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Wrote By: Amanda D. Hart October 12th, 2000
I take my time as I walk along the shadows of death......As I walk through the darkness of Satan and then the light hits my eyes as the Lord comes and try to take me back....But as I walk along the edge of Death I tell him sorry this time I am gone for good......I have lost everything that means so much to me but yet I can never get them back therefore I am gone from your world to this one and I shell not deny the fact that I do love him more then ever but there is to much hurt inside of the heart that use to be......But as he faded a way from me I have lost alot of love and yet I have not loved anyone as much as I have ever loved him then and still do as I am on the edge of my Death and the lines of the two......Oh how I wish I could just turn myself around but this time I can't sorry......I chose my path and I am willing to follow it for I have no right to be with someone that I have treated badly......But as you know I love him more then ever but it is over as he left this world and I am alone.......But life goes on as we all know and I am just glad that I had his love here and now that it is gone there is nothing for me here........Even though I love him so deep and true......I lay myself on the line and would gladly let the fight go on but I chose and I am going on with what I have chosen.....I am sorry my Lord but I must do this for him and not anyone else.......If he wish for me to come to him then let him come and take me if not then leave me and let me walk the line of Darkness and Death....As I walk I see another light brighter then ever as I look as best I can I see his little smiles and then I see how he loved me so.......But as his sweet voice echoes through the guide lines of light and Death I can see his love coming out......As he tells me that he loves me and he says he will always be with me no matter what.....I can see a tear fall as he wishes not for this to be so but I tell him I am sorry......But I must go and I hope not to hurt you any longer then I have already have......I feel it is only right and it is respectful of me to do so.....I am sorry if I hurt you if I did and I hope you have luck in doing what it is that you are doing......I hope your heavenly life treats you well and may all the angels watch over you well I go here.....I am dreadfully sorry Hun but I can't change everything that has happened to you and I......I am very sorry Love I love you baby........But I must go a different direction only because I can't stand it and if I ever decided to stay I would only make you miserable like I am with out you......As I stand here looking at you and wondering if there is something you are waiting for.....I look at you as if to say please Darling let me go and let me die with honor........For I am just something that use to be and not what it is just remember Love I love you and I suppose I always will......As I look at you and see the tear fall down your face I wonder if you really want me to come home with you as I continue to walk the lines of Light and Death.......Between Good and Evil and all the stuff flashes and I almost fall to my death of hell and then suddenly you grab me as to keep me here with you.......I wonder if you really want to keep me or just keep me from my death as your light grows dimmer and dimmer as I speak to you......Honey I am sorry for all the hurt I have caused you and everyone around me for you know that I love you more then I ever thought I could.....As I walk to you as you step back from me and then I realize that you love me more then you ever could and with your heart and soul......As you continue to walk from me I begin to run and cetch up to you.....I tell you that I want to be with you forever and never let you go please come back to me please.....He would never leave me here alone I know and he loved me more then anything ever in the world....As I follow him the Lord says I am glad that you chose to come with us......We all love you as our Child and I am just glad that you followed your love here instead of hurting us and choosing the wrong way of going......As I look at him I wonder if he is just putting me on or whether it is true what he just said to me.....Lord I only came because I love him and I wish to be with him forever that is it......I do love you to my Lord but not as much as him or at least I love you equally.......For you have taught me that love is strong and it is always going to be.....I suppose that love is just as strong as hate but love must be stronger it brought me to you once again....I just hope to live in peace and happiness forever and always....That is why I love you and him so much.......Even though love hurts so much.......There is songs of Love and Hate and some are of both and as I write my songs a long the way they seem to get happier and yet some are sad to.....I am just glad that I am here with you and my darling love I love so dear....I suppose that Love could never change how I feel about life or anything that runs though my thoughts in my head....Well it makes me wonder if life was ever fair to those who do what is to be or was it always uneven.......You have the answer as I know for you know all and I could never compete against you for you are to powerful for me to even attempt to win.....Even though meny have tried I know but they all failed and I will not risk that at any expense....I love him as you know and I always will therefore I am here to stay and I will never leave him for he is my love my life and the one and only........I give him my heart as I speak to you and I hope to never loose again.....
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Jadyn Quists Life on Gor
there once was a slave girl who once wander about gor we all know that is dangerous all accounts for a slave to do but she did anyways she managed to meet herself in the forest where she kept living until one day she felt the need to not be there anymore she needed something new something that would be fun as she set off out of the forest she went walking miles on miles over gor feeding herself on plants and what ever animal was left behind by the Masters that camped on road sides....
the girl walked a fair bit till in the distance she meet up with path way fallowing her she found her self within the mits of the City called Venna... It was a large City knowing she has never seen such a pretty and wonderful City like Venna before she moves towards it watching merchents and peasants line the streets beggers and others pushing through her as she entered the city of Venna
the girl was suddenly startled as two Massive males about 6 feet tall came up behind her and grabbed her by the arms dragging her along the city streets and into the Great Hall of the city called Venna..... her heart raced as she was presented to the Ubar of the city.... they droppered her before Him with a wide smile he asked her what brought her to his great city... she replyed "a girl was curious Master Ubar"... He said curious about what, what is there in the city that attracted you to it... What brings you here girl... she replied "Girl has never been in a city before Master Ubar ".... He nods to the girl better
she looks at the Master Ubar as if to say in her head what are you doing with me why won't you let me go.... he retrieved a collar bring it before her green eyes as she froze in her spot he asked the girl what is your name she replied "final fantasy Master Ubar".... he nods his head as she knees there in sure silence scared of what might happen to her as she suddenly before she could run or move out the way the Ubar snaps the collar about her neck with a loud CLICK... as it echoes through the empty hall... she whimpered as she heard his commands you are not no longer final fantasy you are now fantasy slave of VIP..... she looks at him puzzled wondering what VIP ment
so she asked the Master Ubar.... "Master Ubar what does VIP stand for in girls kolar" he laughed seeing the girl didn't get out much he spoke it stands for Venna In Palace... she blinked at him as she replied.. " YOU mean to tell girl can't go out side the Palace Master Ubar" that is correct he said... she shakes as he then put a placement and called her to the position of the Display she does so with out wanting to anger him.... she then trembles as he says stay like that I have someone I want you to meet and she will treat you well girl if you behave... as your for sale and would like her to have you as her first...
The girl looked at the Ubar with a empty look in her eyes as she watches the Mistress of a home she could not remember... she was then handed to the Mistress as the Mistress changed her kolar from VIP to Elizabeth.... so now she has been placed in two different collars already but her adventure is not yet over as the Mistress took her to the OutLaws Out Post.... she trembles as she was warned do good and you will be living well Elizabeth didn't care for the girl as the girl was still a virgin and she wanted nothing to do wtih her so she handed her down to a Master her being a white silk he GRINS.... he caresses the girls flesh as she shakes he then turns to Fantasy and says your now jadyn as he takes the Mistresses kolar off and places it with his own.... that says {BRY} in big letters placing her in black silks... as she trembles....
so again the girl remains silent not uttering a word as he speaks his rules of his kolar to stay a live as he stands there looking the girl over she then realizes something about him that makes her attracted to him not knowing what it is as she was then used by him before all and himiated for all the see that she is nothing but a slave and will be treated as such... she then was taked knowing she has had her named changed two times and steel three times within the matter of days as she taken to a place a Island actaully called Akas of Agula.... dropped before her Master as she was happy again being within Bryrus kolar and know how to please him so..... She became very happy and earned her gray silks her heart beating so wild when he held her praising her with great deeds done good... Making sure her chores are done every day and making sure that her owner was kept happy... One day she came to see her Master the owner of the home called Akas of Agula had sadden news for the lass... He spoke gently and said it was the will of your Master to give you to his brother... jadyn wept and ran not wanting to lose the steel she feels she loves so much... Forgetting what was under the kolar that night she slept in the cabin where her Master once was... The brother of the man Bryus.... Came to her and said I will let you be with another he will treat you well.... Jadyn herself felt betrayed.... Feeling like it was planned out... jadyn's heart fell that night and she would never forget that Master... Later months passing the girl held the kolar knowing only one Master would ever call her boo... She held tight to the kolar of Bryus... She would not let it she went to the waters of gor... Her heart heavy and her tears staining down her face she found herself releasing that kolar that day... jadyn was then given to a Master again keeping the name she had she found it not the same with any other Master then Bryus... Bryus was cruel but kind to the girl... Sturn handed and very well know that he was law to her... Jadyn never questioned the love that her Master gave to her... She was again given to a Master he was kind but as jadyn misbehaved he punished her with being a Free Woman... Jadyn could not stand to be a free she could not understand the concept of it knowing her choice now was to either leave or stay in the punishment... She left that evening as she cried herself to sleep pleading to the Priest Kings to give her strength... She found herself in the City of Ar... Her heart shared and her soul so wrapped around one Master she knew she would never forget... She gave herself to that Master and till this day she too is with him in the City of Dust... She is happy there knowing he can hold her and love her as he once did and knowing she can live the life she always dreamed of... She even found peace in her heart when she passed on... Leaving behind a FC who loved her very much and she would never forget him no matter what just like she would never forget that Master... On this Jadyn being free was now Free Woman she was taken in by a very well kind man named Val Amon Quist she had everything she wanted and yet she felt kind of out of place... Jadyn had adopted a girl named Misty... Misty was her pride and joy... Jadyn explained to her that some day she would need to be on her own... As Jadyn died before X Sation and Val... She whispered I am sorry and I will always love you all... Misty was then cared for by Val knowing that Val would care for and love her just as much as Jadyn did... X Sation I am not sure what happened to him but I know he still hurt by the death of his FC... His only love... But Jadyn was never forgot...
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