A short
song fic.. well really more of a responsive sort of thing than a story
just cuz I feel like it. Rated R for language.
“Boulevard
of Broken Dreams” by Green Day. I don’t own the rights to the song; I just felt
connected to it. I wasn’t going to share this but my beta said they liked it
and it was worth sharing. That said this is not beta’d.
;)
Maggie
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
It seems
like I’ve been traveling down this road forever. Sure the scenery seems to change on occasion
but it’s still the same damned road. I know I should get off here, try a new
route, hell break down and buy a map. Truth is that would mean admitting I’m
lost and I’m so not giving the world one more thing to laugh at me about. Okay so I don’t know where the hell I’m
going. At least it’s familiar and loneliness is something I’ve come to expect.
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
Dreams,
sure I’ve had dreams. They never end well. How could they when I’m
involved? My dreams end up as broken and
as unattractive as me. Sometimes it
feels like my heart is breaking in so many pieces the sound must be enough to
raise a crowd. Yet, I look around and see everyone else is still asleep. I
don’t understand how they can blissfully ignore my pain so I just keep walking.
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I wonder
if my shadow is even there, or at least if it would be
if it had any choice in the matter.
Yeah, sometimes I wish someone would find me, but then I stop myself.
After all, if I wish for it, then I will be admitting I want it. That would only lead to more disappointment
and heartache.
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
It seems
like I’m always walking on the edge of something, never quite able to make it
to the other side. I’m not sure if that’s because someone keeps changing the
rules or because I just can’t make up my mind of which way I really want to go.
A wise man one said, a house divided against it’s self cannot stand. Well that
may be true, but it can still keep going even if it never makes any progress.
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
Yeah read between the lines people. It’s all there if
you’d only look past the end of your nose. You won’t though. It’s so much
easier to believe the pat answers, the I’m Okay mantra that apparently fools
you even though it ceased working on me ages ago. Yeah I’m still alive, at least that’s what my vital signs will tell you. I
don’t know if I’ve ever been really. Then again, the next reality might be even
worse than this one so I better just stick to the path I’m on now.
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
If only someone would find me. If they did, would they understand though? Would they even want me? Who am I kidding? There’s a reason I walk alone. I’ve never been quite pretty, charming, or just plain good enough. So my heart keeps beating out of spite and I keep wandering, wondering if this road ever ends. I walk on unaware if I’m being followed or by what, not sure I really care.