Reality v. Fantasy
thenonsquirrel (9:01:14 PM): (curls up into tiny ball)
thenonsquirrel (9:02:08 PM): I
thenonsquirrel (9:02:09 PM): am
thenonsquirrel (9:02:10 PM): an
thenonsquirrel (9:02:12 PM): idiot
MagicRoar (9:02:29 PM): why?
thenonsquirrel (9:02:50 PM): b/c there's a flaw
thenonsquirrel (9:02:52 PM): in my logic
MagicRoar (9:05:33 PM): what's that?
thenonsquirrel (9:06:34 PM): there is no natural right to do what you want...
MagicRoar (9:08:20 PM): who says?
thenonsquirrel (9:08:41 PM): all the laws of nature
MagicRoar (9:09:04 PM): sure there is
MagicRoar (9:09:12 PM): you just have to accept the consequences
MagicRoar (9:09:16 PM): if the consequences are silly
MagicRoar (9:09:28 PM): just other ppl trying to control
thenonsquirrel (9:09:32 PM): it's not the consequences
MagicRoar (9:09:37 PM): then they're easy to endure
MagicRoar (9:09:40 PM): you can just alugh?
thenonsquirrel (9:09:42 PM): I don't give a freak about having a detention
MagicRoar (9:09:46 PM): but?
thenonsquirrel (9:10:16 PM): the last thing I ever want to do, is look into the face of someone I respect and see disappointment
MagicRoar (9:13:10 PM): hm
MagicRoar (9:13:21 PM): that does justify quite a bit of hming
thenonsquirrel (9:13:31 PM): it does
MagicRoar (9:13:44 PM): and who is it you're concerned abt?
thenonsquirrel (9:14:08 PM): you'll look at me funny...
MagicRoar (9:14:44 PM): only if it's ruebush
thenonsquirrel (9:15:07 PM): my mom, and ruebush...
MagicRoar (9:15:26 PM): ruebush doesn't care
thenonsquirrel (9:16:14 PM): well, he wouldn't hate me forever or anything like that
thenonsquirrel (9:16:26 PM): but it would be a part of whatever idea he has of me
MagicRoar (9:17:08 PM): yes
MagicRoar (9:17:13 PM): that you're 18
MagicRoar (9:17:20 PM): that you appreciate sunny days
thenonsquirrel (9:18:59 PM): how can I be a good person if I'm being irresponsible? and willing to be dishonest about it?
MagicRoar (9:19:28 PM): YOU weren't dishonest
MagicRoar (9:19:35 PM): you would've preferred nan didn't say anything
thenonsquirrel (9:19:58 PM): but getting my mom to excuse it if they'd called would be
thenonsquirrel (9:20:03 PM): and so would not telling her
MagicRoar (9:20:31 PM): getting her to excuse it, yes, but not telling her isn't
MagicRoar (9:20:38 PM): so long as you aren't activly hiding it
MagicRoar (9:21:04 PM): if she were to confront you and ask "did you cut 7th?" you'd cave in, whatever your intentions
MagicRoar (9:21:11 PM): b/c you have an instinct for morality
thenonsquirrel (9:22:21 PM): what if I don't
MagicRoar (9:22:39 PM): you do
thenonsquirrel (9:22:39 PM): what if I'm just doing whatever seems easiest
thenonsquirrel (9:22:47 PM): what if I'm being really annoying right now
MagicRoar (9:22:51 PM): heheh
MagicRoar (9:22:52 PM): you're not
MagicRoar (9:22:58 PM): seriously claudia
MagicRoar (9:23:00 PM): think abt it
MagicRoar (9:23:06 PM): if you're having this many issues now
MagicRoar (9:23:12 PM): w/o having lied
MagicRoar (9:23:16 PM): or done anything dishonest
MagicRoar (9:23:22 PM): at the mere potential of dishonesty
MagicRoar (9:23:29 PM): that suggests a little instinct
thenonsquirrel (9:24:15 PM): which could be outweighed by my lack of courage...
thenonsquirrel (9:24:30 PM): it could be and I know it
MagicRoar (9:25:31 PM): then quit whining abt how weak you are and be courageous
thenonsquirrel (9:26:04 PM): hm
MagicRoar (9:26:11 PM): i've found most unpleasant mindsets go away when you forget abt them or decide they're inconvenient
thenonsquirrel (9:26:59 PM): but it's a reality, not a mindset...
MagicRoar (9:27:18 PM): courage is a mindset
thenonsquirrel (9:28:48 PM): yes
thenonsquirrel (9:28:59 PM): but presumably not one you're going to ignore
MagicRoar (9:29:09 PM): well
MagicRoar (9:29:18 PM): you'd ignore the lack of courage
thenonsquirrel (9:31:22 PM): hm
thenonsquirrel (9:33:40 PM): I dunno if that makes it go away
MagicRoar (9:33:50 PM): sure it does
MagicRoar (9:33:54 PM): i'm gonna shower
thenonsquirrel (9:33:57 PM): wouldn't it be better to be conscious of it, so you could avoid acting on it
thenonsquirrel (9:33:57 PM): k
MagicRoar (9:34:18 PM): pretend it exists, and be concious only of the fantasy
MagicRoar (9:34:21 PM): then it becomes real
thenonsquirrel (9:43:44 PM): maybe