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   Malika for Oguz Oguz or Oguz Ertan?

Oguz,

Oguz, you certainly don’t want to hear from me and this, I am able to understand it. I was young, selfish and blind when you left Manor Road and not aware that I was loosing not only a roommate but, also a true friend full of kindness and wisdom.

‘’It’s not a guy for you’’, you warned me but I didn’t care about your advice because I thought it was only jealousy. But you were right, and I still remember how much I hurt you, even so long time after.

I was young, selfish and blind. He was talking all day but words blew in the wind. You didn’t say much about your feelings, on the contrary, but they were surely much deeper than his. I was in love with an image and this caused you much ravage. Don’t worry I got a return and I realized how love can burn.

From France, I wanted to apologize regarding my behavior. I didn’t get any address where to reach you when I tried some moves to trace you down in London. Even didn’t know your family name!

"’I didn’t want to hurt you,
I am sorry that I made you cry
I didn’t want to hurt you
I was just" a selfish girl

I am going to leave this earth soon but would like to get some peace before, peace of mind. For this I need to beg your pardon and get it, if possible.

I know that you’re entitled to refuse this request. Believe me I don’t want to trouble your life which must be a happy one. I don’t want to disturb you today and I won’t write you if you do not want.

Just let me a message to tell me if you accept to forgive me.

Hope you’re enjoying your life, hope you have a nice family because Oguz you deserve it, really.

I am living far away from Turkey and far away from Manor Road, in Canada, in Quebec precisely. I do hope you’ll read these lines before I quit.

Malika