Disclaimer: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin. AN: This story takes place before the Kenshingumi. And please excuse my grammar error, cause it wasn't my language and I'm not good at it. *:: The Darkness and The Light ::* Chapter 03 He never loved me. Never. Loved. Me. +++ Tokio woke up in sweat, her heart beating faster and faster. Tonight she dreamt that nightmare again. She dreamed about that day, the day Saitou left her in emptiness, the day she felt she's unloved. The day he said he never loved her. She sighed sadly and closed her eyes, 2 month had passed, but still she couldn't leave. She could just leave this house, leave him, but every time she tried to do that... she ended up staring at into the space, thinking about him, over and over. Trying to hate him, but the darkness had consumed her mind. Leaving her only with a small light, her love for him. She realized she was hungry and thirsty, she needed love to satisfy her, to fulfill her needs. But, no one dared to give her love. No one, until she met that man. The man that could give her love, the man that could accept her, cared for her. But... He's not Saitou... Her mind was screaming, torn between her passion and desire to be loved by someone... She wouldn't dare waiting for him anymore, she needed someone to take her away from the darkness, anyone, she didn't care who he was, she didn't care is she loved him or not, as long as he loved her, cared for her... she would try to love him back... Ah... what a shameless woman she was, she was even thinking of leaving Saitou, her husband. But... HE left her... alone... in the darkness, while she wanted to see the light... He was the darkness... there's no way he could change into the light, take her into the light. But the other man was the light... he could take her away... away from this darkness... She opened her eyes in the darkness, unable to see, but she smiled. 'As long as he loves me... it doesn't matter... does it?' +++ The night was cold and dark, a tall figure walking in silently, not making any sound, while another man ran into him from behind. "Fujita san!" The man with a police officer outfit called him, he stopped and looked at his partner. "Hideki-san. What do you want?" He asked coldly. Hideki smiled at his partner and patted his shoulder. "What's wrong with you? I mean... you are a loner, I know, but I never saw you this cold before. What's wrong?" Hideki asked. Saitou released Hideki's hand from his shoulder roughly and started to walked again. Hideki shrugged and followed Saitou. "Oi Fujita san! Don't dare to leave me behind!" Hideki called as Saitou walked faster. "Who do you think you are? A little girl?" Saitou sad coolly, not even turning his head. "Aw... come on! My wife would not have agreed to marry me if I was a little girl!" He grinned, Saitou looked at the young man. "You are already married?" Saitou asked. Hideki nodded proudly, and he started to tell Saitou about how he meet his wife. "But, your wife is more beautiful than mine. You are so lucky Fujita san!" He laughed and patted Saitou on the shoulder again. Saitou then remembered about Tokio, how he had thrown her away like that, she probably already had left the house. But it didn't mean he wanted her to leave. Wait! HE was the one who wanted Tokio to leave, didn't he? He never said he loved her, did he? She gave him love, but he threw it away. But why now... he regretted it? Why he regretted all he had said? sometimes he wished, he had never agreed to the marriage, sometimes he wished he had been rotting on the street, not surviving the last war with the other Shinshengumi. So he wouldn't have been able to meet her. But he didn't regret meeting her. And now he was stuck between his mind and heart, and it's all because of Tokio. "Fujita-san? Are you ok? You seem spacing out." Hideki asked, Saitou ignored his words and walked again. His mind was full of unanswered questions, other confused words or even... a surprising fact. He wanted to ignore all of it, but he found he was unable to. But his stubborn mind won. He ignored it. 'But... since I'm too long here, I guess it's ok if I back tomorrow, well... just checking if everything ok.' He thought, still pretending not to care. +++ 2 days later... "Tokio-san!" A young man called her name, she spun around to see the owner of the voice. He was around her age, his hair was black, as well as his eyes, but it kept shining, so full of life, he was handsome, with a tall and well-built body, and his smile could melt everyone's heart. "Ohayo, Kanzaki-san. What are you doing here?" Tokio asked, they were now standing not too far from her house, she was going to buying some food. "Ah, I just stopped by to ask you something." Kanzaki smiled, showing his white teeth. "What is it?" Tokio asked trying to sound casually, but she knew what he would ask about. "About my... confession, you know..." Kanzaki whispered, he knew Tokio already had a husband, but he never met him, and last month when he met her again, she was lifeless, a frown always forming in her beautiful face. It made him want to reach out for her, loving her, hold her. "A... I... I don't know, you know... I have a husband," She said the last part sadly, yes, she had a husband who threw her away. "But... I couldn't stand seeing you suffering like this!" Kanzaki said, rising his voice, fortunately no one was there, so no one could hear them. Tokio's gaze lowered into the ground, he was right, she was suffering, she then remembered about her thoughts 2 days ago, she had chosen to forget about Saitou, but now... it seemed like... she still tried to love him, no matter what. She felt Kanzaki placing his hand on her shoulder gently. /But she was still thinking about Saitou./ Kanzaki touched her chin and lifted her face his. /A memory about Saitou keep playing on her mind./ Kanzaki drew closer to her face, his warm breath touching her face. /Saitou voice... kept repeating on her mind./ "Tokio..." Kanzaki whispered gently, and caressed her cheek lovingly. /She remembered how Saitou cold eyes looked at her that day./ Kanzaki touched her lips with his, softly, gently... Tokio felt weak against this man, her feeling was mixed, how should she react? She should be happy, she wanted this, didn't she? She wanted someone to love her right? She wanted someone to care for her, to kiss her, to hold her... But she wanted him. She wanted her husband to be that someone. She wanted Saitou, not Kanzaki. But why? Why this man kissed her, not Saitou, why? Because... Saitou didn't love her. And she gave in, she let herself drowning in his kiss. +++ A tall figure looked at them from the darkness, he inhaled the cigarette-smoke and pulled it away from his mouth. And he smirked. 'Just like what I thought.' He leaned his back against the wall, should he show up now? It didn't matter if she knew that he saw the scene right? She had moved on anyway... But his feet didn't want to move, he smirked again. 'Love? Is that what she means by love?' He inhaled the smoke again, 'Love is such a fragile thing.' He threw the cigarette into the ground roughly. 'That's why I never want to love or to be loved.' He looked at them, even he tried to act cold, but something in his heart started to breaking into a small piece. But once again, he was too stubborn to realize it. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- AN: Um... end chapter 3?... um... yay? *Looking around to see everyone ready with their weapon* Whoa!!! Sorry!!! Don't sue me!!! Don't harm me!!! Don't hate me!!! Don't kill me!!!! I know I'm cruel!!! I know Tokio wouldn't do that!!! I know I'm wrong!!!! *Running away to escape from the weapons that almost hit her* At least give me time to explain!!!!!! *Looking around and found everyone stopped hit her* Ehem... Ok, I know it's too cruel for Tokio and Saitou fans out there, I also know that Tokio wouldn't do that, but she have to do that!!!! *Everyone glares* Um... I mean... she was rejected by Saitou, and ... I guess it's normal for everyone if she searching for another man that could give her love, I mean who could stand not being loved by someone they love, even their own husband / wife for more than 1 years!!!! So... don't hate me ok? It's just a twist! If I don't add it, everyone will leave me... *Saw everyone start to leave* Awww.... even when I'm make a twist they still leave me!!! *Cries* So what should I do now??? Please come back... Ah maybe I have to update the 4th chapter soon!!! *Everyone keep walk* What if I stopped this fic?????? *Everyone keep walk* What if you give me the reviews!!! And tell me if you like it or not?????? Should I stop or continue??? Well at least give me feedback ok? *Another grenade* Bye!!! Note: You probably realize I use '2' too much, like 2 months, 2 weeks, 2 days... That's because my lucky number is 2!!!! *Everyone throw grenade* Don't forget to give me reviews!!! *Running away from the grenades rain* ------------------------------------------------------------------------