The rage
Of the ocean
The fear
In the mind of a child
The hopelessness
Of a lovesick fool
The regret
Of a lifetime passed by.
I know that I have left your life,
Just as I've left mine.
Remember that I'm in no pain,
And that I'll be just fine.
I've left this earth,
He called me home,
Just like they said he would.
I'm far away from the pain
Replaced with all that's good.
So please don't sit and weep,
And be angry that he has taken me.
It was just my time to go,
And now at last I'm free.
I know that you will miss me,
As I will miss you all.
But I will be with you forever,
Till it's your time for the call.
So please do me this favor,
And keep me in your heart.
Please don't dwell on that sad, sad day,
When we had to part.
Remember things about me,
That made you love me so.
Like how I loved to make you laugh,
At the times when you were low.
Remember me in winter,
My favorite time of year.
I'll be with you in your memories,
They will keep me near.
But when you think about my life,
If tears should start to fall,
Remember I'll be waiting for you.
When it's your turn for the call.
Careless emotion
Reckless disregard
One moment of passion
Now locked away in memories
As consequences surface
Reality seeps in
Eternity looms forward
Forgiveness is seaked.
Why?
Why the hell do you care?
I'm just one little person
In a world so big that
No one will ever know I was here.
Why do you tell me that you will miss me?
Is that supposed to make me feel bad?
Is that supposed to make me hurt?
Is that going to make me feel something?
I haven't felt anything in months.
I don't care how you feel.
I don't care that you will hurt.
What about my hurt?
Does that matter?
Or am I supposed to go on feeling like hell?
Just so that you don't feel loss.
Hell with that.
Go ahead feel bad.
Feel what I feel.
Know what it is like to be me.
Know how it is to wake up one morning and know
That you are a bad person.
Wake up and feel my life.
Wake up.
She was standing right in front of me
So close that I could reach out to her
She was just staring back at me
I could see the hate and contempt
That she had for me in her eyes
I knew what she was thinking
I could see the disgust that she felt
When she looked at me
She knew my worst secrets
And my deepest fears
And that is why she hated me
I just wanted her to go away
And I knew how to make her.
So I turned from the mirror,
And walked away.
Kissed yours,
Then the sun might as well
Never shine.
If my ears never again
Heard your words,
Then the stars might as well
Fall from the heavens.
If my eyes never again
Saw your beautiful face,
Then the flowers might as well
Never bloom.
And if my heart never again
Felt your love,
Then my heart might as well
Wither and die.
