Attraction...
if only... if only...
I�m wishing...
{praying?}
if things would
could
touch him
hands,
hands,
mouth...
no
if he were thoughtful
or even thought at all
if I were not
Committed
Un-Happily Ever After
Why can�t I be
Reckless and true?
�Just like you...�
He doesn�t worry about
anyone else
Selfish; self-assured
Why can�t I have that
Confidence...
He wears
like a crown
he wears
in his smile
Sometimes it�s that smile
that makes me want to
Say
yes...
.....
But I grow
Repulsed
Sickened regret
. . . s p r e a d s . . .
from the hollows inside
almost?
wanting to be filled
But I know better...
{Do I?}
Sunday
Anticipation
The ringing, I listen
for the ringing
Half wanting and
some dreading
I know what to expect
Then the bell tolls
Reluctant
I answer
�Hello?�
Like Eve�s forbidden fruit
no, not so extreme
It�s almost taunting
I must admit he�s tempting;
Strong,
sure of himself
He�s giving off
such an impression
Two weeks
Too weak
He says
�Give in...�
because it�s...
�within reason�
hands
and
hands
and
hands
Mouth
No morals
No one has to know
He says
he really cares
when he won�t
look me in the eye
the next day
When no one is looking
He smiles
and winks
and blows me a
kiss
Not many people know
his secret
He wants me
to help him abolish the
Innocence
Locked up and under key
He hides it
No one suspects
He expects the giving
of things that
I still cling to
Gravel road, overgrown weeds
and a small clearing
guilded
{lied}
glade of green
Beneath the trees
I remember the first instance
He said it almost joking
The hands
unbuttoning...
My shy eyes
looking up at him
my resistance didn�t stand a chance
I didn�t know what I wanted
I still don�t
�know what I want...�
{see that smile...)
Liar, liar, liar
Because we both are
he lies to me
I lie to him
I lie... I lie...
�I won�t tell anyone and you won�t tell
anyone...�
I lie to him
I lie with him
But I can�t be honest
I lie to me
He is so sure
Do I hurt his pride?
A tiny, insignificant being
such as I...
Could bleed his ego
Perhaps that�s the