I'm depressed. Why? I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm home alone right now and have nothing to do. Maybe it's because my life consist of hanging out with people that have low self esteem. Maybe it's because I'm a nice guy that can't get a girl because the girls in my life constanly tell me that I'm super nice and all, and a great guy, but. Maybe it's because I'm not looking in the right direction and I pull in girls that live on beer or weed and want guys with tattoos and shaved heads and are just with me to pass the time away. Or the girls that are looking for Mr. Right Now and not looking for Mr. Long Haul. The girls that are looking for lust instead of love. The girls that are looking for a meal ticket. The girls that are looking for LET ME SLAP YOU AROUND AND TREAT YOU LIKE A BITCH guy instead of someone who has a heart and is willing to share it. I'm sorry if I offend anybody with this. But I thought about it a few times. Should I be an asshole just to find a girl that will stay with me for the long haul because I'm an asshole to her? Should I find the girl that wants me for my money just so I have someone to come home to at night. Should I shave my head and get nazi symbols tattooed on me? Should I just crumble up and just deal with it that family tradition and family morales has been lost through time? Should I...should...I? Why not! I see guys with girls that I have to sit and wonder, why is she with this asshole? What is it that he has, that I don't have. Even though some of these guys aren't really assholes. They're just assholes to their girls. Why? Where have the girls gone that look for a guy that's true? A guy that will be there for them. A guy that will love them for what they have inside of them. I'm not gonna sit here and say that I'm perfect. I'm far from being perfect. But I am a nice guy. What's wrong with that? What's wrong with a guy that's nice? What are you girls afraid of? What is it that you really want? Tell me. Before I become an asshole. I was an asshole when I was a teenager. I really don't want to go there again. But if that's what I have to do to get someone to love me, or pretend they love me, then what the hell, right? Here's a list of my imperfections based on recent surveys: I'm just such a good friend, why ruin it I'm a nice guy, but I'm too old (I even got this one from someone who was 5 years younger than me) My hair is thinning My abs don't look like a six pack I don't smoke weed I'm an Alice Cooper fan I'm too romantic I like karaoke Horror movie fanatic I'm too touchy feely (what, have I repulsed you since we started dating)(I like to hold hands, what the f**k?) I could go on, but why bother. Is anyone actually reading this? I know there is someone out there for me. Where, I have no idea. But right now, I'm lonely, depressed and bored. Why am I even writing this? Maybe just to get it out of my system. Who knows? Maybe I should be happy that life is full of oysters right now and I should give up on looking for my pearl. Guys are considered heroes when they're conquering all the oysters right? I'm not such a bad guy. Why do I have to be bad?
