JINCHUU
by GRACEY, written in 2002
Disclaimers: All standard disclaimers apply. The characters of Rurouni
Kenshin
do not belong to me, they belong to Watsuki Nobuhiro-sensei. I'm only borrowing.
Nothing is mine except the plot. The song 'Shakespeare in Love' is by Layla
Kayliff and some other guy...(where the hell is my CD cover!) The song is
NOT
MINE and I acknowledge all their rights and the rights of the companies
associated with them and their song. I'm only borrowing.
Chapter Three:
...So he falls enough to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart...
She lay silent in his arms, unwilling to break the spell that would eventually
end with the arrival of daylight. Both of them knew the impossibility of
what
had taken place. It was crazy, Kaoru thought flatly. She should never have
agreed to anything he said. To put it plainly, she had allowed him to seduce
her. But a part of her was satisfied with the way things had turned out.
The
incredible tension between them was gone, and she was the wiser for the
experience. So why did the prospect of morning make her feel so empty?
Enishi moved and she tightened her hold on him unconsciously. She didn't
want
him to go. When morning came he could leave her and she would push this night
far, far back into her memories. But for now, she wanted him to stay, to
keep
the emptiness away for a while longer.
"I'll stay," he promised softly, his arm around her waist. Their bodies were
still joined and he had not felt such repletion, such peace. Not until this
moment. "But when dawn comes we will forget this. It's for the best." When
Battousai came for her she would forget him. He could not form any lasting
attachment to her.
"I know," came the expected reply. Still, her ready agreement hurt.
"And if Battousai ...if you ever marry ....should he ask, tell him I forced
you," Enishi said almost coldly.
"I'll tell him no such lies. And I won't lie about you either. Whatever happens
will happen." She couldn't sully what they had done together with weakness
and
deceit. His hand touched her hair, fingers stroking her head until soothed
by
his ministrations, Kaoru fell asleep at last.
When the sun made its appearance, Enishi untangled himself from her embrace.
Picking up the blankets, he covered her beautiful body, tucking her in just
like
the way he had found her. She muttered and he chuckled softly. She did have
a
habit of talking in her sleep. He just hoped she would not mention this episode,
for her sake.
Shutting the door behind him, Enishi slung his tunic top over his shoulder
and
made his way to his room. The sunlight poured in. A new day had begun. He
had
had his Jinchuu on Battousai, he had taken his woman and made her his. And
to
top it all off, she had been willing as well. He had came out the winner
in the
end. But that thought couldn't dissolve the yawning emptiness that he felt
deep
inside. Nor could it erase the feeling that instead of punishing Battousai,
he
had punished himself by tasting heaven when he knew he could not have her.
In
the end, Battousai Himura would get her and once more he would have to stand
by
and watch. In effect, he had damned himself to hell for the second time.
Enishi was lost in his thoughts when he noticed the ship approaching the
island.
It was his partner from Shanghai. The man had always struck him as too smooth
to
be trusted, too cunning to be liked. But nonetheless he was relieved by the
latter's appearance. After a hurried wash-up, he made his way down the hall.
Stopping as he passed Kaoru's door, he looked briefly at it and allowed himself
one last remembrance before he turned his back, walking away. Alone once
more.
END
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Comments:
Okay, I'm sure there are some who aren't too happy with what I've written
and
frankly I am somewhat critical as well. But I've chosen to highlight other
points, Kaoru's emotional vulnerability (how faithful can you stay to a guy
who
hasn't even held your hand or let you know that he cares???!), Enishi's desires
and his twisted self-deception that ends in self-realisation, for however
short
a time. I wanted to infuse elements of the uncomfortable (natural desire
and a
coerced compliance) even in their lovemaking, the reasons for it and I hoped
I
succeeded somehow. Thank you very much for reading.
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