Today, I slept in late again, but only because I was up late last night. Looks like this is becoming a recurring trend. Was gonna go hiking today and have a bonfire, but decided to do it perhaps another time when it isn't so muggy/warm out and when everyone can be there. Other than that, just sort of hung out with Ryan for the afternoon.
Talked to Kriston today. I've decided that my life is in a rut right now. I need to get out and start seeing some people. Start dating. I have a couple of girls who would like to start "seeing" me...so perhaps I'll start there (as opposed to starting with someone who doesn't like me? heh).
I dunno, it still feels weird though. It's like, something inside me is scared. Scared of committement was my first thought. But now, I think it's different. I don't know, something just tells me that I'm not ready yet...but since I like to hurt myself and do things the hard way, I'm going to take a chance on this one. I'll find out one way or another I suppose.
(I know, some of you are shaking your head right now, probably thinking that I'll never learn ;-) ).
Listening to "She Don't Know She's Beautiful" by Sammy Kershaw right now...I love this song.
Lyrics? why yes, I have them! Here:
"We go out to a party somewhere
The moment we walk in the door
People stop and everybody stares
She don't know what they're staring for
She don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her so
There she goes just walking down the street
And someone let's a whistle out
A girl like her she just can't see
What the fuss is all about
And she don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her so
Morning comes and her hair's all a mess
That's when she thinks she looks her worst
It's times like this she don't know why
I can't take my eyes off her
'Cause she don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her
she don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her
she don't know she's beautiful (never crossed her mind)
She don't know she's beautiful (no she's not that kind)
She don't know she's beautiful
Though time and time I've told her so"
Plans for tomorrow? Possibly going to hike, rather I should say probably. Might visit Kriston at work, heh. Other than that, who knows. I'm not exactly looking forward to work on Thursday, but ah well, it's money, right?
Now listening to "Red Rubber Ball" by Cyrkle...you know, this song is very interesting...I came across this song on the radio awhile back.
Lyrics anyone? Here:
"I should have known you'd bid me farewell
There's a lesson to be learned from this and I learned it very well
Now I know you're not the only starfish in the sea
If I never hear your name again, it's all the same to me
And I think it's gonna be all right
Yeah, the worst is over now
The mornin' sun is shinin' like a red rubber ball
You never cared for secrets I'd confide
For you I'm just an ornament, somethin' for your pride
Always runnin', never carin', that's the life you live
Stolen minutes of your time were all you had to give
And I think it's gonna be all right
Yeah, the worst is over now
The mornin' sun is shinin' like a red rubber ball
The story's in the past with nothin' to recall
I've got my life to live and I don't need you at all
The roller coaster ride we took is nearly at an end
I bought my ticket with my tears, that's all I'm gonna spend
And I think it's gonna be all right
Yeah, the worst is over now
The mornin' sun is shinin' like a red rubber ball
Oh, oh, oh
I think it's gonna be all right
Yeah, the worst is over now
The mornin' sun is shinin' like a red rubber ball"
So anywho, yeah, I think that about wraps up this evening, heh. Arevaderci!
Oh, and by the way...15 MORE DAYS UNTIL MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Not that I suspect a great change, but at least my "title" in society will change and I will no longer have to be referred to as a "teenager"...
Not that that's a good thing ;-).