If I imagine that I'm not myself today,
Maybe the pain will just go away.
My disguise wore thin, the real me is singed and
this changeling is trapped in her misery.
If I could I'd take back the things I said.
Chew my tongue out and punch myself instead.
If I could I would worship all you do,
but I cannot abandon thought just for you.
I've been pretending that I'm in the books I read.
It helps me cope cuz I cannot sleep.
My dreams, polluted by things that I've jilted and
what good is life with no fun in it.
If I could I'd take back the things I said.
Chew my tongue out and punch myself instead.
If I could I would worship all you do,
but I cannot abandon thought just for you.
I worry too much about things that used to be
instead of watching where I'm going.
I'm bruised and bleeding the pains not receding.
You are the scar that refused to heal.
If I could I'd take back the things I said.
Chew my tongue out and punch myself instead.
If I could I would worship all you do,
but I cannot abandon thought just for you.