| wut is love....duz it really haf a tru meaning? well..for most ppl i guess i can say yes..but for me..no..it duzn't...i don't know wut love really is...in a way..i guess i've never actually experienced love...that's prolly cuz i've never completely received it from my parents..which is a big factor...they've never told me that they love me...i've never even heard those words come outta their mouths...that's why i can't really say..i love you..to sumone...cuz it juss duzn't mean anyfin to me...they're juss words that haf no definition....i guess most pplz parents haf said it to them...and really showed them that they love one another..but not me..well..at least i haf no recollection of it.. but ya..i may say it..and u will hear it..but it duzn't mean anyfin to me as much as it may mean to you...love...i show it more than i will ever say it...my actions always speak louder than words will...that's why if u say it to me...i either won't say it back..or say it kinda hesitantly..or really quietly....if you force me to say it..oh..i will...but it duzn't mean anyfin to me...yes..i can say it casually...like..luv ya!..wen i'm wif frenz..and juss foolin around..but ya..that's different..for me..that juss like saying..hey..wussup?!...kinda thing...dunno if i make much sense..but..yaa..hehe...'n in a way ish the same in other languages too..je t'adore, aishiteru, le amo, woh ai nee...hrmm...i guess i've seen love and know wut it's supposed to be..like on tv and stuff..hehee...but i don't know the tru meaning and feeling of love itself..ppl say that it gives you a nice..tingly feeling wen sumone says it to you..but.. well..it's not the same for me...they don't haf an impact on me...like i said..they're juss words...i feel sooo bad for not sayin it back sumtimes and for saying juss cuz the other person said it and i dun want them to feel bad..cuz they said it and i din't...that's why i usually explain to them why i dun say it... i'm sorry to those that i haf misled..but that's how i feel bout love...in my mind...they're juss three words...three words that don't mean much to me.... |