulled away long enough to pick her up and walk as fast as he could to his bedroom. He placed her on his bed and ran to his nightstand and pulled out a condom. As fast as he could her ripped open the package and slipped it on to his throbbing member. Then he ran over to Joey and picked her up.

“What are you doing?” She asked him as he held her in his arms and walked over to the open door and closed it as he let her feet touch the ground.

“This.” He simply said as he kissed her again and grabbed her by the waist and lifted her up. She wrapped her feet around him as he held her against the door. Her hands were on his shoulders as he entered her. He deepened the kiss as he moved slowly in and out of her. One of his hands went to her clit as and messaged it as he began to quicken the pace. She moaned into his mouth as he felt the beginnings of her orgasm Which was followed by his own. Moans and groans filled the room as both came one after another. They had moved to the bed hours later as they continued to make up for last time. After that was done they laid in each others arms as the rested.

“Since we don’t have to go to work tomorrow, Can we stay in bed?” Pacey said as looked down at her. A smile crossed her face as she lifted her head off of his chest so she could look him in the eyes.

“Why would you have to ask such a stupid question?” She said as he smiled back at her. Thirty minutes later they were fast asleep in each other arms as what ever was left of the night flew by.

Part Three

Hidden things

Joey sat at her desk, counting down the minutes until her shift was over. She stared blankly at her computer screen as People left and right passed her. Her thoughts on Pacey as she looked back and forth from the screen to her watch. Out of the blue a little message box appeared on her screen.

“What the-” She took one look at the name that showed up and new exactly who it was. As fast as her fingers could type she wrote back .

‘What do you want?’ She asked as she waited for them to write back .

‘I just wanted to know why you seem to want to get out of here... Is that a crime?’ She read as she looked around for the person. She caught a glimpse of them at the far end of the room.

‘I guess not. I just hate working here, right now at this moment. Now is that a crime?’ She asked as she pressed the enter key and looked over at the person. She saw them read her message and then type as fast as they could. Soon enough a message appeared once again on her screen.

‘Welcome to my world. So Why do you NOT want to be here? Usually you are dying to stay here later then when your shift ends, but now you want to leave before it ends. Why do you want to leave Joey? What’s waiting for you when you get home, or shall I say who?’ Joey read as a smile along with a light blush came to her face. Suddenly another message came to her screen.

‘I was right, there is a some one. So who is *He*? You have to tell me!’ She read as she started to type another message back to her.

‘Well, Jen if you must know it’s well... It Pacey.’ Joey wrote as she read it before she sent it to Jen. She looked over to her and saw a shocked expression then a sly smile come over her face.

‘Well I should of guessed it would be him. I mean of all people Why would I think it would be another guy. You’ve been in love with him for ages. It’s about time you two hooked up. So tell me - How did it happen? I must know!’ Joey read as another blush came to her face as she recalled that night where Pacey and her made love for the first time. She wrote down almost all the details, but left out the parts she felt only Pacey and her should know.

‘OMG! You did it already?! Joey Potter I never knew you had it in you! Oh sh!t... The boss is coming. I gotta go. Looks like you can leave now. Tell Pace I said hi! Bye!’ And with that Jen was gone from her screen and back to work as Joey looked back to her watch and gathered her things.



Joey entered Pacey’s and her apartment to find it completely quite and still. From the looks of it, it seemed like there was no life in sight besides herself. ‘Just great. The day I finally get home on time this place is empty. I though Pacey got off of work before I did? Oh wait, usually I’m home much later then this. No wonder.’ Joey thought as she placed her things on the kitchen counter. Just as she was about to leave the room the blinking of a light caught her eye. She pressed play on the answering machine. The tape rewound and the began to play. His voice filled the room as she listened to his message.

“Jo, I’ll be home late. I have some things to do so Keep the bed warm... All my love, Pacey”

Joey played the tape over and over, memorizing his voice until she could place it any where. Then she walked over to the cd player and pressed the ON button and then pressed PLAY. The Corrs began to play into the silence as Joey waited for Pacey to get home.

Go on go on
Leave me breathless
Come on
Hey... yeah...

The daylight's fading slowly
but time with you is standing still
I'm waiting for you only
The slightest touch and I feel weak

I cannot lie, from you I cannot hide
And I'm losing the will to try
Can't hide it (can't hide it), can't fight it (can't fight it)

So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny
This loving feeling (loving feeling)
Make me long for your kiss
Go on (go on), go on (go on)
Yeah...
Come on
Yeah...

And if there's no tomorrow
And all we have is here and now
I'm happy just to have you
You're all the love I need somehow

It's like a dream
Although I'm not asleep
And I never want to wake up
Don't lose it (don't lose it), don't leave it (don't leave it)

So go on, go on, come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny
This loving feeling (loving feeling)
Make me long for your kiss
Go on (go on), go on (go on)
Yeah...
Come on

Yeah-ie, yeah, yeah-ie, yeah...
And I can't lie
From you I cannot hide
And I've lost my will to try
Can't hide it (can't hide it), can't fight it, (can't fight it)

So go on, (go on) go on, (go on), come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me, until I can't deny
This loving feeling (loving feeling) Make me long for your kiss
Go on, (go on) go on, (go on) come on, leave... me breathless

That song filled the apartment as the night went on. Joey looked at the clock as she began to worry about why Pacey wasn’t home yet. Fear over came her until she heard his keys open the lock on the door. As soon as that door had open she was standing in front of him with her hands on her hips.

“Where have you been? I’ve been worried sick about you!” She yelled at him as he closed the door behind himself.

“Well, This isn’t exactly how I imagined coming home.” He said as he removed his shoes and placed his coat in the closet by the door.

“I’m sorry if fear has been in my blood as the hours went by. You said You’d be home late, not this late.” She said as she pushed the tears that had been threatening to fall all night away.

“Come here.” He said as he walked half way towards her and opened his arms. She reluctantly took a step towards him as his arms came around her. All the fear that had been within her washed away as he kissed the top of her head. The feeling of his touch, his kiss made her feel weak and she couldn’t fight the anger she had inside any more.

“What things did you have to do any way?” She asked in a calmer voice then she had when he had walked in. A small smile came to his lips as he spoke.

“Things.” Was all he said as his lips came to hers. She pulled away from him before he could deepen the kiss.

“What things?” She said as her face became serious. His eyes looked into her own as she waited for an answer. Silence filled the room as she stood, still in his arms as her eyes searched for the answer, yet couldn’t find one until he spoke.

“It’s a surprise.” He said as he lifted her up into his arms and walked more into the living room and placed her on the sofa.

“A surprise, eh? I already don’t like the sound of that.” She said as he took a seat next to her.

“And I thought I told you to keep the bed warm?” Pacey placed his arm around her shoulders as he pulled her close to him.

“I did, for an hour.” She said as she snuggled closer to him.

“How about this. Next time when I say I’m going to be here later then usual, I’ll phone when I’m about to leave. This way maybe,” He placed a small kiss on her forehead. “I’ll get the welcome home from a long day of work greeting I was hoping for.”She smiled a little as he held her in his arms.

“Maybe.” She said as she could feel sleep over coming her. Before she knew it, She was fast a sleep in his arms as he watched her.

“Sweet dreams Jo.” Pacey said as he turned the TV on, on low and looked down at the angel in his arms.


Pacey carried the sleeping Joey to his bedroom that they now shared. He placed her on her side of the bad when the phone rang. He quickly picked it up before it woke her up.

“Hello?” He said in a low voice.

“Is this Pacey Witter?” A woman’s voice asked as Pacey quickly walked out of the room and shut the door.

“Yes this is.” He said as he walked over to the dark window.

“I have your order in now. When are you going to come by and pick it up?” She said as Pacey smiled. He knew exactly when he was going to come by and pick it up.

“How about when you guys open in the morning. It’s kind of late you do realize.” He said as he admired the half moon from a far.

“Alright. I’m sorry for phoning so late, you did say to phone when it comes. I thought you-”

“Just don’t worry about it. I’ll come by in the morning to pick it up. Bye.” And with that he pressed the END button on the phone and placed on the table by the window.

“She’s going to love it when I give it to her.” He said as he tried to imagine her face when he’d give her it. Would there be tears? Would she say-

“Who was on the phone?” Joey said as she entered the room in a robe.

“Oh nothing for you to worry about.” He said as he came closer to her and wrapped his arms around her.

“Oh really?” She said as she placed a simple kiss in his lips.

“Really.” He said as he kissed her deeply. He heard a soft moan come from the back of her throat as his tongue entered her mouth. Before he could add more depth in the kiss she pulled back.

“So What’s this surprise that you won’t tell me about?” she asked him as his hands rubbed the lower part of her back.

“Oh you’ll just have to wait and see, Potter.” He said as his lips came to hers. She pulled away yet again.

“Can’t you give me a little hint?” She said in a pleading voice.

“Nope. Anything I say about it will only cause you to want to hear more and more until you realize what it is.” He said as his lips started to head towards hers. She stopped him again.

“Well, if you tell me one thing I won’t ask about it.” She said as his lips came to her ear instead of her lips. He kissed the sensitive skin behind her ear before he spoke.

“I’m not going to say anything. I want it to be a surprise so stop asking will ya?” He said as he kissed her cheek.

“Well tell me this then, Is it good or bad?” She said before his lips came to hers.

“I’m not going to say anything.” He said as his lips brushed against hers.

“Oh, you’re no help.”Joey said as he kissed her yet again.

“I’ll tell you this much though. You’ll love it a lot.” His eyes found hers as a smile came to his lips.

“Then I take it that this surprise is a good thing then.”

“You better believe it.”He kissed her again as he took her in his arms. He carried her to the bed and held her in his arms as they laid side by side.

“Pacey?”

“Yeah?” He said as he looked at her. His eyes memorizing every detail of her face so he could sleep peacefully.

“Can you promise me something?”

“Anything.” His eyes found hers as she turned her head towards his.

“Promise me you’ll never leave me.”She said as he could feel a lump in his throat begin.

“I promise that I’ll never leave you,” He said as a tear fell from her eyes. “Never.” Her lips found his and before they knew it they were both naked. Pacey’s hands explored her body as his lips remained on hers.

“Make love to me Pacey.” Joey said between kisses as Pacey’s hands came to her waist. His eyes found hers as he reached for a condom. He opened the package as fast as he could, knowing that he wouldn’t be able to hold on for much longer. She helped him Place the protection on himself before he entered her. His pace was slow as his lips found hers. They kissed as their hands came together. Moans and groans filled the air before the climax of the night came to them over time. They called out each other’s names as their bodies became one as well as their hearts. Later He held Joey in his arms as sleep started to fill the air.

“I love Jo.” He said as he held her in his arms.

“I love you too.” She said back to him before they fell into a deep sleep filled with wild dreams of both of them together, as one.

Part Four

The cute times

Joey woke up to find Pacey's side of the bed empty. Her heart began to race as she wondered where he would of gone to. Before she had a chance to look around the apartment she found a note on her night stand.

Joey, I have gone out and should be back soon. Don’t worry! With all my love, Pacey. PS. There’s breakfast waiting for you in the kitchen. Joey smiled as she read the last thing Pacey had said. He was always looking out for her. If only she would of said something sooner about the way she had felt they wouldn’t have had to wait so long to be together, But she was glad that they were now finally after all these years in love with each other. She got up and took a shower, got ready for the day before sitting down to eat what ever he had cooked for her.

She entered the kitchen to see a red rose sitting in a vase, in front of it a muffin and probably now cold coffee. She walked over to the table and leaned forward to smell the rose, after she grabbed the cold coffee and walked over to the microwave to warm it up. Before she knew it an hour had passed and still Pacey was no where to be seen.

“Sure he tells me not to worry when He’s late like this.” She told herself as she sat down on the couch in the living room and turned on the TV. Flipping through the channels she noticed that there was nothing on. That left her one choice as she turned the TV off and let out a sigh. She didn’t hear the door open and Pacey come rushing in, hiding something behind his back. He quickly Hid it in the spare room and then walked out quietly. He opened the door and shut it again this time getting Joey’s attention. She turned around and saw him taking off his shoes.

“Well, how could this be? This can’t be my boyfriend.” She said as she got up from the couch and walked towards him.

“And why is that?” He said with a smile as he met her halfway.

“Because he said he’d be home soon, like an hour ago. So then you must be?” She said as she extended her hand towards him. He took her hand and pulled her towards himself, then leaned his head towards hers.

“Would your boyfriend get mad if I kissed you?” He said before he placed his lips on hers. The kiss was short but sweet and smoothing at the same time.

“So was that the greeting you were hoping for last night?” She said as he let go of her and walked into the kitchen.

“Well there was something else but that could wait for later.” He said as he walked out of the kitchen holding an apple in his hand. She gave him a smile before walking to the CD player and pressing PLAY.

“Pacey, there’s something we haven’t done yet, I mean we did back in high school but that was before us.” She said as she walked over to him. He took a bit out of his apple before speaking to her.

“And what haven’t was done yet, Potter?” He said as she took the apple away from him and placed it down on the coffee table. A slow song began to play in the back round.

“This.” She said as she took his hands and wrapped them around her waist. Then she placed her hands on his shoulders, closing the gap between them.

You're only just a dreamboat
Sailing in my head
You swim my secret oceans
Of coral blue and red
Your smell is incense burning
Your touch is silken yet

It reaches through my skin
And moving from within
It clutches at my breast

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

And when I wake from slumber
Your shadow's disappear
Your breath is just a sea mist
Surrounding my body
I'm workin' through the daytime
But when it's time to rest

I'm lying in my bed
Listening to my breath
Falling from the edge

But it's only when I sleep
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

It's only when I sleep
Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High

In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High

It's reaching through my skin
Movin' from within
Clutches at my breasts

But it's only when I sleep....
See you in my dreams
You got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But I only hear you breathe
Somewhere in my sleep
Got me spinning round and round
Turning upside-down
But its only when I sleep

Up to the sky
Where angels fly
I'll never die
Hawaiian High

In bed I lie
No need to cry
My sleeping cry
Hawaiian High.

As the slow song came to an end Pacey and Joey still swayed to the silence.

“Potter the dancing we did in high school was nothing compared to this.” Pacey said into her ear as his hands came to her hair, her face.

“Well Back then I had the impression that you hated my guts.” Joey said as her eyes came to his.

“You couldn’t of been more wrong.” His face was serious but his words were what hit her heart the most.

“Yeah well There were a lot of things we didn’t seem to know about each other then.” The beginning of tears threatened to form in her eyes as she stared into his.

“I do now Jo. That’s what counts. I love you with all of my heart and even more. I’m actually glad that we know now instead of then.” For some reason His words hit something inside of her.

“Are you saying that all these years that The whole time we’ve spent together - No matter how bad of times that you are glad for them? You don’t wish that if only we would of said something sooner that we could of been more happier then?” Visible tears came into her eyes that stung and she was sure he could see them.

“I didn’t mean for it that way and you know that Jo. You know how I feel about you and you know me-“

”Do I really Pacey? I mean has anything actually changed between us other then that we share the same bed and kiss? When did you ever take me to diner and flaunt me around in the streets here? It seems like we spend most of our time in bed other then talk and go out.” Anger began to rise inside of Joey. Tears slipped from their prison as she whipped them away.

“Funny that you should bring up the term ‘Go Out’.” Pacey said as he came to her side and a smile came to his lips. Confusion washed over Her face as she looked at his.

“Funny? Why is that Funny?”

“Well Let’s just say that ‘The Surprise’ I’ve been working on kind of involves you putting on a nice looking dress that you know would drive me wild all night and eating food that costs way to much for our well deserved cash that we have lying in our pockets to be spent on.” The smile that was still plastered on his lips seemed to come to hers.

“You did didn’t you?” She said as her hands came around his waist, causing him to be pulled closer to her then he already was.

“Aren’t you supposed to be mad at me, because if you are why do I see a smile on your lips?”

“That was then, this is now-”

”What’s now? All I said is that you have to get dressed up. I didn’t say anything about going out-”

“I know you Pacey-”

“Weren’t you just asking me if you do know me?”

“Would you stop playing around and tell me where we are going tonight?” Her lips came to his for a brief kiss.

“Like I said, It’s a Surprise.” His lips reached hers again, this time his mouth stayed on hers longer then the kiss before. His tongue entered her willing mouth, searching for hers.

“Can’t I have a little clue?” She said in between kisses.

“Nope.”

“Why not?” Her hands ran through his hair as her lips left his and came to his neck.

“This isn’t playing fair.”

“Who said I was playing?” Her tongue drew circles behind his ear as her breath washed over his neck.

“How long do you take to get ready again - One hour, two, Three the most?” A soft moan came at the end of the sentence as one of her hands ran down his chest.

“Why do you ask?” She said in a seductive voice that she knew drove his wild.

“Because we have to be out of here in three hours.” His hands came to her waist and pulled her closer to him self. This was the exact time she decided to stop what she was doing. She could feel how hot and bothered she had gotten him which made her feel more like continuing her game. But she resisted for his sake, after all he was taking her out to show her how he felt towards her, which she already knew. Only this time other people would be able to see it.

“Well then I guess I should go get ready then.” With that she removed herself from him and started to make her way to their bedroom.

“Hey wait a minute - You’re not getting away with this!” He ran after her as she rushed off into their bedroom, laughing all the way. He didn’t reach her in time as she closed the door behind herself and locked it.

“You said I have to get ready for our date.”

“But don’t we have enough time for a quicky?” She heard the tone in his voice that drove her wild, so she placed her hand on the door knob. She held her hand their thinking for a second before making her choice.

“Well, are we going to a fancy restaurant?” Her hand stayed still on the knob as she awaited for his answer.

“Maybe.” A big smile came to her lips, as she imagined having expensive wine in a fancy place with the love of her life. Holding hands with him, dancing with him, kissing Pacey in front of people who hardly knew them but could see how much they really, truly loved each other. She wanted to look her best for this night and decided that he could wait until later. It would feel more magical if they waited.

“Nope We don’t have time sorry.” And with that she walked over to the closet looking for the perfect dress that would drive him wild for the rest of the night.

Part Five

Interruptions

Pacey, Holding Joey’s hand felt some what nervous. ‘This is it. This is where I make her and myself happy for the rest of our lives....’ He turned his eyes, his face towards her and smiled. All the stars in the night sky couldn’t compare to the sparkles he saw in her eyes. ‘Just keep smiling Witter...’ He thought as his eyes left hers and looked forward to where they were walking to. The more they walked the more closer they reached fate.

“Pacey, are we -”

“Yup, we’re eating here.” He brought himself to say as they neared the entrance to [Made up restaurant here so bare with me alright?] Irresistible Destiny - The fanciest place to dine as well as the most expensive place in the city.

“How did you get reservations?” Joey said in amazement.

“Let’s just say when you know the right people you can get what you want.” He said as he turned to Joey.

“How much to you bribe-”

“Jo, when I say this It comes from the bottom of my heart alright - You do not want to know.” Pacey said as they neared the front door. ‘My hands must be sweating, How can she not tell how nervous I am?’ He thought as they both opened the doors in front of them and walked into the restaurant, still holding hands. They were greeted by an elderly man wearing a tux as they walked further into Irresistible Destiny.

“Aw Mister Witter, you’re right on time. Your table is ready and everything is set for you and your lovely lady.” He said as he took Joey’s free hand and kissed it. As soon as she had her hand back her lips came to Pacey’s ear.

“I still can’t believe we’re here.” She said in aw as the waiter lead them to their table for two. The waiter helped Joey get into her seat and then placed two menus on their table. Pacey took his seat as his eyes never left her face. ‘God she’s beautiful in this light - Wait what Am I saying? She’s always beautiful in any light. It’s got to be my nerves. I wonder if she suspects a thing?’

“Would you like me to tell you the specials for this evening or would you like me to let you take your time in ordering your food for this evening?” The waiter said as Joey took one of the menus and opened it up. Pacey still had his eyes on her before he realized that the waiter had spoken.

“Oh um, How about you let us take out time - If that’s all right.” Pacey said as he tried to hide how he was feeling at that moment. ‘I have to do this! I have to stay calm. Breath in, Breath out - That’s all it takes Witter.’ He thought as his eyes went back to Joey. The way her hair was done up - All curly and away from her face made his heart beat faster. Her dress was such a Nice touch for this evening - It was a deep shade of red with Flowers here and there, The cut on the side traveled up to her mid calf and stopped which drove him wild not knowing what her skin looked like underneath. Everything about the way she looked tonight was causing him to forget what he had brought her here to do, but each time he placed his hands by his side a simple reminder told him. He was here to -

“So What do you think I should have first -”

“Anything that your heart desires.” Were the words that came from his mouth as his eyes gazed into hers. She gave him her half smile as she leaned towards him.

“But If I did have what my heart desires now then we shouldn’t have come her. All I really want to do is make love to you,” She said as he felt the butterflies in his stomach start to double. ‘Did she say that she doesn’t want to be here? No, Of course she wants to be here - She’s just pulling my chain once again. I’m going to get her back for that stunt she pulled back at home-’ “You know you still haven’t touched the other menu, Aren’t you Hungry?” Pacey swallowed hard as he looked away from her eyes. ‘Just keep your cool Witter. Just keep your cool...’

“Of course I’m hungry - Just not for what they have here. I mean how’s a guy supposed to eat when his women dresses up like that? Did I mention how beautiful you look tonight - Because you are so beautiful that I still can’t believe you’re here, with me.” He said as his eyes came back to hers. He caught the slight color change in her cheeks before she spoke.

“Yes you told me How beautiful I look - Remember? You told me when I came out of the bathroom, When we left the apartment, When we came to your car, and when we were in the car - Do you still want me to go on? And don’t get me started on that other comment you made about ‘other things’ you’d like to be eating. It’s not going to get you anywhere. At least not here and now that is.” She said as her eyes went back to her menu. He was now aware of his hands shaking as he reached for the other menu that laid in front of her on their table. He wasn’t sure how mush longer he’d be able to hide how he was feeling at that moment, but He was going to try his best. He always tried his best for her.

“So, Have you decided on what you’re going to have tonight?” He asked as he tried to act causal. He scanned through all the foods that were written in fancy writing as she started to speak.

“Well, No. I’m not actually feeling that much hungry at the moment. How about we just order our drinks for now and then if we get hungry later we could order something then.” She said as she placed the menu down in front of herself and reached for the wine menu. He looked at her hands and tried to imagine what his surprise would look like on her hand. Had he picked the perfect one? Will she like it? All of these questions ran through his mind as he forgot about the menu in his hands and watched her.

“What?” She said snapping him out of the world he was just in.

“Oh, nothing. It’s just-”

“Don’t you dare say it again. I’ve heard it so many times in one hour alone that I’m sure that my face will permanently stay that deep shade of red next time I hear it.” She said to him before he could finish his sentence. She knew him to well.

“Okay fine. I won’t say how beautiful you look tonight that I some how can’t believe I’m here. With you.” He said knowing fully well how she’d react to what he had just said. A smirk came to his face as he noticed her skin start to change to a shade of red.

“You said it.” Was all she said making him let a little laugh come from his lips.

“You’d still look beautiful if your face stayed like that you know?” He said suddenly sounding serious. She looked up from the wine menu in her hands and looked deeply into his eyes.

“Thank you.” Was all she said before she looked back to the choices of wine. He sighed as he watched her choose between the many different types of expensive wine. ‘God How did I get so lucky?’ He thought as he watched her read. Her eyes left the menu and came to his once again.

“What? Do I have something on my-”

“No, No you don’t have anything on your face other then this.” He leaned forward and his lips came to hers. It was short yet full of all the passion and love that they both shared for each other. If it was his choice the kiss would of gone on forever but a slight and unwelcome intrusion came into the picture they were creating.

“Sorry to intrude Mr. Witter but There is a phone call for you.” The waiter said as Pacey’s Eyes opened and his lips left hers.

“Is it important?” He asked as one of his hands found Joey’s and came over it. His eyes focused on her.

“I believe so sir.” He said as Pacey let go of Joey’s hand and began to get up.

“I’ll be right back, okay Potter?” He said as he pushed his chair into place. His eyes never leaving hers as he waited for her to answer.

“Okay,” He turned to leave. “But Witter?” She said as he turned back to face her.

“What?” He asked innocently.

“Be back soon. I want to have a dance with you.” She said as her eyes found his.

“Don’t worry. I plan on being back soon.”

Part Six

People from the Past

“Okay run that by me once again.” Pacey said for the second time as he sat at the bar with the phone to his ear.

“I said,” The guys voice said loudly causing Pacey to take the phone away from his ear. “That I don’t know what to do. I mean There’s Ethan but then there’s - ”

“I know that part already but what about that other part. And could you please hurry up - I’m trying to have a-”

“Your out on a date with who?” The guy said causing Pacey to get more nervous then he was before.

“Oh just some one. It doesn’t-”

“Oh it matters. I mean The fact that you won’t tell me speaks volumes Pace. So Who is she?” The guy on the other end of the phone asked making Pacey turn to Joey and watch as she sipped her white wine and go back to looking off of the menu in her hands.

“Okay, she’s somebody. She could be the one.” He said as he watched in aw as Joey placed the menu back down onto the table and look over to where he was.

“Okay so she could be the one... Who is she? What’s her name? Could I know-”

“Oh she is the one Dawson. She is definitely the one.” Pacey said as he focused on Joey’s dark eyes that were on his.

“Okay so she is the one, But who is she? What’s her na-”

“It’s Joey Dawson. Joey Potter.” Pacey said in one long breath and then let a sigh escape his lips as She went back to looking over her menu.

“Joey? When did this happen?” Dawson asked as Pacey kept his eyes on his true love.

“About a month ago. I came home from work one day and-”

“Okay Pace. I don’t want to know the details, all right? I just phoned you for some advice, that’s all.”

“And why me? I mean I’ve never been gay so I wouldn’t be able to help you D. Not in a million years unless you came back to-”

“Okay, Okay I get it. Just tell me this: Who do I choose?” Dawson asked as Pacey continued to watch Joey.

“Your heart. Choose who you truly love and you’ll be happy.” Pacey said as he placed his free hand over his pocket. ‘I just hope Joey believes I’m the one for her...’

“Well, I never expected that.” Dawson said as Pacey jumped back into reality.

“Never expected what?” Pacey asked feeling a little uneasy.

“That you’d actually have good advice.” Dawson let a little laugh out that made Pacey laugh as well.

“Well, What can I say - I’ve changed.”

“I can see that. So Why are you and Jo dining at the most expensive place in the city for? Something special?” Dawson asked as Pacey started to smile.

“Very special.”

“And that would be?”

“Well, let’s just say Since I know she’s the one, I’m not going to let her get away from me.” Pacey still had his eyes on Joey as she turned back to him.

“Oh I see the ‘M’ word. Am I right?” Dawson asked as another laugh came from him.

“Well, you’ll just have to wait and see now won’t you?” Pacey said as his hand came back to his pocket. “Hey, how did you find me and Joey any way?” Pacey asked as he looked deeply into Joey’s eyes.

“I phoned Jen and she said that Joey said you were taking her out to some place ‘Fancy’ So I phoned ever place I thought you’d be-”

“Wait, you knew then about Joey and I then?” Pacey asked as he jumped in surprise.

“Well, Jen said not to say anything...”

“Okay, both you and her are off the hook then. Any ways Can I let you go? I want to go back to-”

“Well since I got the advice I asked for I guess. Just remember one thing Pacey.”

“And what would that be?” Pacey said as he got ready to hang up the phone and get back to Joey.

“If you hurt her not only will I be on your back but I’ll make sure-”

“That your boyfriend is too, I get it. Don’t worry D. I would never hurt her. Never.”

Part Seven

Putting actions and words into one

“So who was that?” Joey asked as Pacey took his seat at their table.

“Oh just Dawson asking me for some advice about his gay life.” He said in a matter of fact tone.

“I should of known.” Joey said as she looked from her menu to Pacey. Every look she took of him made her heart melt even more. ‘Oh how I love him so...’ Joey thought as she watched him read his menu.

“Gee, everything on this thing is worth more then an arm and a leg. What are you going to have?” Pacey asked her as his eyes left his menu and looked into hers. She bit on her lower lip as she looked back to her menu.

“I don’t know Pacey, I mean everything here is so expensive that I think I’ll just stick with my wine.”

“And drink with an empty stomach, I don’t think so. Plus I’m starting to think that, that drink you have in your hand will be your last.” Pacey said as he reached for his wine and took a sip of it.

“Since when do you control me?” She asked as she placed her wine glass back onto the table. She watched his hand place his wine glass onto the table and noticed he was shaking ever so slightly. ‘He’s nervous about something, But what?’ She thought as she looked back to his eyes.

“Since I became your boyfriend.” Pacey said as his eyes came to hers.

“Oh you my boyfriend? Your just my love slave that pays for me and then pleasures me.” She said sarcastically. But the effect she thought it would have on him was different.

“Joey can I ask you something?” He said seriously. Suddenly butterflies started to double one by one in her stomach as she looked from her menu and then to his eyes.

“Sure.” She said before biting on her lower lip.

“When you say those things they are just jokes right? I mean you do love me right?”Pacey asked as Joey’s eyes suddenly started to widen in shock.

“Why would you ask such a thing? Of course I love you Pace. With all of my heart and soul.” She said as she reached for his hand that was now resting on the table. Pacey let a sigh of relief out as he also let a little laugh come from his lips.

“I just thought for a second that-”

“Pacey, never doubt the way I feel for you okay?” She said as she pulled Pacey’s hand towards her chest. She placed his hand palm down above her left breast. “You feel that Pace?” She asked him as her eyes stayed on his.

“Yeah, I feel it.” He said as she went to continue on.

“If you ever doubt me just place your hand here and all will be well. I promise.” She said suddenly feeling the sting of tears in her eyes.

“Come here.” He said as he used his free hand and patted his lap.

“I have a better idea.” She said as she placed her hand over his and stood up, causing him to do the same. She removed his hand from her chest and place it with in her own hand. Then they walked hand in hand towards the dance floor. They reached the middle of the floor before he wrapped her in his arms. It took all that she had in her to keep the tears inside as they swayed back and forth to the beat of “It’s your love” By Faith hill and Tim McGraw.

“I love you so much Potter. So much.” Pacey said into her ear as he held her closer.

“I love you too Pace. With all of my heart.”

Part Eight

The moment that Defines Who We Really Are Pt. 1

“Here’s your salad Ms. Potter,” The waiter said as he placed a caesar salad down in front of her. He then reach behind himself and pulled out another plate with the same thing on it. “And yours as well Mr. Witter.”

“Thank you.” Joey said as she took a fork from the napkin that was next to her plate.

“Well, Isn’t this nice.” Pacey stated as he pocked at the salad. ‘God how can I eat this when I’m so nervous?’ Pacey thought as he looked from his plate to Joey. He watched as she slowly pocked at some lettuce on her plate and then brought it to her mouth. ‘I can do this. I have to do this if I want to have her in my life for-’

“This is so good...” Joey said as she placed her fork on her plate.

“But?” Pacey asked feeling as if she wasn’t done her sentence.

“But, I can’t eat this. I’m just to excited to be here - With you.” She said as a small smile came to her lips and her cheeks started to turn a light shade of red.

“Just excited?” Pacey asked in mock hurt. His nervousness subsiding a little.

“Okay how about -”

“Joey you don’t have to tell me. I know how happy you are to be here. You’re just as happy as I am.” His eyes were locked with hers after he finished his sentence. He could see all the love and all the caring in her eyes as he looked deep within them. ‘Oh god, I love her so much...’

“Pacey every second you some how manage to surprise me.” Joey stated as she leaned forward and brought her lips to his for a short, sweet kiss.

“Ah, well That’s a good thing - Right?” He asked feeling nervous all over again.

“Always.” She went back to eating her salad as he placed his hands in his pocket where her surprise was. ‘Well, it’s now or never right?’ He was about to bring it out of his pocket when Joey suddenly got up.

“Pacey, I’m just going to go to the bathroom. I’ll be right back - Okay?” She said. This caused him to freeze in his spot.

“Are you feeling okay? The Wine isn’t getting to you is it?” He asked feeling worried for her.

“Pacey what’s with the 20 questions? I’m feeling fine. I just have to use the,” She lowered her voice. “You know.”

“Oh okay.” He felt so relieved. But not as relieved as he hope he’d be already.

“Are you feeling okay?” She asked him as he breathed a sigh of relief.

“Yeah. I’m just - I’m fine. Just go do your thing - you know where I’ll be,” She gave him this look before she left for the bathroom that Pacey was sure Meant that she knew something was up. Only he knew she really didn’t know what he had planned. His hand went to his pocket where the Ring was and he knew that as soon as they finished their meal he was going to ask her. He couldn’t let her get away from him - He had waited for her far to long to let her get away from him. Minutes passed which turned into an hour. Their meal had come to an end which caused Pacey to become more nervous by the second.

“Okay Pacey - What’s wrong?” Joey had asked him causing him to place his hand into his pocket.

“Funny you should ask that,” He stated with a little laugh before he went on. “We’ve been in love with each other how long? A month? And we’ve been secretly pining for one another for what six years- right?” He asked her as he began to pull out the box which the ring was in slowly.

“Yeah - What are you getting at?” She asked as she took a sip of her wine.

“Well I know how you’ve been wanting to take our relationship to the next level and To tell you the truth - I’ve been wanting to ever since we first made love or even before then.”

“Before then? Um Pacey Before we made love for the first time we weren’t even going out.” Joey stated as she gave him a weird look then smiled.

“Well you know what I mean. Any way What I’m getting at is - is,” ‘Oh, why is this so hard? I just have to come out and say it. Just ask her to marry you already.’ “Well I don’t want you to ever leave me, And I want to be with you always. I’m so in love with you Joey that I can’t sleep in fear that this is all a dream. You make me bring out the best in my self that no one has ever been able to do. So what I’m getting at is,” ‘Okay here it comes - you can do this.’

“Is what Pacey?” Joey asked as she leaned a little more forward in her chair. He then pulled out the box and opened it up for her to see.

“Will you spend the rest of you life with me - In marriage? Will you Marry me?”

The moment that Defines Who We Really Are Pt. 2

Joey looked from Pacey's eyes to the ring in that box which was in his hand. ‘I don’t know what to do...’ She thought as her eyes left everything that just had her focus before and went straight to the doors. ‘I love him so much but, this is way to soon... But I love him.’ Tears
entered her eyes but couldn’t fall, wouldn’t fall. Everything after that moment became a blur for her. All she knew was that Some how she had managed to run out of the restaurant, call a cab, went to their apartment and packed her things. She had left a note to where she was going to go
but also told him she needed some time to think. Problem is though All along all she could think about was why she hadn’t of said yes.

Bags in hand she walked up flights of stairs until she reached her destination. She knocked three times and tried to keep the flowing tears to a minimum. After a long minute or so the door open.

“Joey - what’s wrong?”

“I don’t want to talk about it. I just... I need a place to stay Dawson. Do you mind if I crashed here until I found a place of my own or at least thought some things through?” She said as more tears smeared her eye liner and her mascara. Dawson looked at her with those caring eyes of his and opened his door wider.

“Sure Joey, you can stay here as long as you want.” With no questions asked, he walked towards her and placed his hands on some of her bags which seemed to be plastered to her hands for dear life.

“Thanks Dawson.” She said as she let him take some of her bags. She walked into his place and the next thing she knew Three long and horrid days had gone by. In those three days Pacey never called once.

Pacey still couldn’t believe what had happened as he replayed the worst moment of his life over and over in his head. Joey Potter - the girl who claimed to love him so had ran out on him when he had asked the question he thought for sure she would of said yes to. The fact is though she said nothing at all. ‘I don’t know which is worse - her saying nothing and running out on me or if she had said no.’ He thought as he held a picture of the two of them in his hands.

Both of their smiles were full of love, Joy and happiness. Shock was still running though his blood, through his body as he stared silently at that one picture of them locked in a warm embrace. It was this moment that finally made him realize that not only had he lost the love of his life, he never even made a run for her as she had left him sitting at their table holding the expensive ring in his hand that he had picked out - for her.

The tears which should of fell when he had read her note saying she was staying at Dawson’s place suddenly fell. They fell as sob after sob escaped his lips. The tears which he thought would never ever be caused by Joey fell freely and landed on the one thing he could never let go of. The picture which now held one of many happy moments with her. The moments that would plague his mind forever.

Joey Potter had run out on him with no explanation at all. She had ran like her life depended on it. Now he sat there with his heart melting away as the tears caused by her fell from his eyes that had looked and loved her with everything he had.

Part Nine

Love Hurts

Joey sat up in her new found bed. Her eyes still red and swollen from crying day and night. Her sleep wasn’t that good since the day she had ran out on Pacey. Every time she closed her eyes she could still see Pacey sitting in front of her holding that beautiful ring and asking her to marry him. ‘Why didn’t I say yes?’ Was all she could think about now.

She got up out of bed and searched for her white robe which was probably scattered somewhere on the floor. Usually she was a neat and tidy person but lately she had found no need to clean. No need to live. No need to breathe. Finding her robe on the other side of her room she placed it on her self the best she could and head to the kitchen in Dawson’s apartment. She had expected him to be gone to work today but when she neared the kitchen table there he was, a cup of coffee in front of him and the paper in hand.

“Dawson, Why aren’t you at work?” She asked as she walked towards the counter where the coffee pot was.

“Um, Joey it’s Saturday.” He stated as he watched her pour herself a nice warm cup of black coffee. She should of known that it was the weekend now but Her heart still wanted to believe it was the same day she had ran away from the love of her life.

“Oh.” Was all that came from her before she took a long sip from her coffee. She took a seat in front of Dawson at the table and continued to do what she usually did now a days. She stared off into space and tried to imagine her self saying yes to what Pacey had asked. The thing was though Every time she tried the same thing replayed in her mind, Her running away from him with out saying a single word. Dawson still had no clue why she had appeared at his door so late in the night that night but still had the decency to keep his mouth shut. That is until now.

“Joey can I ask you something?” Dawson said into the silence. Where ever her mind was at that moment came back to the reality she was in. The reality she had placed her self in.

“Depends on what that something is.” She said as she looked to Dawson then to the same spot her eyes where before.

“Why are you here? Did Pacey-” As soon as she had heard him say his name the tears she thought were gone started to well up in her eyes once again. Dawson had stopped what he was going to say after he had mentioned a single name and saw the tears in her eyes. Joey managed to swallow some of her sorrows done with a single sip of her coffee then finally decided she had to get it out of her system.

“Pacey asked me to marry him.” She stated as a tear made it’s way down her cheek. Dawson just stared at her like he knew that was coming but just didn’t understand why she was there in his apartment.

“And you said?” He asked as she whipped away the tears from her eyes.

“I said nothing Dawson. I actually got up, left the restaurant while Pacey sat there with this beautiful ring in his had that he must of picked out for me and only me. I ran out on him and went right to the apartment we shared and packed my things. I left him a note that I was coming here to stay here and think things through but the more I think the more I wonder.” Tears had managed to cover her face but some how she managed to keep the deafening sobs inside of her self.

“Wonder what exactly?”

“Why. I wonder why I had said nothing when all along I wanted to say yes. I wonder why I had ran out on him and ran here to you of all people. I mean I could of ran to Jen with this but for some reason you popped into my head.” She stated as Dawson got up from his chair and rushed to her side to take her in his arms.

“It’s probably because of all those times you slept over. All those times we chose to ignore our problems. You came here Joey to forget about what you had done or what was happening in your life. The thing is though your heart doesn’t want to forget.” With one look in his eyes she knew he was right. For the past four days she was trying to forget about why she had ran away from Pacey. The thing is though the more she wanted to forget the more harder she cried at night.

“I guess the term ‘Love hurts’ Really seems to suit me right now, eh?” She said more as a statement then as a question to Dawson. All he did was laugh a little and hold her in his arms as the tears for the past four days started to relive them selves.

Part Ten

Hope

Pacey sat on the sofa in the living room he used to share with Joey. It had been four days now since he had seen her last and his tears still flowed. His heart still ached with hope that she would call or walk through that door, but his hope was starting to shatter as each second flew by. A sudden knock on the door Caused him to rush to the door with hope. As soon as he opened the door his hope shattered even more.

“Jack, What are you doing here?” He asked as he stepped away from the door and walked back to his spot on the sofa.

“You look like Crap Pace.” Jack said as he walked into the apartment and closed the door behind himself.

“Why shouldn’t I look like this? After all The woman I love left me sitting at a restaurant holding a ring that I had picked out for her and only her with out an answer.” Pacey said as he looked back to the t.v. Jack sat next to Pacey and just looked him over.

“You didn’t even run after her did you?” Jack asked as Pacey Leaned forward and placed his head in to his hands.

“No, I didn’t. I’m starting to regret that though.” Jack patted Pacey on the back and then got up.

“Well, Where is she now?” He asked as he walked into the kitchen and came back into the living room moments later with a glass of cold milk.

“Dawson’s. Jack - you still haven’t told me why you’re here. Why are you here?” Pacey asked as he sat back up and reached for the remote to turn off the t.v.

“Well - you want the truth or something that comes to my mind?” He asked Pacey as he took his seat back on the sofa. Pacey took one look at Jack then to the now blank t.v.

“She asked you to check up on me didn’t she?” Pacey asked as he looked back to Jack waiting for him to speak.

“Which She are we talking about here?”

“Joey?” Pacey asked as he hoped to god it was her.

“More like Jen. Actually She called Jen and then Jen asked me to check up on you. To the sounds of it Joey asked Jen to see how you were doing which turn into me seeing how you were.” Jack stated as he took another sip of his milk. ‘Close enough...’ Pacey thought as he stood up.

“Where are you going?” Jack asked Pacey as Pacey took off to his room.

“I’m going to go see her - I have to.” Pacey said as he walked back into the living room. What he once was wearing which consisted of Boxer shorts and a white Wife beater top turned into a pair of Blue jeans and a Blue tee - shirt.

“Are you sure you want to do that?” Jack asked as he watched Pacey put his shoes on and go into the closet for a Jacket.

“I Have to. I have to ask her to marry me again - I have to.”Jack now stood to his feet.

“You’re going to ask her again?”

“Like I said Jack - I have to. I need to know if she’s going to say yes or no seeing as she still hasn’t answered it.” Pacey Placed his jacket on harshly and then took one look at Jack.

“Okay fine. Go,” As soon as those words left his mouth Pacey rushed out of his apartment and closed the door behind himself. “I’ll just stay here and wait for the news.”

Part Eleven

True Love

Joey stepped out of the shower and reached for a towel. After she had talked to Dawson about what had happened before she had come to Dawson’s place she started to feel a little better. Hurt still filled her heart as the tears burned her eyes with regret still though as the hours went by.

She missed Pacey. She missed the way he would hold her, talk to her and most of all said ‘I love you’ to her. She also missed waking up beside him in bed and most of all She missed him for being him. She had called Jen to ask how Pacey was doing but she had said she hadn't seen or heard from him since That night. Just hearing that made her heart break a little more.

She wrapped the towel around her self before she reached for another towel to dry her hair. Seconds later she was walking out of the bathroom and heading to the guest room where she stayed. Fate wouldn’t have it though because as soon as she was four feet away from the door a loud knocking came from the main door. She had stopped in her tracks and then made her way to the door. She peaked through the peep hole and was shocked to see who was standing on the other end.

“Joey open up! I have to talk to you-” Joey opened the door forgetting that she was in only a towel.

“Pacey.” Joey said as he looked at her. Her eyes were still red from the tears she had shed and by the look at her physical condition she must have not eaten a thing since he had Last seen her.

“Joey.” Was all that Pacey said as his own eyes started to fill with tears.

“Pacey what are you doing here? I told you I needed time-” Pacey cut her off before she could finish her sentence.

“Marry me? Joey Potter I love you with all of my heart and soul and for these four days that have passed I feel like I’ve been missing part of my life. I’ve been missing you. You are the only reason why I wake up every day and if you don’t say yes-”

“Yes.” Joey said as she looked into his eyes. She had said yes before she had a second to even think about it, But it seemed as though that Pacey hadn’t of heard her.

“If you don’t say yes I think My heart will beak worse then it already has been,” A moment of silence over came them both before Pacey spoke again. “Did you say Yes?” A confused look crossed his face as tears started to fill her eyes. Tears that were full of love and not hurt.

“Yes.”She said again as if That was the only word she wanted to say to him forever. ‘Forever, With Pacey. I want that for as long as I live and more...’

“Yes?” He said in disbelief as that one word started to settle into his mind, into his heart. Tears started to over flow from his eyes as he looked at Joey.

“Yes! Pacey - Yes! I want to marry you. I wanted to since you asked me-”

“If you wanted to then why did you take off with out saying anything to me?” Pacey asked as he took a step closer to her. Joey closed the gap between them as she laid her hands on his arms.

“I was in shock Pacey. I mean I didn’t think I meant that much to you as You meant to me.” Tears flowed freely from her eyes as she looked deeply into his. With her hands still on his arms he placed his hands on her towel covered waist.

“Of course you mean that much to me - I love you Joey Potter and no matter what you try to do to me you can’t get rid of me.” It took Joey a matter of one second to place her hands onto either side of his face and bring her lips to his. His hand wrapped them selves around her body as her towel fell to the ground with out one single care in the world.

“Make love to me Pacey.” Joey said in between passionate kisses as she jumped up into his arms. The arms she wanted to be in for all eternity.

“As you wish my lady.” Pacey said as he carried her to her room in Dawson’s Apartment feeling more secure about his love for Joey and the love he felt in return.

Part Twelve

The Perfect Ending

 

Pacey Carried Joey to her bed gently. It was almost as if he was afraid that if he pushed to hard it would turn back into the nightmare he was recently living. He laid Joey onto her bed with care as he brought his lips to hers. He had caught her bottom lip between his lips leaving it there, cherishing it.

His hand traveled down her arms leaving goose bumps and shivers running down her spine. His touches always did that to her. His hands reached her hands and lightly entwined with his. He brought her hands to his face, kissing each one lightly before Joey Let go and wrapped her hands around his neck.

His lips went to her wrist as he kissed the skin there with care While his hands were still on her hands. His lips left her wrist as his hands made a trail to her shoulders. His lips found the hollow of her neck and placed soft, loving kisses there as Joey kissed the top of his head. Her hands left his neck and came to the front end of his Jacket.

Reluctantly Pacey let go of Joey to remove his Jacket, then his shirt. Now skin to skin Their hearts were as close as they were. Joey bit on her lower lip as Pacey Kissed her cheek, then her jaw line. Their love making was never this good. His hands slowly slid down her arms, down her side until they rested on her waist.

Her hands moved over his arms then to his shoulders as goose bumps rose here and there. When they reached his shoulders they slid down his chest, making his muscles tense up and then relax. Her fingers gazed over his belly button and then rested on the zipper to his pants. She slid the zipper down ever so gently and slowly while keeping her eyes locked with his.

Her fingers left the zipper and began to pull down his pants along with his underwear. His pants slid over the skin of his legs and her fingers occasionally brushed the new patches of skin that were being uncovered. Pacey placed himself at her entrance as soon as all his clothing was discarded.

He looked into her eyes and all the feeling he was feeling right at that moment could be seen. No words could ever speak for what Joey could see in them. His lips came to hers and their bodies became one. He was slow as his hands memorized ever part of her and his ears listened to everything she did. It was this moment he realized he had always been in love with her and that he would always love her...

8 Years Later...

Night had set into the sky more then two hours ago as Joey walked in her house. All was silent as she removed her shoes and coat. She walked into the living room not expecting to see a sight that was worth more to her then her own life.

She neared a couch which had two large feet hanging over the edge. As her eyes moved along the length of the man and two children in his arms her heart began to sting with all the love she could hold. A slight smile formed on her lips as she stared at a sleeping Pacey on his back lying on the couch holding onto Christen, their three year old son and Lily, their seven year old daughter.

She had seen this scenario More times then she could count but each time she came across it she still had to wonder how she got so lucky. She leaned over and kissed Pacey on the lips ever so gently, not expecting a thing in return. His fluttering eye lids went unnoticed to Joey as she pulled away to kiss their children on their foreheads.

All her love was in those kisses she gave. She then stood up straight and walked over to the lazy - boy which had a thick multicolored blanket over it. She removed it from its’ place and walked back to her family. She placed the warm blanket on top of her world Pacey and her had created and stood back from afar to admire what she had come across that late evening.

The End