beedance2002: mary hi i was reading your profile and then u had section on comments from others and u thoughts all those comments were stupid now tell me why do u think others are stupid 
mary_magdalicious: um, did you read them?
beedance2002: yes but in every thing there is light beauty and in everything there is darkness 
beedance2002: that is how we mature and learn or discover 
mary_magdalicious: ok.. well i don't think someone telling me they will rape me has any light or beauty.
beedance2002: well if u are here and so u expect different people but then u can chat with them i am sure they will gradually lern 
beedance2002: sorry learn 
beedance2002: from u 
mary_magdalicious: i chat with people. i don't think people act stupid, until they do so.
mary_magdalicious: if they act stupid, then they aren't worth chatting with.
beedance2002: oh so u judge them as they respond and if they show u little of their darkness then u know they are stupid 
mary_magdalicious: their darkness.. no.. i don't believe in the balance of light and darkness.
mary_magdalicious: somethings just are.
beedance2002: well dear mary 
mary_magdalicious: and yes, i judge them by their actions. i'm not going to allow myself to be abused by people
beedance2002: nothing is 
mary_magdalicious: if i wanted to be a door mat, i would be one.
beedance2002: ok then now i can reflect on what u shared with me 
beedance2002: these r your thoughts and they represent u 
mary_magdalicious: yep. they do.
beedance2002: but i can not reflect on the darkness of u 
mary_magdalicious: yep.. i am totally dark and evil.
beedance2002: one can only reflect on light 
mary_magdalicious: because i don't like it when people tell me they are going to rape me.
mary_magdalicious: or when they can't take the hint i don't want to have cyber sex with them
beedance2002: well u try and u like just like it is popular to be bad 
mary_magdalicious: i'm not being bad.
mary_magdalicious: seriously.. what are you?
beedance2002: cyber sex what is that 
mary_magdalicious: ok.. read the instant messages. 
beedance2002: no not interested 
mary_magdalicious: if you don't know what it is.. it is quite clear in the instant messages, had you read them.
mary_magdalicious: ok.. if you aren't interested.. why bother talking to me about it.
beedance2002: oh u mean talking about sex 
mary_magdalicious: obviously, it bothers so you so bad, you felt you had to bring it up. about how it's all "dark" of me to  be bothered by it.
beedance2002: look mery i do not pretend to be perfect at all so do not try to find darkness in me i know me at least by the last many many years of experience of life 
mary_magdalicious: i'm not trying to find darkness in you
beedance2002: i am just sharing my thoughts here so that we share life in words that we share 
mary_magdalicious: really.. can you talk like a normal person.. this new agey stuff is just not suiting you.
mary_magdalicious: you are trying to show me how dark i am.
beedance2002: now if we share our time which is life so let us enjoy each other and if u r not then this is life 
mary_magdalicious: which is a load of crap, if you were so full of light yourself.
beedance2002: i can see myself through your reflection of me 
beedance2002: now if u think i am load of crap then this is your reflection of me 
mary_magdalicious: no. i said that is a load of crap.
mary_magdalicious: not you.
beedance2002: ok sorry 
beedance2002: mary life which is now passing before our eyes is so precious that no price can be put on it 
mary_magdalicious: life passes before everyone's eyes.
mary_magdalicious: why do you assume i am wasting mine?
beedance2002: i never said that 
beedance2002: i said it is too precious 
beedance2002: so i am sharing it with u now 
beedance2002: that is what i meant 
mary_magdalicious: yep. 
beedance2002: i respect and enjoy yours too becaue u r here now 
mary_magdalicious: ok...
mary_magdalicious: that's great.
beedance2002: so u see that is all i can do 
mary_magdalicious: makes ya feel all warm and tingly, don't it.
beedance2002: at this state 
beedance2002: yes why not 
beedance2002: sharing life in forms of thoughts hidden in words and 
beedance2002: as soon as i have typed them it is yours now in your brain in your state of mind 
beedance2002: so i am there and you are here 
beedance2002: we are exchanging life in time and so we share 
mary_magdalicious: yep. but time really is just a tiny little blink in the existance of everything. so one instant message, is really nothing cosmically speaking.
beedance2002: right but that is all we can be , now concentrate on now 
beedance2002: but 
mary_magdalicious: i concentrate on what is important to me.
mary_magdalicious: not trying to find the darkness in others.
beedance2002: if u share this life at the peak of concentration the power that will release is hidden and we can not see or feel 
beedance2002: ok 
beedance2002: what is important to u 
mary_magdalicious: that makes no sense.
beedance2002: agree
mary_magdalicious: my family is important to me.
beedance2002: but u r here now and your life is passing by anyway so why not share it as precious as possible , the way you want to share 
mary_magdalicious: what do you mean?
mary_magdalicious: that i am ignoring my family?
mary_magdalicious: by being online?
beedance2002: no 
beedance2002: do not make assumption ask me 
mary_magdalicious: i did ask.
beedance2002: no your life is now passing by 
beedance2002: now this moment 
mary_magdalicious: did it not have a question mark behind it?
mary_magdalicious: i realize that.
mary_magdalicious: should i lament over every beat my heart makes...
mary_magdalicious: no.
mary_magdalicious: i am human.. i live i die.
mary_magdalicious: just like everyother thing that lives.
beedance2002: yes but awareness make us more precious 
beedance2002: awarenss of life that is passing now 
beedance2002: every beat of your heart 
mary_magdalicious: what makes you think i don't have that?
mary_magdalicious: why are you telling me this?
beedance2002: u said let me find your sentence 
beedance2002: mary_magdalicious: i concentrate on what is important to me.
beedance2002: what is impotant to me is now now who and where i share 
mary_magdalicious: yep. and sometimes, my family is sleeping..
mary_magdalicious: and i go online.
beedance2002: ok on line with your family with others 
beedance2002: u share your life 
mary_magdalicious: not with my family.
beedance2002: that is what i am saying let us share our life to the best irrespective of who but wise 
mary_magdalicious: my family is sleeping.
mary_magdalicious: taking naps.
mary_magdalicious: i am online to chat with my friends.
beedance2002: what difference does it make who now 
beedance2002: u r sharing life anyway 
beedance2002: so try to be a friend 
mary_magdalicious: seriously. what is your point.
beedance2002: u share life with people differently 
beedance2002: or u share thoughts according to the people capacity 
mary_magdalicious: yep that is all humans can do.
beedance2002: life is shared anyway 
beedance2002: it is gone last half an hour gone 
beedance2002: with me 
beedance2002: and mine with u 
mary_magdalicious: well, i've been chatting with other people too.
beedance2002: but i am trying to concentrate so i can go into words and reach u 
beedance2002: that is my liffe 
beedance2002: and so i like u to see me and that is what matter
mary_magdalicious: oh.. because you are so much higher on the mental plateu than i.
beedance2002: not that i do not know ur name or family 
beedance2002: no i am not 
mary_magdalicious: you have to concentrate, to put into words..
mary_magdalicious: how deep
beedance2002: no but i try to reach u through my thoughts 
beedance2002: and u r doing the same 
mary_magdalicious: not really. just typing to you.
beedance2002: well still is your life 
mary_magdalicious: not trying to go into your head and brain screw ya
beedance2002: well whatever this is life that we share 
beedance2002: whether u screw it or share it or dance with it 
mary_magdalicious: yep. i know that. why are you so hung up on this...
beedance2002: that is all i can do now do u have any other way now to share life with u now this moment no i do not know other way 
mary_magdalicious: beedance2002: not that i do not know ur name or family 
mary_magdalicious: what does that mean?
mary_magdalicious: you know my family name?
beedance2002: well am i your friend 
beedance2002: no 
beedance2002: i am just a person on line 
mary_magdalicious: then why did you imply that you know my family's name.
beedance2002: i tried to say that it does not matter of name or family name or who i am 
beedance2002: we share life anyway 
beedance2002: whether i know u in person (physical) by name or family we still share life 
mary_magdalicious: not on the same level.
beedance2002: why not it is your life that is passing now 
mary_magdalicious: yours is too.
beedance2002: be wise yes 
beedance2002: that is why i have been trying to make you see me 
mary_magdalicious: why do i need to see you?
beedance2002: but u close the door all the time 
mary_magdalicious: what makes YOU so important.
beedance2002: well because u r here 
mary_magdalicious: no i have closed no doors..
mary_magdalicious: just what makes you so special...
beedance2002: i am not imp 
mary_magdalicious: why do i need to see you.
mary_magdalicious: did i say you were one?
mary_magdalicious: no.
beedance2002: who said i am special 
mary_magdalicious: i am asking what makes you so special, you felt a need to pm me to know about YOU>
beedance2002: i am thanking u in words by sharing them with u 
mary_magdalicious: thanking me.. oh please.
beedance2002: am i being funny or something i am saying this moment is life that is all i said 
mary_magdalicious: i realize that.
beedance2002: and since i shared it with u 
mary_magdalicious: i realize that...
beedance2002: i am thanking u for being here 
mary_magdalicious: why are you repeating it OVER and OVER and OVER?
beedance2002: why do go funny remark 
beedance2002: mary_magdalicious: thanking me.. oh please.
mary_magdalicious: yep.
mary_magdalicious: i did it..
beedance2002: a thank u has to become bad 
mary_magdalicious: it's getting old.
mary_magdalicious: seriously.. this conversation is redundant..
mary_magdalicious: all you have talked about is life passing us by, for like 30 minutes.
beedance2002: ok now u know who i am for 30 minutes and i know who u r 
mary_magdalicious: you have no idea who i am.
mary_magdalicious: i have no idea who you are.
beedance2002: well 30 minutes of life average 75 then i know u that much 
beedance2002: so i shared that much and u did too and that is all we can do here 
mary_magdalicious: yep. so since that's it.. i guess this is good bye.
beedance2002: nice talkiging to u and thank u again for accepting the knock 
beedance2002: believe it or not i think u r a lovely beautiful lady and i mean that 
beedance2002: u can believe it or not 
mary_magdalicious: ok. thanks.
mary_magdalicious: bye
beedance2002: that is up to u 
beedance2002: bye