Okay, so trouble and hardship have come out of the blue. Suddenly, I must accept something that I in no way want to accept�yet, my Lord deserves my soul, my life, and my all and I must. It is His will.

So, at the crossroads I have stood, and all though the path looked bleak, I knew that I could walk down it because it was the Lord�s path. There was hope lurking within the apparent darkness. There is safety in His will.

I feel as if I have been equipped by the saints for such a journey as this one. I am grateful to God for such people as Elisabeth Elliot, Susan Hunt and Martha Peace, who are all godly women who have pointed me to God. If I had not had so much training derived from their writings, I fear I would be a bit adrift on the sea of selfishness. As it is, I am able to know that all things are for my good and for His glory. I can accept whatever comes from God. His dealings with me are good.

I do not seek my own way, but the way of my God. I want Him to be glorified in my life, which I count as nothing. I am His and He may use me as it pleases Him. I only wish that I did not cry so much over letting go of the things that displease Him. I constantly pray for the spirit of an open hand.

I seem to condemn myself for not loving my Savior more. I only want more of Him. I am tired of my unfaithfulness, yet He is not; He is ever faithful!

O wondrous love that will not let me go
I cling to You with all my strength and soul
Yet if my hold should ever fail
This wondrous love will never let me go

He is the lover of my soul. No one compares to Him. May I never follow after idols, but only my God. My passion is for You, Lord Jesus...Your grace has fueled a fire that burns within my heart. There�s no where that compares with Your presence. I�ve tasted of Your Spirit, so there�s just one thing I ask...

More, more, more, more, more...

Are You not more than willing to answer a prayer such as this? One that cries out for more of You? I smile because I know that You are...You are so good to me!

:md

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