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I wish I could explain, what goes on deep down inside
The feelings that torment me, the ones I've learned to hide
They've destroyed and ruined the loves I've had, chasing the men away
But I'm glad to see that you're here still, and appear to want to stay.

I need to explain what makes me tick, why I love the way I do
It must be hard to believe, when I say that I love you
My actions always contradict, what I often neglect to say
I treat you like an animal, about to kills its prey.

Everyday I think of you and wish to hold you tight
But when we get together, I feel compelled to fight
I hate myself for doing this and I feel the hurt for you
Believe me when I tell you now, my love for you is true.

I have always been suspicious and distrust the ones I love
I keep praying for a change in me from the man high up above.
His help is slow in coming, so I turn to you and cry
That you understand and if you don't, to hold onto to me and try.

I keep wanting something better, and I keep expecting you to change
This behavior is disturbing and for you it must be strange
You keep trying hard to please me, but your efforts I beat down
I always greet you with a growl and love you with a frown.

I hope this change I'm going through, does not destroy your heart
I want to grow really old with you and never be apart.
So please just grin and bare it as I stumble in my find
And I will work much harder, to be nicer and be kind.

I love you dearly my other half, remember everyday
That I married you and in your life I really want to stay
I want us both to get really old, together to the end
So all my love and kisses, in this poem to you I send.

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