What do you do if you keep falling in love with the wrong person? "Wrong" meaning they are out of your reach, but you continue to bank on false hope? I seem to be doing a lot of "banking" within the last couple of years. It's not like as if I'm on a timetable for finding the right one, but I have this constant fear that, since none of us know when our last day will be, I'll never get a chance to experience what it's like to have someone before I go. Out of all the human experiences in this life, that is by far the biggest one I want to know and experience before I die. Many people take that for granted. I can't tell you how much it kills me everytime someone who's had/been in a relationship tells me "Aw, don't worry about it, they aren't all that great, you're better off being single and 'free'"...oh bull. Perhaps a five-year-old child would believe that, but I'm 20 and I've already had a taste of what love can do, and I want more.
I like this song...just because I'm bored I'll post some lyrics:
Elton John "I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues"
Don't wish it away
Don't look at it like it's forever
Between you and me I could honestly say
That things can only get better
And while I'm away
Dust out the demons inside
And it won't be long before you and me run
To the place in our hearts where we hide
And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Time on my hands could be time spent with you
Laughing like children, living like lovers
Rolling like thunder under the covers
And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Just stare into space
Picture my face in your hands
Live for each second without hesitation
And never forget I'm your man
Wait on me girl
Cry in the night if it helps
But more than ever I simply love you
More than I love life itself
That was just a couple of thoughts rummaging around in my head last night as I slept. Now onto other things...
Today is my mother's 52nd B-day :-D. I'm happy that she's lived this long and I hope she lives another 52 more years. My grandparents and older sister and nephew are coming for the festivities of the day. I miss them as well as I? rarely get a chance to see them. I worry about my grandmother the most as she has been having some problems as of late, and she would NOT be easy to get over if I lost her. I suppose it isn't easy for anyone, but I mean her in particular as I feel really close to her.
Let's see...I work tomorrow 6am - 6pm, same as the next day (Sunday)...it will be fun, I'm sure.
Hmm...I've only been up for an hour, so nothing much has happened thus far in the day! haha
I'll post a little bit more I'm sure by tonight...
