That day is coming upon us...some call it "Valentine's Day" -blech- but to those of us who are fortunate enough not to get caught up in this "Hallmark Holiday" it's "Singles Awareness Day"
It's a time we can get together and drink mead and be merry. Single guys and girls rejoice at this happy occasion! While others are off spending loads of money and getting fat on chocolate and showing those they love that they care by opening their wallets, we can enjoy a fee-free and relationship/burden-free day of merriment, drunkery, games, and lots more!
Who am I kidding, haha. If I had my choice, I'd spend every last penny and second on someone I loved.
Alas, since this year I shall yet again be alone, I will rejoice in the fact that at least I'm alive...if that's any comfort, heh.
I am content in just celebrating "Singles Awareness Day" with my friends.
We all choose the life we live. True that the Lord knows already what choices we will make, but He gave us free will, and so in essence, life is what we make of it. He does not stand in our way, but provides a hand when we ask upon Him.
Ah well. I say "ah well" a lot but what else is there to say, you know?
All I want is my soul mate. I want someone whom I love without end and who feels the same about me. It's unfortunately rare, however, for people to find their soul mate.
I found mine once. It was brief, but it was the best time/feeling in the world to me.
I pray I find another like her, though I doubt it. There isn't anything in the world that can compare to that one special feeling...when you find someone who you couldn't possibly be anymore compatible with. The one who is your exact match. The "perfect" one.
I have "loved" so many in my life...but only cherished few...and only worshipped one. I suppose that is my downfall right there. It was my own fault for putting this individual before God...and perhaps that is why God does not think I'm ready yet...
I only ask for one thing. A chance. A chance to see/prove whether or not I'm ready. I want to know for myself whether I'm ready. Yes, granted, if it turns out I'm not ready, it could turn a potentially good relationship bad, but, I would rather have experienced failure and at least tried, than never get the chance.
Pray for me...all I want is to not have to spend one more day alone. Days like Valentine's Day and "Sweetest Day" kill me...I see guys getting their loved ones roses and bouquets and such other trinkets to show those they love that they care...
Does nobody out there want me? Am I really that repulsive, self-righteous, or something else I may be missing...?
I don't know what's wrong with me...I am waiting on the Lord...but I'm afraid I may not get a chance to feel what it's like being loved in return before the rapture or my death, or whichever comes first...
Why hast thou forsaken me, O Lord?