| you ever had those days you just enver wanna repeat? my day to day life is one.. i wish with every bone in my body.. that i had none.. but alas im never as lucky as i wish.. im sure by now you heard it all why to die .. why to live why this why that... do i realllllly give? not freakin likely!.. ive suffered more then i needed to.. i could have left years ago but i thought.. no.. there must be something to go for.. some goal at the end.. maybe riches?.. fame?.. love?......... a friend? none of the above! as yes Again! Scrooges life stopped sucking.. the grinch got a heart.. why cant i be happy? i want my part! yes im being greedy.. no i do not care.. its not like you can stop me .. your not really there.. all figures of my mind.. its all not real.. if i close my eyes real tight.. maybe then i can deal I WANT A VACATION! i want out of this place waking up to it.. its like a slap in the face.. HA your not getting out.. your stuck here for a long while.. endless drugery.. mile after mile.. yet some can tolerate.. they can find love.. it clouds their judgement.. what a gift from above.. then they leave you.. or have a change of heart.. your left alone again.. just to fall apart!.. wtf's the point.. none that i can see.. all die when your born.. the way it should be. I gave her my soul.. everything that was me.. but as they say.. "not meant to be" FUCK the world around me.. life i have come to regret.. i wish i could leave.. and start to forget.. i want my mind back.. steal it back late at night.. but nooo.. she has to keep it.. and put up a huge fight.. sometimes i scare myself.. but how clearly i really see.. but then i realize.. thats "the way its to be" i see life for what it is.. a snake in the grass.. just waiting to pounce.. and bite ya in the ass.. - Marzi |