INSIDE MY SHELL
I can feel my hands tremble
I can taste the droplets from my eye
Alone, I sit out of reach
No-one to help me as I bleed and cry
My skin is painted with tears of joy
My appearance is a shield for me to hide
But my shell has been cracked and damaged
Look carefully and you will see my sad inside
The ceiling gets lower the more I stare
The walls move closer, no route to leave
I feel trapped and helpless
I'm surrounded by death, I can't breathe
I'm expected to laugh and smile
People think all I am is what I appear to be
Sometimes I can't laugh and sometimes I can't smile
Happiness isn't the only side to me
When things are bad you see me smile
But inside I coldly stare
Only those who know me would know the real me
For me to smile inside and out is rare
My head covers up my painful thoughts
My fists are only there for purpose of aggression
Look into my eyes and you'll see how I'm feeling
Look through my egg white shell and see my depression
No-one notices that the curtains aren't there
I want someone to look, someone to see
Everyone walks past without giving a glance
I want someone to look between the walls, someone to help me
My visions are red and my thoughts are of death
And no amount of crying will make it alright
The tears down my cheek have dried on my face
When I've stared into space all through the night
No-one can see behind closed doors
My thoughts and feelings remain unknown
Enter my head, break in if you have to
Coz I don't want to be alone