| (FINALLY) CLOSURE I'm fucking over you now I don't see your face EVERYWHERE anymore I'm sick of your fucking shit I never loved you though I pretended too sick fuck I don't need you now like I thought I did then I'm over it now I don't have to vent everyday I don't have to cry everyday I don't have to lie (to myself) everyday because of you You don't matter anymore (you never really did) I don't need your attention your affection I'm through playing your whore I'm through sacrificing my feelings for an asshole like you Fuck you I wish I never did I wish I never thought I could love you I was so stupid but who's okay now? I am not dependent anymore I don't need that ego boost anymore I can find myself without you I do not need you to redeem me FUCK YOU I still hate you I still hate myself for all the things I let you put me through FUCK YOU I can't let go of this hatred I still feel You don't give a fuck you never did you're a user, just an asshole getting off on my naiveity Well, it is too late to take any of it back But I have no regrets I don't care about you anymore like then, when you were everyday for me like then, when you were what I lived for like then, when you were all that mattered and now all that matters is torn and shattered at my feet little shards of the glass that for so long were my foundation little pieces of cracked plastic all that held me together unraveling strings, rotten with misuse and here I am NEW NEW NEW I can love I can feel again I am healed... 4-21-01 |