Journal Entry October 2000
"You're days away from moving
on with your life"
our newest
legal confidante reassured us, after I had recounted yet another berating,
unfounded statement in the press.
"Why do I let it get to me, why
do I feel so angry?!" I was shaking, I had actually convinced myself
I no longer believed that. It was by all appearances
"You know the truth, I exhaled, and tried to let it
go. I admit, it took awhile, I couldn't fight every battle
After all, this wasn't the end
of our lives, Suffering only hurts because
you fear it. Suffering only hurts because
you complain about it. It pursues you only because you
flee from it You must not flee, You Must Love. Because you know quite well
Well then, love your suffering.
Taste how sweet it is in its
essence It is only aversion that hurts, - Herman Hesse
fuming,
reevaluating my opinion of the press as a whole,
of authority
of the government,
of everything and everyone.
that what I read in the papers
was more often than not, true.
far more of a political vehicle
for whoever yielded a mightier sword. "I hate to see clients exerting
energy on these kinds of battles."
"This is why I am here,
think of me as your voice,
let me be your voice and fight this battle for you.
That's why I'm here. We'll demand a retraction,
and if they don't give one,
we'll go after them."
that's all that matters,
you are the only person you should be answering to."
but then slowly
the fog cleared from my cluttered mind,
and I heard him.
if I was going to move on with my life.
It was the beginning.
You must not complain,
You must not fear.
deep within you,
that there is
a single magic,
a single power
a single salvation,
and a single happiness,
and that is called loving.
Do not resist it,
do not flee from it.
give yourself to it,
do not meet it with aversion.
nothing else.
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