Do you know what does it mean?!
Silent
Song
Do you know what does it mean to have a step mother?
To have a peaceful home is like a broken feather
Do you know how does it feel to be an orphan?
When you didn't choose your destiny, you didn't have an option!
You wake up every day with a fatal smile
Hopping you would find peace in every mile
But once you woke out of your room
Trying to open your eyes to see an in or an out zoom
Then suddenly you see a stranger's face
Proclaiming that this is her home and sitting in your favorite
place
You try to open your eyes widely and just stare
Wishing you were still asleep and having another nightmare
But you are not dreaming, you have just begun a new day
Wishing it is different from the past one, but they all go the same
way
The same stranger is still there and all you can do is bearing
Seeing her sleeping in the place your mother should be taking
Saying nothing at all because it is God will
Till the day pass and you try to sleep but it is time for your
sleeping bill
To finally close your eyes and forget this woman's face
Dreaming to wake up and find her vanish with no further trace
But the cycle goes on and you wake up to still find her
Wishing one day you would find the strength to bear
What you are experiencing every day without saying a word
Fighting with your unknown enemy with a broken sword
Do you know now what does it mean?
Don't blame yourself because it is not seen by everyone, only
orphans will know what I mean!
Online Love
Even though we are miles away...
A computer screen can make us stay.
Stay Together as living in a day dream
Seeing in the middle of winter night our love as the coming sun beam
It suddenly happened without any further notification,
We loved each other without any explanation.
Suddenly we both realized.
That our hearts were taken too far beyond the skies.
We fell in love by words written on a computer screen,
With some imaginary pictures that weren't yet seen.
We didn't know how to talk or even how to behave
When we found ourselves talking about the love we used to save.
We didn't care much when we first met online.
It really seemed normal.there wasn't any sign.
We were just having fun and trying everything new
But we didn't know it was our destiny to meet.we didn't have a clue.
Although it was strange as it may seem
we felt nothing but living in a sweet daydream.
We thought much about it and tried to believe that it was
insane
How can words from a complete stranger make you feel happiness
or even pain?
My love for you.
Listening to love songs is a thing I am used to do
But before I knew you, I never believed that these love words
could be so true
Only when I loved you I began to hear every word and not just
listen
I began to believe every single word and really feel the
rhythm
And you are still asking me what changes that you did to me?
Ask everything around you; ask our common friend, the sea.
It might tell you that every time I look to it
I remember every word we used to say not forgetting a bit
Ask the sky that witnessed our love grow
Ask the winter that blessed our love with every drop of snow
All these witnesses of our love will tell you what you did to
me
And how did you change me and let me break free
From the chains I was putting myself in
Thinking of my existence in this world as the unforgiving sin
But no I can shout loud
That by you here by my side
I can't feel this thing they are calling fear
I can't even drop from eyes a single drop of tear
Now people are envying us for the love we are sharing
They can't even understand how much we are really caring
"They must be crazy", that's what people to each other have
told
Just because we feel warm together while they are feeling cold
Didn't they know that we have the love that would easily light
a fire?
Didn't they know we would warm up the world if only we have
that desire?
They think it's strange but we both know how much it is true
That nothing in this world would ever change my love for you.
He is
not
you
He knows exactly how I feel
He knows it, as if it was real
He has those great feelings for me
That even blind man can easily see
Those feelings that he does not even try to show,
Because he always assume that I have to know
Without even a gesture or even a word,
Because his silence had to be heard.
He makes me feel so much in confusion,
That everything without him must be an illusion
In this crazy world that he almost disguise
He can find the truth that were lost in lies
I sometimes say to myself,
"How can’t I love him while he’s everything I ever need?"
To me, he’s like the flower that I have always been it’s seed
He knows my words before I even start to talk
He even see my steps before I began to walk
He almost have everything I have been longing for
But I just wish that he have it all
He has everything but he can’t have me
And if only you had eyes to see
You would easily know and understand
That I just can’t give him my hand
Because although he almost have everything,
he hasn’t got the essential part
Which that he has not got my heart
Not because he does not have a clue
But just because he is not you.
Silent song
Chain
I don't know why it had to happen
Everything began and ended all of a sudden
All what he was doing to me was all wrong from the very start
But I guess I was just enjoying him being the strongest part
I didn't love but I was ready to convince myself that I am
As if I was deceiving life and it was doing to me the same
And all what I gained was a painful blame
And a cracked heart was my only claim
I was just enjoying being near to love once again
But how am I supposed to know it held all that pain
I wasn't even seeking love when I met him in the first place
I didn't even ask for caring or a simple love embrace
All I seek was company
In time when I felt cold and lonely
But all I got was a hard smack on the face
Reminding me that this is not my play ground or even my suitable
place
Reminding me of my old self and forcing me to rethink again
Although this smack I had held so much pain
But it as the only way to stop me from being insane
And when it was all over and peace was all around
There was no one here by my side, not even a single sound
And loneliness was all I found while singing all by myself once
again in the rain
Chained forever in my Silent Song chain
Silent
Words
May be my words are so few
But that doesn't mean that I don't really care for you.....
Yes I know that I am, most of the time, silent
But that doesn't mean that I don't have words to say
Baby I am not from another different island,
Or from somewhere that have been swept away...
But words to me don't come so easy to be said
Words to me are meaningless, they are almost dead
Feelings to me are expressed by the way they really are...
Not by a precious gift or a fantasy car....
Feelings to me are silent because that's the way they have to be
They have to be felt in every move one makes
They have to be felt in every breath one takes...
And if those silent words of love aren't felt that way
Then no word in the whole world is really meaningful to say
And express the real feelings which are very true
which passed all the gates of silence and finally broke through
To reach the open gate of silence and suddenly burst out
to all the people and finally shout
The words that everybody is longing to say
"Baby I Love you and here is where I will forever stay...."
YOUR SHADOW
From the land of silence I can hear your name...
Two years in the darkness but still I can see you the same....
And all the air I breathe is full of painful blame...
For you that I had lost and for you that I had became...
Looking for my past, I can see it in those eyes...
One poor glance takes me to the skies...
And how I wish you could hear my inside cries....
And believe my words that were lost in lies...
Blindness visits me when I find you away...
And my soul does nothing but calling you to stay...
And what's inside my heart is too hard to say...
Because they are only dreams that you'll be back one day...
I can see you shining when I look to the sky...
A beautiful angel racing a butterfly...
Raising my hands to hold you, I find you moving high...
Guess I will only have your shadow till the day I die...
I loved you before
I loved before you but is that a crime I have to pay for
And does that mean I am not responsible for our love time and
score
I met him long before I knew you
So don't be jealous of him because he and I are forever through
I can't say that he was a bad guy
And when I left him I thought I would forever cry
Shouldn't I let you know of him? Should I have been shy?
Love is not a shameful thing to admit
Even when it didn't work out a little bit
All I want you to know that I really love you with all my heart
And if I knew you before I met him, I would have loved you from the very start
I am not saying this to make you feel great
It is the reality that I don't want you to hesitate
When you know that there was another one before you in my life
But isn't it enough for you now to know that you are my whole
life
I know you didn't complain but your silent thoughts I hear is cutting me like a knife
I love you baby for whom you are
And my past life doesn't even leave a scar
Because you removed everything since the day I saw you with my eyes
As if I was a new born baby in his mothers arms
You are my life now and I am not going to leave you think alone
And here is the answer for your question that you had never shown
I love you with all my heart with every single laugh and pain
And if it was in our hands the experience we gain
I wouldn't have chosen to love any one but you
I wouldn't have wished to see any one but you
Because you are my true love and this is the only thing that is true.
My love for you.
Listening to love songs is a thing I am used to do
But before I knew you, I never believed that these love words
could be so true
Only when I loved you I began to hear every word and not just
listen
I began to believe every single word and really feel the
rhythm
And you are still asking me what changes that you did to me?
Ask everything around you; ask our common friend, the sea.
It might tell you that every time I look to it
I remember every word we used to say not forgetting a bit
Ask the sky that witnessed our love grow
Ask the winter that blessed our love with every drop of snow
All these witnesses of our love will tell you what you did to me
And how did you change me and let me break free
From the chains I was putting myself in
Thinking of my existence in this world as the unforgiving sin
But no I can shout loud
That by you here by my side
I can't feel this thing they are calling fear
I can't even drop from eyes a single drop of tear
Now people are envying us for the love we are sharing
They can't even understand how much we are really caring
"They must be crazy", that's what people to each other have told
Just because we feel warm together while they are feeling cold
Didn't they know that we have the love that would easily light a fire?
Didn't they know we would warm up the world if only we have that desire?
They think it's strange but we both know how much it is true
That nothing in this world would ever change my love for you.
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