| Prelude In one moment it all was changed Everything I thought I knew, for sure, has been pulled out from under me And for once I feel free Someone sees my soul and sees me for what I can really be and what I really am I have dreamt of love forever I have hoped and prayed and wished and cried for someone to save me for someone to make me believe. And for so long I couldn't believe... I thought I had it all figured out, I thought that the negative was all there would ever be and I had myself prepared to face the worst... And then you happened... You told me the truth and I fell right there and I don't know if you noticed but I can see you and I want to see you and you don't just look or pretend to feel... So many nights and days I have spent locked inside myself looking for inspiration for a common soul for a dream that over this time I have created... I never thought I'd have a chance so I put my thoughts of you away. So suddenly you've changed it and you've turned everything around in my mind. I don't know what to think now. I can only hope. And I am afraid... I am more afraid now than I ever have been before. I am afraid that you were joking... that I misunderstood... and mainly, I am so, so, so scared that this will all be a lie again, that I will fall into something I want to be beautiful and it will be another nightmare... God, I have hoped for this and I want it more than anything before... I can't hope too much, I can't dream too much or it will just fade away... Please, please, please let this be something strong and founded something I can believe in... Please, please, please... 4-24-01 |