I...don't exist
6/19/05
listen: Confutatis [Mozart]
feel like: peeing
goal: survive.
Hi. I am updating. School has ended. I am bored. I miss school. Nop is hot. Goodbye.
Wait, nevermind. *suddenly has stuff to say* ^^() Mehhh.. Believe me I tried to communicate with you all. I tried hard in the beginning. Then in winter I realized it was taking so much out of me trying to switch back and forth between Medford and Milton when I had a whole life here at school. Living at school in the "Milton Bubble" with everyone there 24/7 makes it impossible to completely be in touch with Medford all the time, even if I called you every night and talked for an hour. In the beginning of the year I had no idea how difficult it would be to keep in touch. And then in like December I missed like a month of Medford life and then I call and you all start going on about Naruto and FMA and crap which I haven't read and am not capable of reading and I get completely lost and I be like 'wait.. I missed something...?..' and then I'm just like.. meh it's not worth it they're too far ahead of me.. even though I know it is, but I just get too lazy. Also it's me...because I've changed so much and I've missed so much of your lives... I don't know. Don't kill me for ranting. You wanted an explanation and I tried my best to explain.
Marushi should have been asleep @ 12:34 am.
I EXIST!!!!
2/13/05
listen: Waste of Time [the Unseen]
feel like: shit
goal: none.
AHHHHH. I am updating for lack of anything to do. I don't feel like thinking. Just to catch you up on my life: I switched rooms and roommates so now I live across the hall with Miranda who is very nice. I passed all my exams but got a C in math, which sucked. And right now I feel like crap. The whole purpose of yesterday's existence was to make me miserable. And I miss Medford. I wanna go home for a couple of days. And Valentine's Day should die a bloody death. I haven't updated since before Dan's birthday...wow. I sorta have been slacking off and preoccupied lately, according to people. And I hate weekends because there's nothing to do. I feel very evil right now and yesterday. Friday was the only good day of the past week and then everything sorta died completely. And I feel very stupid and torn apart by crap and I couldn't begin to explain unless you've been here for the past two months or so. So if you have no idea what I'm talking about, ignore me.
Marushi felt very purposeless @ 1:34 pm.
i have conquered trigonometry! worship me!
1/12/05
listen: Tubthumping [Chumbawumba]...lol dont ask
feel like: i have lived here my whole life
goal: pass all exams >___<
Woot. Nop is fine. His flight was delayed like 3 days ^^() I have a free right now so I have nothing to do. I slould really do my geometry homework but bleh. I hope I pass all the exams in 2 weeks. I hate exams... stupid exams. I'm gonna die. But I am very proud of myself for mastering trigonometry. YAYYY. My life is complete. My freind Dan took trig last year so this year is like repeat. nbuyfgdysufgnduy. Friday a lot of people including me shall go to his house because saturday is his birthday. Wee. We shall do stupid things. And he promised to fix my computer too ^^ I am very hungry. Yesterday was the first day of skiing in which we actually stood on skis and actually slid down a mountain. The snow was ice and we died. But it was fun anyway. Okay, I should probably go now since I have lunch now and then math. Wee I love math class... ^___^
Marushi will die in exams @ 11:33 am.
happy new year! <---me being creative
12/31/04
listen: various Green Day
feel like: DEATH
goal: to figure out how to make that evil Neji collar thing before January 4
The ------- tsunami hit Thailand. I happen to have friends in Thailand. Namely Nop. I hope Nop is okay. I was unable to sleep a couple of days ago because I was up watching the news and worrying about Thailand. I think it didn't hit Bangkok but I don't know. And for all I know he could have been in the south of Thailand sitting on a beach at the time. MUIDSFYUCGNFYUIDG. I wanna go back to school and see Nop and be assured he's fine so I can be unworried. Anwyay. I am updating. Yay! Can you believe it?! I almost forgot this blog existed. I had a headache last night at like 2 am because I was attempting to make the collar of Neji and it was killing me and I can't handsew and it took me like an hour to thread a needle because I had a headache and I was dying. But now I am okay. I need a shower. My grandparents are coming over in a few hours because of New Year. So I can't come to Q's house. T____T I need to read/watch FMA and Naruto and Hellsing and everything else worth reading/watching. I come home after not obsessing over bishounen for 4 months and look what happens. I get confused. And I randomly become obsessed with Neji. And I'm hungry. I HAVE AN IPOD. Mwahahahahaha it is my life. I have 323 songs on it. I think. And I haven't played DDR in a month. Woe is me. And I am currently in a phase of Greendayness because of the people in Milton who all listen to Green Day. I listen to them more than DeG now. And it takes skill to make me listen to something more than DeG. o___O I suppose I need a break from Jrock once in a while. I am still hungry. Goodbye.
Marushi failed at everything related to cosplay @ 3:21 pm.
allergies = death
10/31/04
listen: nothing
feel like: yay
goal: to know more languages than Massimo
This is an update. No school. Wee. Happy Halloween. My pumpkin is mutilated. I have a cell phone. I am happy that T is not suicidal. YAY. Happy daylight savings time day. Tonantzin is asleep. I am tired. My brain is not functioning. I will go climb a tree and sing peaches and fall out and be happy. SHITLEBUTE. <--- turtle in flemish. Massimo knows how to say whore in german.
Marushi sneesed and died @ 8:25 am.
so crapping tiredddddd
9/19/04
listen: Two Bell Silence [Glay]
feel like: a slug
goal: to be born during the school year on a monday, tuesday, or thursday
I just went rock climbing somewhere with the Hallowell and Hathaway girls. Killed my arms completely, to add to the carnival moonbounce thingy the other day. Dead now. Too tired to type. There's too much new stuff that happened. I saw Alex almost shirtless. Woohoo. Then we had the dorm hop yesterday. When it ended I came home and went to sleep immediately, but I didn't think I'd ever be able to sleep again. So much crap was on my mind. In the dorm hop I ate lots of carrots and green peppers in Robbins house. Saw a random guy naked in Forbes and ran away screaming and was scarred for life. Talked to Alex, Paloma, some random girl I didn't know for half an hour in Robbins. Found Alex's and Brad's rooms in Norris. Met Alex's roommate who thought I was completely insane. Couldn't tell which underwear was Alex's or his roommate's, so didn't steal it. Had ice cream in Norris. Walked into Alex twice. Was walked into by Alex once. Got hit in the head by a freezer door. Screamed UNNNNNNNNDERWEARRRRRRR really loud in Wolcott. Scared Paloma. Had fun. NEED SLEEP NOW. x_____X
Marushi was completely dead @ 1:27 pm.
My brain has dissolved.
9/17/04
listen: nothing
feel like: shallow insane fangirl with no life
goal: to be born during the school year on a monday, tuesday, or thursday
Oh my crapping bob.
I have completely and finally lost my brain. It's all the pink shirt's fault. And Paloma thinks I am insane now, which makes her a hypocrite. And Chae doesn't know. And Latin is my favortite class, even though it is EXTREMELY boring. And I drew and scanned it and will eventually put up on DA for you people to see just how much my brain has deteriorated since Monday. I am hopelessly dead and obsessed and insane. I couldn't even follow simple directions to construct a triangle in geometry today because my brain was too preoccupied and didn't work right. When you come here you'll see what I'm talking about. Acutally, I could just scan that page of the Milton Academy directory and send it to you. Yes, I'll go do that now.
Marushi was a lump with a syndrome @ 2:46 pm.
Alex
9/16/04 ... again
listen: people yelling and being insane next door
feel like: MFIBSDNHFDBGUSD
goal:to be born during the school year
HBFDUYGFINGSUFINGSUOINJGDUFINJGSDUFINGDFUIGDHF. My birthday is in the summer. I'm gonna cry.
Marushi couldn't really decide which emotion to feel as a result of dinner @ 6:44 pm.
Still don't know his name. >.<
9/16/04
listen: some song on Smile [Laruku] (blah. I owe SeoHyung $30 now)
feel like: Miaka
goal: to actually gain weight off the school food
Someone here likes Krock.
There's a hot asian guy in my Latin class. If you ever come here, note that you cannot have him. Find your own hot asian guy.
My health class is a bit like HS&R except not. I was 20 minutes late for it today because I couldn't find the health center which turned out to be like 2 feet from my dorm.
Just took out the trash which overflowed and fell apart and I had to clean it up. And I couldn't find the dumpster for like 20 minutes so I was running around the whole campus with a bag of trash that kept falling apart every few steps. Then I found the dumpter and stupidly dropped the bag and caused a huge mess which took about an hour to fix.
I am NEVER taking out the trash AGAIN. .............EVER.
Okay. Anyway. I check my Milton email account more often than verizon so send email HERE. I can't call Medford anymore. It's 8 cents a minute, my mom said. An hour-long phonecall cost my parents $5. So unless you call me I can't talk to you over the phone. Just wanted to make that clear. I'm not gonna write my number, since it would be kinda stupid to post it on my blog for the whole world full of perverts and murderers to see. XD Email me if you want to know. And I have a DA account! Yay! That would be here.Not much up yet. Look at my scraps if you haven't yet. mwahahahaha. ^_________________^ ::runs away from kaseyu and her murderous ideas::
Marushi screwed up in numerous ways today @ 4:05 pm.
Surrounded by hot Asian guys
9/11/04
listen: Michael Jackson music (Tonantzin's playlist)
feel like: ::OMHPBSWTFBBQBOOMEXPLODEDIE:: YAY
goal: to be a mangaka
OH MY FUZZING GOD. THE THING DELETED MY LAST ENTRY AND KILLED IT. I have to type it ALL OVER aGAIN. And it was LONG. Oh well. I have too much time right now anyway. Woke up too early. Happy 9/11. I will probably faint today. That's what seems to happen every 9/11 since THE 9/11. >______< Remember last year's stupid 3-hour ceremony, those who were there? Blah. Oh man. I'm at school. Yay. I have my own nice little room which I share with my roommate Tonantzin who is Mexican and has a drawer full of canned beans. You people must come visit! And yell something about Kiriyama and bunnies out the window. (I really don't want to know how that story came into existence. o___O) My best friends here are mostly older than me and Korean. There's someone named Lulu and someone named Yuna! Except Yuna spells her name with oo instead of u so it ends up being Yoona, and I think it has a hyphen somewhere, but who cares. She's from Korea. That explains everything. OMHPBSWTFBBQ!!!!!! I PLAYED DDR! AND FOUND DDR-PLAYING PEOPLE LIKE ME! Except they're all older. And guys. Including hot asian guys ^^ Yesterday we had this weird BBQ thingy where the WHOLE SCHOOL (1000+) came and ate and talked to people and when it got dark I went to the student center with Chae who is korean and Paloma who spends most of her time chasing squirrels. I saw people playing DDR and spazzed and ran off and dragged them along with me XD There was a guy who was a junior who owned the DDR club and I played some song on standard and all the guys there were like, OMGWTF THIS PERSON WHO IS A FROSH PLAYS BETTER THAN I DO O_______O Most of them suck. On beginner. But the guy who owns DDR club whose name I believe is Taylor can play 7 and 8 feet. I played Break Down heavy and got a B and some guy asked me for my autograph XD Then this random girl came and started playing Dive heavy or something and failed and walked away. lol. The DDR guy made my life. Then Chae anbd Paloma dragged me away to watch some sort of Chinese samurai subtitled movie which confused me but has pretty colors. There's a guy here who looks like Kiriyama and a girl who lives in my dorm who is Mitsuko. Except I don't think she's a prostitute. Lulu is more prostitutish than her. But Lulu is Lulu! Lulu cannot be Mitsuko. Oh well. Firehydrant house tree. I must go eat breakfast now. And if I call you and I say I have to go and you tell me to wait and not go(::coughCHINERANDKASEYUcough::), I WILL hang up. I'll get in trouble if I don't go where I have to. This isn't MHS. Understand that people! Or you might get mad at me and hate me and replace me with Joe who is nonexistent or something. Okay. Bye.
Marushi is VERY happy that she didn't go to MHS @ 8:02 am.
Later today...
9/01/04
listen: dad watching TV
feel like: yay
goal: to be a mangaka
YAY. I think I'm bipolar or something. An hour ago I was all pissed at everything and suddenly I'm happy. w00t. I have thought of a dream which has nothing to do with music ! Yay! ^_________^ I really don't know if I'll have the patience to write a whole manga, let alone a series, but my new goal is to work on it. XD I am not pissed at stuff anymore. I don't care if I am unmusical. I don't need to be musical. YAYYYYY.
Marushi has thought of a dream that does NOT IN ANY WAY involve music @ 7:10 pm.
This will NOT be a rant. I hope.
9/01/04
listen: Filth [DeG]
feel like: crap on a stick
goal: to think of a dream
Bleh. I will not rant. I will not complain about stuff. It will just cause me to get more depressed and drown in self pity and die. This day is a crap. I can't wait for school. Only 7 more days. Woohoo. I finished my stupid evil summer reading. Thank god. I hate John Steinbeck. >_____< Anyway. On Monday me and Q went to Harvard Square and bought a bunch of stuff and spent all our money in one place. Then I took pictures of a bunch of random crap. (I WILL make that quiz, Q! Eventually...) My hair is a different color. Yay. I don't think there's anything else to say.. except that my vocal cords are in pain from trying to get every note of Cage perfect and only doing that ONCE in like 50 tries. x_____x ow. I like syringes.
Marushi tried to think of a dream that does NOT IN ANY WAY involve music @ 5:40 pm.
I told you I can't make layouts.
8/27/04
listen: Umbrella [DeG]
feel like: Mitsuko
No more disturbing scary layout for you to be scared of. Woohoo. This will be a short update. I spent almost all day today either sleeping, doing summer reading, or watering the yard. When I am told to water the flowers, I water EVERYTHING, including all the grass, the leaves of the trees, the ivy on the fence, the air, the house, the driveway, myself, the bushes, the birdfeeder. Everything I can see. It's a weird little habit that probably wastes a lot of water, but I can't help it. Just like Q can't help eating colored candy in a certain order. ^^() I'm 2/3 done with my stupid boring book. Only 200 pages left. I wanna get it overwith and finish it within the next few days so I don't have to worry about it later. Yesterday Chineru and I went to GOod Times with her brother. We played stuff. I have lost the ability to DDR. I got tired really fast but then after a while it was ok. I failed everything XD Oh yeah, before DDR Chineru ambushed my house. We made quesadillas. I burned them both and I accidentally put hot shinya in both of them so it killed us. Then I nearly died because I tried to laugh, cough, sneeze, and talk all at once, and then I got up and ran into a wall. I've been out of it lately. I feel like actually doing housework o_____O ....what happened to the SHORT update? XD
Marushi was REALLY bored @ 7:49 pm.
I CAN COLOR IN PSP! GO ME!
8/25/04
listen: Domestic ------ Family [deg]
feel like: AHHHHH
The dentist shall kill me. I am scared. I'm bored right now and I have an appointment in an hour, so I figured I should update. I want to go back to school already. I am sick of Medford. There's nothing left to do except be online all day and/or read East of Eden which is the boringest summer reading book ever. Except maybe Wuthering Heights the way Kaseyu describes it. East of Eden has a character called Una at least. Except she dies halfway through the book... ^^() I don't understand how it's possible to have enough patience to write a doujinshi. I don't know how Yuuki did it. Whenever I try I get impatient after like 2 pages. >___< I have no patience whatsoever for anything. Blah. I got like 3 hours of sleep. But I know 7 kanji! XD Kaseyu is bugging me to scan the Kyo and Die she drew and I will do that VERY SOON. My stomach wants food. x.x
Marushi was hated by deviantart @ 11:33 am.
I got a Kumagoro for my birthday ^^
8/09/04
listen: orgasmic noises [Kyo]
feel like: Kyo, minus insane spazziness, since I am not incredibly hyper right now
DFXFGHKJTDTYVBGUH!!!!!!!!! I haven't updated for like a month and a half because I went to NH and I had no internet. But I am back. Just not allowed to visit Geocities because MY DAD SAID SO. So I am unable to read anyone's blog until September. I'm updating because I have to. Hopefully my compy won't get diseased and my dad won't yell at me. I am recently going through a really random Kyo obsession caused by nothing in particular. No, wait, I think it started when I downloaded 24 Cylinders and Q read my the lyrics over the phone. o.O I just burned a CD with 14 songs. Their songs are really LONG. 14 songs is all I could fit on the CD. That's sad. Anyway... my birthday. MWAHAHA. It shall take place on Saturday at Good Times and then at my house, where HOPEFULLY there will be a sleepover, if you people can sleep in the basement where the heater thing turns on every so often and annoys the crap out of you XD Whoever can't come, say so.
Marushi's hair fell off and now vaguely resembles Ryuichi @ 10:48 am.
Don't experiment with self-tanner. >____<
6/27/04
listen: IM sounds
feel like: a scarecrow
Q and I no longer hate each other. Woohoo. I will go as paper-bag-Kyo. Mall is fun. My hair is not fun. My hair hates me T__________T I bought stuff... including SHOES! I enjoy shoes. Today I spent the say cutting bushes (crookedly) and cleaning repulsive rocks which were covered with... green stuff. Ahhhh. My hands are diseased. I want a quesadilla.
Marushi felt like shaving her head and not having to worry about her annoying stupid hair @ 7:32pm.P.S. I finally know why I keep seeing 44 everywhere. What is 144,000?
I DON'T EXIST.
6/26/04
listen: nothing.
feel like: NOTHING.
AHHHHHH FUZZZZZZZZZZZZ %&##$!$&I&%^#$%!$^&^$^%#^&@$^%^^&!!!!!!!! >_______________< I'm in a fight with Q and I feel like an extra THING that's not necessary to anyone. I guess I will just skip that day altogether. Don't talk to me and don't tell me I'm blowing it out of proportion or something. You don't know how I feel because you all have everything figured out. You have no problems with being left out because you're all part of something. I'm not. I'm just there. I'm EXTRA. So don't preach to me. You're not helping. I can't help feeling left out, and even if you people didn't mean it, or have no clue what I'm talking about, I still despise you. So go away.
Marushi wanted to EXIST @ 6:53pm.
Scott gave me a hug. ^________^
6/19/04
listen: Ya Soshla s Uma (Tatu)
feel like: HAPPY
Wednesday:
Christina, Rhea, Elise, Scott
Dracula was here
What is Chineru doing...?!
The effects of scary Cpop
Ann, Q, Scott, Chineru
Dementor
Nick Avery after falling in mud and/or poop
Kaseyu getting high
YUM NO MORE SCHOOL. I shall sleep until 1 pm everyday now. Or someone will eventually call me and wake me up. Yay. But I will never see lots of people again. Poops. This morning I nearly fainted for no reason. Graduation was fun. Wednesday was officially Sit on Scott Day. Then me and Chineru went to her house and stayed there with Kaseyu until like 6:00. My record for the longest time I can go without laughing is 2 minutes and ...... 36 seconds? I don't remember. Somewhere around there. Rather pitiful ^^() I had a dream in which I drew black lines on the sky with mascara and Mr. Terrano and some other teachers walked past and asked each other what those black lines on the sky were XD This saturday DDR is at Kaseyu's house. Next Saturday DDR is at my house. I will drag Scott to DDR by force if I have to. HE IS COMING. o__o Today I was in Boston visiting a museum and Newbury Street with my cousin and aunt. Yum. I'm allergic to my grandparents' apartment. >___________< Quesadillas.
Marushi snuz @ 8:53pm.P.S. Scott and I are the same age. Except he recently turned 13, and I will soon be 14. But we are BOTH 13. Bwahahahaha. I just realized that. ^^()
Currently missing DDR.
6/19/04
listen: TV
feel like: Harry
I don't feel like going to DDR. Too tired. I woke up and was forced to clean my room shortly after. Then I went online and forgot about the time and now I just don't feel like going, since I'll only be there like 2 hours if I go. Oh well. Tomorrow my cousin's coming. I'll teach her DDR. Woo. I'll force her to do Maxx Unlimited! ^^ 3/2 days left. Yay. No more putting up with stupid people. But I have to speak in front of the 8th grade and their parents on Tuesday, which sucks. I made a new layout and it scares me. o_____________O
Marushi scribbled @ 2:00pm.
I'm making ramen.
6/17/04
listen: N/A
feel like: stupid
I have no short term memory. I'm like a goldfish. Memory span of 3 seconds. How sad. o_____O This is a quick update because my ramen's almost done. 2 days ago Kaseyu ambushed me and spent like 6 hours at my house and we drew scary disturbing octopus things. Yesterday Chineru and Q came home with me on my bus and we utilized my makeshift ouija board made of cereal box cardboard. Then they left and I was bored. Today we had gym and Laura and some random girl I don't know annoyed me and forced me to do 5 pushups. o.O Okay. My ramen is done. I'll elaborate more later...eventually. My arm is covered with scribbles.
Marushi wanted to throw objects at random humans @ 3:04pm.
My feet broke. x.x
6/13/04
listen: Something Wicked This Way Comes (in my brain)
feel like: Draco
I saw PoA last Sunday and yesterday. That's twice in one week. First time I went with Q and second time with Chineru. We sat through the credits both times because I insisted that we had to see Tom Felton's name there or I would have a seizure. ^^() The werewolf was..... not a werewolf... o____O But Draco's hair was all pretty and unflat ^^ We came back from Washington DC on Friday. It was 95 degrees there. WE ALL DIED. Especially Q and her annoyingly sweatproof sunscreen. I thought I had taken 60 pictures when in fact it was more like 192. Silly me. I want to go see Harry Potter again. Maybe I'll take my neighbor with me next week just so I can see Tom Felton. Which reminds me. Taka wrote a very, ahem, interesting story. I illustrated it. XD I just remembered that tomorrow is a school day. I hate school. One more week. I'll die. But at least I will get to see Scott. So it's not all bad.
Marushi scared Keith by calling him and making scary seizure noises @ 8:07pm.
iNosotros somos los eediots grandes!
5/28/04
listen: Beast of Blood [Malice Mizer]
feel like: hyper child
Today was extremely uneventful until 2:30. Then we had rehearsal at the McGlynn... oh, by the way, COME SEE US EVERYONE! JUNE 2! 7 PM! um, yeah. ^^() I finally memorized all my lines. Yay. Scott went to watch our really scary rehearsal at which everyone was being weird and laughing and not singing loud enough. He made me almost forget my lines so I had to look all the way to the back of the auditorium where there was no Scott. ndjfsnfjsfsif. I couldn't concentrate and I thought Mrs. Douglas would yell at me or something. There was a random dude called Charlie who gave us candy. And Scott had a sock in his pocket that Q was convinced was a really long condom. Then he left halfway through the rehearsal and we all stayed and attempted to dance and died. Me and Q are completely incompetent so all we have to do is stand there and be jumping idiots. XDDDD Then of course I had no ride and we all nearly fell asleep on the ground outside the Andrews. Q's sleepiness made us all sleepy. I was beginning to seriously consider running all the way to Pinkert Street and forcing someone to adopt me so I could live there. I wish Taka still lived there. Then she might have let me stay and say I was a foster child. Scott is coming to DDR tomorrow if he can find Kaseyu's house. Q can't give directions. =_____=()
Marushi was acting like a complete idiot @ 6:10pm.
