Telling The Truth
Ramblin Rose
This is the second poem that I’m writing into a story.
Everyone was sitting at Mickey’s that night having a drink. When a
big mouth from Vice said, “Hey, Ellison, what’s up with that partner of yours?”
“If you know what’s good for you, you’ll shut your mouth, Kenner.” Jim said
angrily.
“Oh, the big bad Ellison's going to hurt my partner?” asked Kenner’s partner,
Lincoln.
Jim stared at both men with cold and angry eyes and said, “If you don’t shut
up soon, I’ll close it for you. I mean it.”
Daring Ellison on, Kenner asked, “So tell us, Ellison, are you fucking your
partner?”
Jim went for his throat but Blair stood in between them and said, “Jim, this
is not how it’s going to be. Remember?”
“Yes, I’m sleeping with my partner, you fucking idiot. Don’t come near
us again.” Jim said as he walked away from them.
Blair just stood there with his mouth hanging open. They had agreed
not to come out at the PD and what did Jim do? Come out to two vice
cops, no less.”
Conner ran up to Sandburg and asked, “Sandy, what the hell's going on?
What's Jim doing?”
“Hell if I know, Conner. I think he just fucked us both. What
do you think?” Blair asked with a hint of fear in his voice.
“No, Sandy, he didn’t. He was probably just tired of lying to everyone.
I don’t blame him. He’s in love with you. Why should he have
to keep it a secret, right?” she asked.
“Well, Conner, I hate to disagree with you but in our line of work it doesn’t
pay to have no back up coming because we’re gay.” Blair complained.
“Sandburg, no one would do that. You know everyone's behind you and
Jim.” Brown said.
“Henry, I thank you for that support but you’d be better off to not let folks
hear you say that shit. They’ll come after you next.” Blair said as
he headed out of the bar.
Simon walked over to Jim at the bar and said, “Jim, what the fuck do you
think you were doing?”
Eyeing his boss with both the anger and fear that he was feeling, he said,
“Sir, you have no idea how it is. We can’t let anyone know about us.
I’m sick of it. Everyone's always trying to set him up. They
find women for him all the time and one of these days he’ll leave with someone.”
“Jim, why in the hell would you believe that?” Simon asked.
“Because, Simon, I hear what they say at the precinct. Blair doesn’t.
But one of these days he will and he’ll be gone as soon as he can.
He’ll leave me just like I believe he would.”
“I don’t agree with you there. In fact, I think you might be selling
Blair short.” Simon laughed at his own pun.
Jim glared at him as he drank his drink silently. Simon just sat down
next to Jim and waited for Jim to talk to him.
Outside on his way to his car, Conner, Rafe, Joel and Brown all caught up
with him. Conner said, “Sandy, you have to come back inside.
You know that Jim wouldn’t have done that if there wasn’t a good reason.”
“What’s the reason, Conner?” Give me one good reason.” Blair pleaded with
her.
“Well,” Rafe said, “I have an idea. Jim overhears them all talking
about the two of you. Maybe he felt like he should get it out in the
open and be done with it.”
“Rafe, that makes no sense.” Blair said, trying to understand.
“What if someone said something to him about you going out with someone else
and Jim felt threatened?” Joel asked.
Blair turned to Joel and said, “Joel, did someone say something?”
“Well, while in the locker room yesterday,” Joel said, “he got really upset
and said they were talking about you and some babe and that he couldn’t even
keep his man. It was bad enough that he couldn’t keep his wife but
now he couldn’t keep his fag.”
“Joel.” Conner said in shock.
“Well, he asked and that’s what they said. Jim’s been putting up with
this shit for months now. He didn’t want to upset Blair.” Joel said.
“It must be terrible being able to hear all that shit.” Brown said sadly.
“Yeah, it must be.” Rafe said in agreement hoping, that Blair would calm
down and go back inside.
“So, do you all think that Jim thinks I’m going to leave him?” Blair asked.
“Sandy, I don’t think he wants to believe it but he has no chance.
He’s got the self-esteem of a doorknob.” Conner said, shaking her head.
“The self-esteem of a door knob? Conner, a door knob hasn’t got any self-esteem.”
Blair said.
“Exactly. See, that’s what I meant. He has none, Sandy, and he
loves you so much. But he’s so afraid you’ll leave him and he’ll be all alone
again. So, I think he was pushing you away tonight.”
“Well, shit! He sure can be a stupid fuck, can’t he?” Blair asked.
smiling.
All four friends started laughing and said at the same time. “Yes.”
“Well, I think it’s time I go back inside for some damage control.
What do you all think?” Blair asked.
“We wouldn’t miss it for the world, Blair.” Joel replied.
The friends all walked into the bar. Everyone got quiet and Blair made
his way back to Jim, slid up on a stool next to him and said, “Wanna go in
the restroom and talk to me or do you want me to fucking embarrass you right
here?”
“Chief, let it go, okay? We’ll talk later when I get home. You
go on home. I’ll talk to you then.” Jim turned away from Blair.
“You stupid fuck.” Blair yelled out.
Jim turned to Blair and said, “Please, not here, Chief.”
“Jim, they’re afraid of anything new. It’s not their fault. They
can’t help it. They don’t know what to do or to say with gay men.
They just need to know that we’re all right and we’re not going to
corrupt them or anything.”
“Chief, our friends will always be behind us but we’re going to have those
guys on our asses all the time. I really don’t think you need that
shit.”
“Don’t you think that we should give them the benefit of the doubt?
Give them a chance, Jim. We’ll take it one day at a time. I love
you, man. I don’t want to spend it with some woman from robbery.”
When Blair said that Jim looked up and said, “All right, who told you that?”
“Who didn’t? Now I don’t want to hear that shit again. Do you
understand? You're mine and I’m yours.”
“Okay, Chief. I’ll settle for that right now but we’re not done with
this subject yet.”
“Oh, yeah, we are, tough guy and don’t bring it up again.” Blair moved
really close to Jim and whispered in Jim’s ear, “I want to take you home
and fuck you senseless. Actually, I don’t think that would take too
long the way you’ve been acting.”
Jim laughed out loud then pulled Blair into his arms and right there in front
of everyone laid a lip lock on Blair. It was done with such tenderness
and love that Blair melted.
As Blair pulled away he looked up into Jim’s eyes and said, “Oh man, you
are like so forgiven.”
“Good because I really want to take you up on that offer you just made.”
“Jim, we need to say goodbye to our friends first. We can’t just blow
everyone off. The only one I want blown off will be you, tough guy.” Blair
said through a big smile.
“Chief, you’re going to make me suffer, aren’t you?”
“Yup. I am.”
“Okay, I can handle that. Now let's go say goodbye to our friends and
get this show on the road.” Jim said as he got down off the stool.
“We really have great friends, Jim. We’re very lucky, do you know that?”
Blair asked. “And you know what else? You’re going to talk to me when
you hear something in the bullpen instead of keeping it to yourself, is that
understood?”
“Understood, now let's see about our goodbye’s Blair.” Jim said quietly as
he moved over to Simon and the others.
Simon, seeing them walk up, said, “Well, if it isn’t the kissing bandit.
Jesus, Jim, do you ever do anything half way?”
“No, sir. Blair complains if I don’t let him come.” Jim said, with
a big smile.
They all started laughing except Blair and Simon. Blair smacked Jim
on the shoulder and said, “We’ll see who doesn’t get to come.”
“Well, everyone, it’s time for us to get home. We’re still newlyweds,
don’t you know?” Jim said as he started dragging Blair out of the bar.
“Goodbye, everyone. See you tomorrow in the bullpen.” Blair complained
as he was drug out the door.
As they got to the pickup, Blair said, “I love you, big man. So could
we use the siren and get home fast?”
“Why I think that could be arranged.” Jim said as he put the siren on the
dash and turned it on.
Telling the truth did pay and here he’d thought it would be the opposite.
Life is good.
End Telling The Truth.
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