| Wake When I walked through the front door and saw you, just lying there, it was surreal. It always is. I was not believing at first. Just kept looking up, hoping (in the back part of my mind) that you would become one of us, looking at someone else that we all loved. Thinking it was not real, I ignored you the rest of the night, just like I did most of my life. Why did I do that? I wanted to know you. And at the end, while no one was watching, I watched your mom make her slow way up to your new bed and say goodbye, accepting it with more grace than I ever will. Then I leaned against the wall, keeping my distance, and silently told you how I felt, and I said goodbye, for the last time. I think I know you heard me. My chin started to tremble, and I walked out smiling, trying to hide the pieces of me that were falling away, all the while wanting you to Wake up, I want to talk to you again. |