Relieved...humbled...stressed...crying...it's difficult to say right now.
I have been worried about a lot lately. Work, school (my college career), friends, family, life in general. It seems like my small world is in disarray. I used to think I had it all figured out, what my future was going to be, and everything would be great. Unfortunatly life seldom works that way. My simple, mundane life is being transformed, and everything is changing, and my future seems unsure. Financially, I'm in a bind and that's what is hurting the most...but also there's other emotional and mental things going on as well.
I had always pictured going to college straight out of high school, earning my Bachelor's Degree in Meteorology, and my life would begin on the right foot.
So far, I'm still struggling just to finish up my Associate's degree at Mott (3 years later after High School), I'm moving out in a month and at the same time I need to go back to Mott to take more classes, both of which costs a lot of money, and I'm not getting that much from work right now...and when I do finish Mott, I'll have to take out a student loan, move to Mt. Pleasant, live on campus and attend classes at CMU, and hope that I can work hard enough not to fail, and not get homesick, heh. Also, I'm not sure if my car is going to make it much longer, and with the gas prices and everything...sheesh!
More or less, finances haven't been looking too good, and neither has my future.
Then I talked to Matt. He reminded me that God has it all taken care of (in a nutshell, it'd be too long to quote the entire discussion, heh). He's right. I should leave it in God's hands and not worry about it. My mother and Matt have both said and know how passionate I am about what I want to do for a living, and how adament I am about making my lifelong dream a reality...so, I have decided to just go for it, run with it, and never look back. Never have regrets. I will finish taking my classes at Mott, take the SAT and ACT tests, apply to CMU, get the student loan, and go for it and never look back. I'll minor in computer engineering to have something to fall back on.
Friends are some of life's amazing wonders. I don't know where I'd be today without them.
So, I raise a toast and a salute to my friends. May you live long, and may God bless you in everything you do. :-D
