| pity complexity of my life/ transforming it to waste/ numbness, nothing more as i slip into the void/ you see who i am/ its not what you want/ ignorance not the word to explain where i am/ emptiness causing me to vacate this hollow shell/ you see who i am/ its not what you want/ pity/ wasting your mind/ wasting your life/ pity/ potential destroyed / your future is raped/ pity/ languishing in my own despair/ forsaking my own dreams/ my need for acceptance caused this cycle to begin/ you see who i am / its not what you want/ in the room/ dark and cold/ barbiturates course through/ ripped from me/ viciously/ slowly i bleed to death/ i see where i am/ its not what i want/ pity/ wasting your mind/ wasting your life/ pity/ potential destroyed/ your future is raped/ silent in the night. |
| away all those times that i lied to myself/ betrayed myself and destroyed myself/ the weakness in my soul/ the self-destruction takes control/ finally/ the back bone snapped/ the foundation shattered/ the dam burst/ forcing me to change/ regretting the past as i realize/ what i've done/ what i believe/ its all shit/ complete hypocrite/ i am undeserving of all i have/ my character it falters the flame it is waning now/ i refuse to submit as of this day/ self-destruction will not take/ my/ life/ away/ i always told myself that i/ would not be like those that i despise/ sliding ever backwards/ i refuse to let it continue/ ripping out the part of me/ the weakness and the lethargy/ forcing me to change/ regretting the past as i realize/ what i've done/ what i believe/ its all shit/ complete hypocrite. i am undeserving of all i have/ my character it falters the flame it is waning now/ i refuse to submit as of this day/ self-destruction will not take/ my/ life/ away/ weakness is not a virtue that i condone/ swallowing up my life invading my soul/ you can't drag me down that path/ i've buried it with strength/ all those times that i told myself that i can change tomorrow/ all those times that tomorrow came and everything remained the same/ the best years of my life will not be looked upon with regret/ i'm not the person that i wanted to be/ i am undeserving of all i have/ my character it falters the flame it is waning now/ i refuse to submit as of this day/ self-destruction will not take/ my/ life/ away. |
| inextinguishable i wake to another day/ monotonous and mundane/ complacency my first thought/ but i stand up and brush it away/ and its so easy/ to accept your place and grow accustomed to it/ but fuck all that/ to get to dry land you gotta wade through shit/ i won't give in/ to my own lethargy/ determination/ burning deep inside of me/ while those who/ surround me/ squander their time/ living lives so bleak/ well i'm sorry i can't do that/ i'm not that fucking weak/ from cradle to the grave/ intelligence enslaved/ taught from early childhood/ mediocrity is the way/ but buried deep inside me/ is the need for substantiality/ despite all odds/ i believe in the betterment of humanity/ i won't give in/ to my own lethargy/ determination/ burning deep inside of me/ while those who/ surround me squander their time/ living lives so bleak/ well i'm sorry i can't do that/ cause i'm not that fucking weak/ it burns inside/ it burns/ i won't give in/ to my own lethargy/ determination/ burning deep inside of me/ while those who/ surround me/ squander their time/ living lives so bleak/ well i'm sorry i can't do that/ cause i'm not that fucking weak! |
| ok, so here's the deal with these. i know they're not what you'd expect from me. i wrote them a long time ago when i was going through a lot of crap, and i didn't know to deal with it, so i wrote. excuse the language though. anyway, zac read them and decided that he wanted to make songs out of them for his side project, PARALIZED, (i know thats not how you spell it, but i didn't name the band!) they sound awesome to music! copyright 2002, paralized |