Disclaimer: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin. AN: This story takes place before the Kenshingumi. And please excuse my grammar error, cause it want my language and I'm not very good at it. If you want to help checking my errors please tell me. MARA: I've corrected most of the mistakes on December 13th, before I put this up on my homepage. Still I think I might have missed something, if you find remaining mistakes, you may keep them =^^=. Now into the story: :: The darkness and the light :: *Chapter 1 * *BOOOM!!!!* A loud explosion was heard in the silent night, a dark night colored with red fiery light. Everything was destroyed. Everything? Accept one man... "Damn!" He murmured trying to ease the pain that seemed to kill him. He tried to stand up, but the pain in his leg and his stomach made him unable to stand. It seemed that his leg was broken or something, he could smell his own blood in the air. He never thought this mission could turn out to be like this, the enemies clan seemed more clever and sly than he had thought, his squad was gone, all were dead. He never thought the enemy would sacrifice themselves with that explosion. He let the pain take his body's control and with a loud 'thump' he was lying on the ground again, his left hand was unable to move, so did most of his body. He took a glace over the explosion to spot some dead body lying on the ground. It brought back his memory... /"Why I choose you to take this mission you ask??"/ /"Because, you are lucky, whatever happens, you are always the one who will stand and take the victory flag." / "Lucky, heh?" He thought sarcastically. Then he closed his eyes. "So I'm lucky after all?" And the darkness filled him... ************ She hated her family. She hated him. But most of all She hated herself for agreeing to marry this man. "Sacrifice." She thought. She had to sacrifice herself for her family. It's had been 1 year since she married that man, Saitou Hajime the ex Shinshengumi. But she never tasted love between them. He was too cold, and she was too scared. "A perfect match for a marriage, right?" She rolled her eyes and then looked outside the window. And she closed her eyes as a single tear rolled down her cheek. "Yeah, perfect?" She whispered bitterly. +++++++++++++ */I know what is the meaning of darkness, I used to be the darkness /* "Do you found someone?" A man in police uniform yelled. "No! But I will search other area!" Someone answered. */I never found a brave light across my path /* "DAMN! Only dead man, dead man, and dead man!!!" Another police man cursed, then he saw him. And hurriedly checked his pulse. "I... I found someone alive!!!!!!!!" He yelled, the other following the voice. */And I never bothered to find one /* */Because I never needed it anyway? /* +++++++ "This way." A police officer showed her the way to his room. She was in a small hospital, since it was the best medical service around here. Her hands were sweating, she was nervous to see him. It's been 3 month since he had left their house. The officer left as Tokio walked into the room and found her husband, lying weakly in a bed, the bandages covered most of his body. She took a seat in front of the bed and looked at Saito sadly. She didn't know what she felt right now, her feeling were mixed. She was worried, sad, angry, and felt relieve at the same time. Then she realized that she was caring for him. She was caring for someone she hated since the first time she had moved with him. It made her confused and scared. She didn't need that feeling, because she knews he would never give it back to her. He never gave her the same feeling she wanted. And she didn't want to be alone. She feared loneliness. And he was loneliness. How came that she could loved him? 'Maybe it's a pity.' She thought, trying to erase her earlier thought. 'I do pity him.' She continued, 'And it will always be like that.' Then she felt someone looking at her. And she found his gold shaped eyes staring at her. She opened her mouth, but nothing came, her voice gone, so she faked a smile. "Why are you here?" His voices were barely a whisper. She felt something crushing her body as she heard his voice. "Anou? There... there was an officer asked me to... to come here, so... so... I..." She was speechless, she always was like that around him, her eyes were staring at her hands. "Oh." He said, then he closed his eyes. Tokio watched him, then his wounds, she felt an urge to touch him, to hold him, to kiss him. But she knew it could only make everything worse than before. */I used to be a light/ * After she made sure that he was sleeping, she took a breath before she opened her mouth. /*But I was too afraid to walked into the night* / "Can... can I touch you?" And she didn't need for his answer, because she knew he was sleeping. /*I'm too afraid to shine * / She stood up and kept close to him. */Cause I'm small, too small to embrace the darkness /* She touched his cheek lovingly, and she felt a warm feeling through her small body. */I am a failed light that fell into the darkness /* She lowered her face slowly trying not to wake him. And brushed his lips gently with hers as a tear escaped from her eyes and felt to meet his closed eyes. */And I can't shine anymore... /* And she knew even if she tried lying to herself, but she couldn't stop the fact, that she loved him... And it scared her... +++++++ AN: I know Tokio looked like a crybaby in this story, but she'll grow stronger and stronger in next chapter (I hope) and you will see the change of Saito cold heart. So What d'ya think so far? should I continue or not? Please review! JA! ------------------------------------------------------------------------